For someone who talked a lot, there were a lot of things he was afraid to say. Maybe it was it was fear that he couldn't say them well enough. More likely, it was because he feared the loss of someone so important. He had lost so much already—his home, his friends, his family, his entire race, and so many companions before her.
When he does lose her, he loses all the happiness he had gained. Everything that she had fixed broke again, yet he lost so much more than that. The timelord cannot comprehend all the feelings he is having; it is as if he has lost Gallifrey twice, and so much more. He feels empty, and he's gone crazy. His emotions and thoughts are all jumbled up, and he barely understands the words that come out of his mouth. The not-ginger man's actions are rash and more desperate and random than before. This alien is almost suffocating in the loneliness of losing her. Even when he gets a new companion, it doesn't make it better. He doesn't speak her name because it hurts.
At first, he can't speak of her. How could he? He no longer has the right to speak her name; she was stuck in a world that wasn't hers—somewhere she was never supposed to belong. Besides that, he had lied to her. Once, he had assured her he would never leave her. Now, they were separated by entire universes.
"What was her name?"
There's no avoiding it now. He can't deny this brilliant woman standing before him an answer.
"Rose," he says.
The name rolls off his lips, like they were made to say it. Trillions of images fly through his advanced mind, of all that had been and all that could be. The golden goddess, the pink and yellow girl, the Bad Wolf, his lovely companion, his friend, his almost-lover (no, he couldn't bring himself to think of that too long. It hurt far too much to consider the possibility.)...
The Doctor has seen a lot of things. Galaxies, planets, and moons. He has seen things from all of time and space, but to him, nothing sounds as beautiful as her name…Rose Tyler.
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(A/N: sorry. I don't even know what I'm doing sometimes. I just have a lot of Doctor/Rose feelings. I hope you liked it...Reviews are always lovely!)