Dear Sebastian,
It's been a while since I last saw you, I still keep believing that you'll come back for me. That you will finally receive the soul you craved for, that you died for.. It seems like so long ago yet It's only been a few weeks. I have no idea why I'm writing this letter. You will never see it. Never see the emotions I've put into it and countless thoughts and hours that have been consumed just writing and waiting on you to get back.
I don't want to accept that you're gone Sebastian.. You of all people who said that you would stand by my side until the end. Yet, this is not the end. This is only the beginning for me. The sleepless nights and restless days seem to drone on and on and I don't know what to do anymore.
My life seems useless now. You gave me back my humanity, as ridiculous as that sounds. You showed me so much and perhaps you knew this would be the climax for our tragic separation. I could never figure you out, Sebastian. Your sadistic nature always puzzled me. I still know nothing about you yet you were as dear to me as my family. You were my sanctuary from reality. I've never said this to anyone Sebastian but I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything that I've done and that I didn't do but should have. I'm sorry. I'm sure by now you have found a new master, and a new fresh soul that appeases your hunger. I just wish I could have provided something to you for all the hell I have brought down on both of us. I'm gonna end this now Sebastian, for i feel myself losing control and the ink is smearing. I just wished that maybe you would be able to see this from my point of view. I loved you Sebastian. As deep as any love could ever go, and perhaps even deeper. Perhaps we will see one another later on in our never ending lives. Then again, perhaps not. Goodbye Sebastian, My butler, My love.
Sincerely Yours,
Ciel Phantomhive