Hey guys, this is another repost : ) Again, not the best writing in the world, but this one's definitely better than Concrete Angel and most certainly longer! This was originally intended as a multi-chapter fanfic, but I've decided to make it only four chapters long.
Here is the first bit : )
The minute I moved there I felt at home. I felt like everything was finally falling into place. Even though I was a nervous wreck on my first day of school, I felt at peace the moment I stepped through the doors, like it was where I belonged.
My name is Rosalie Lillian Swan and I moved to Forks 18 years ago when I was 8 years old. We lived in a small apartment for the first two months and then moved to a larger house. On the first day of my new school, I left the apartment, nerves rumbling in my stomach and my hands clutching my school bag tightly, and here is where my story begins...
"Mum, why did we have to move again?" I looked up at my mother, and she smiled down at me before opening her mouth to speak. Alice spoke from the back seat of the large Vauxhall, asking where we were going. I shook my head in exasperation; 'typical Alice, always interrupting' I thought, seething as I crossed my arms and faced the road again.
"We are going to your new school, love, Forks Elementary School, doesn't it sound nice?" Mum smiled sweetly at Alice and I glared at the pavement outside the window, hardly noticing the feet that flew past, or the little spots of chewing gum that you could just see dotting the street. "Now what did you say honey?" I shook my head as the colours merged together through the hazy film of tears. My hand gripped my school bag more tightly as I tried to will the tears away.
"Mummy, Rosie asked why we moved, she asked her question first, so why did you answer Alice's before?" Bella spoke up from beside Alice and I turned to look at her, smiling. Bella was always so sweet, I'm still waiting for the day when she would turn around and tell me to go away when I said 'good morning' to her. But she never has.
"Sweetheart, I was just answering questions, I didn't mean anything by answering Alice before Rose," My mother sighed, she truly hated dealing with things like this, having to justify her actions, she did it enough with her parents.
"It's OK mum, I know you didn't mean anything," My mum looked at me and smiled gratefully, happy to leave the subject. That was always my job, changing the subject, making sure no-one was harmed or upset, and I did it well, always hiding what I truly felt, never making sure somebody knew what I was feeling, although my Grandma always did, she always knew when something was wrong with me.
We pulled up outside the school and I looked up at it in wonder. The large buildings were old and so very different from the school we had been at in Phoenix. There were pillars flanking the doors at either entrance to the Victorian houses and a path leading to a large garden behind the buildings.
The pavements were all wet, soaked with the rain that fell constantly, as opposed to the dry, dusty slabs of stone that formed the pavement outside the large Elementary school gates. I remember that he high blue poles seemed to stretch into the sky forever, never quite reaching the clouds, but near enough that I could hardly see the points when I stood directly beside them.
I climbed out of the car and Alice ran to mum, gave her a hug and darted inside. Bella climbed out slowly and went to hold mums hand. Mum looked at me tentatively and I smiled back at her half-heartedly. She gave me a hug and whispered into my ear.
"Good luck, baby, have fun." I felt the emotions tugging at my stomach again, as tears pricked the corners of my vision. I smiled despite the sickly feeling that was increasing by the second. I saw my mum's eyes turning slightly red and decided to hurry into the school.
"Bye mummy." She smiled again and I walked towards the front door. After about two paces I heard little feet running towards me and suddenly, my legs were clasped by the arms of my little sister. I looked down and smiled. She looked up at me with watery eyes and smiled at me too.
"Don't cry Rosie. Please?" I laughed a little and the sick feeling eased slightly, Bella had always had a knack for stuff like that. I patted her head and hugged her back.
"OK, Bells, I'll see you at the end of school. I'm sure you'll have lots of fun with the rest of your class." She nodded into my skirt and I rubbed her back a little. "OK, Bella, I have to go into school now, I love you, see you later." She let go and ran back to mum who was smiling at me. I smiled back quickly and ran off to join Alice in the front room...
Halfway through the year, and I loved that school, I spent every waking moment I was at home wishing I was there, and every sleeping moment dreaming of the next day. I had become friends with the other kids on our block and we had bought a trampoline for the back garden, so everyone was always round playing with us. The person who came around most frequently was Edward Cullen. We were the same age and he spent most of his time talking to me. He had strange coloured hair, almost bronze, and startling green eyes that keep you captivated right from the get go.
One week when he was here, he taught me to do a back drop. He smiled when I got it wrong and encouraged me to do better. It took three days and ten scraped knees for me to get it right, but I did. He was so pleased for me and he hugged me for the first time, and I hugged him back.
I met his mother, Esme, when she came to pick him up later that evening, and I loved her. She had caramel hair, which slightly resembled Edwards, and soft blue eyes that smiled at you all the time.
"Mum, Rose finally did the back drop!" I blushed at the thought of him talking about me at home and ducked my head, shrinking into my mum's side. She wrapped her arm around me protectively and smiled at Edward.
"That's nice honey, but Emmett and Dad are waiting for dinner, and you know what Emmett is like with his food!" Esme spoke softly and ran a hand through Edward's hair. He laughed and grabbed my hand. I squealed as he pulled me out of the house towards his car. It was a huge Range Rover and my jaw dropped when I saw it.
"Emmett, Jazz, come meet Rose, Alice and Bella." Edward yelled towards the car, still holding my hand. Two other boys climbed out of the monster and I blushed, shrinking back slightly. Edward looked back at me and smiled, I smiled too, liking the way that he said my name first.
"Ally, Bells, come out here a second." My sisters came running when I called back for them. They stopped just behind me and Bella grabbed hold of my hand. I looked down at her a smiled again, pulling her beside me.
One of the boys had brown, almost black hair that was cut short on top of his head. He had smile-y blue eyes, like his mum, and pale skin. The other one had blonde hair, almost caramel, that must have come from Esme, and greyish-blue eyes, that twinkled with mischief.
"Rose, this is Emmett, my big brother, he's eleven, so he's at Forks Middle now." I smiled as Emmett waved and pulled me in for a bone crushing hug. I laughed when he released me and I swayed a little, but Edward caught me. I blushed again and pulled my hand from his, wrapping my arm around Bella's shoulder as I pushed her in front of me. "Jasper is a year younger than me, so he's about the same age as Alice, right?" I nodded and Alice looked a little put out that I had answered for her, but she stood up a little straighter when Jasper nodded in her direction. He had his head down and was shuffling his feet a little.
"Umm, so, Emmett, Jasper, this is my little sister Alice, she's the same age as you, and this is my youngest sister Bella, she's only six, she just had her birthday." I blushed some more as Bella beamed and pulled from my grip. She ran towards Emmett who swung her onto his back with ease. She giggled and clung on tightly.
"Emmett! Put Bella down!" Emmett quickly removed Bella from his shoulders as his mum came out of the door. She ran back to me and snuggled under my arm, as Esme began to tell Emmett off for putting a six year old on his head.
"Bye bye Rosie." I blushed at the nickname Edward used for me and smiled, nodding my head as he climbed into the car. Jasper waved and smiled too.
"Bye," His voice sounded like honey and I smiled back, although he was clearly looking at Alice when he spoke.
"See ya. Come on Eddie. Wouldn't want to be late for tea would we?" I laughed at Emmett's words and decided to call Edward, Eddie from now on. I waved and Emmett waved back, smiling cheekily at me. I had a feeling that I would like this family a lot.
By the time I was ten I had finally convinced myself that I was in love with Edward. He was just so perfect, and the way he said my name was just delicious, but I was ten, how could I love him? It just wasn't feasible, so I pushed the feelings out of my head and got on with my life.
I was in fifth grade at this point and thoroughly looking forward to going to Middle School. Emmett would be going into his freshman year at Forks High, so I wouldn't get to see him around school, but I wouldn't be alone because Edward would be there. But right then, I was still in Elementary school, so I had to put up with being around Alice all the time, and helping her out of trouble etc., etc.
On Monday morning I woke up with a sick feeling in my stomach, like something bad was going to happen. I slowly climbed out of bed and pulled on my jeans with a little top and my favourite beige jacket. I pulled on some socks as the nervousness increased, until it was gnawing at the inside of my stomach so painfully that I was actually clutching my arms around myself to hold myself up. I tied my trainers onto my feet and brushed my long blonde hair into a ponytail before trudging down the stairs to eat breakfast.
"Honey! What's wrong?" My mum cried out as she came back into the room, the happy smile dropping from her face and the early morning glow that usually surrounded her faded as she looked at me, her worry evident in her eyes. "Do you need to stay home, baby?" I shook my head, but that was a bad idea. My head started spinning and black spots formed at the corners of my eyes. Suddenly, all the angst and pain I was feeling became too much for me to handle and my eyes rolled into the back of my head, and I collapsed in a dead faint.
I woke up three days later in the hospital. My mum was sitting beside my bed, her head in her hands. I brushed my hand over her hair and her head snapped up to look at me.
"Rosie!" My mum yelled causing dad and three nurses to come running into the room. "Oh, baby, you're awake!" I nodded my head weakly; I was confused and had a pounding headache.
"Yeah, I guess I am."I whispered quietly and my mother proceeded to run to the doors and yell for everyone to come and see me. "Mum! My head really hurts, could you please not yell?" She slapped a hand over her mouth and apologised profusely before coming to sit beside me and hold my hand.
I looked up as the doors flew open and Edward was there, with Emmett, Jasper and Bella following close behind. They came straight over to me and immediately began throwing questions at me. My head was pounding, and my vision was still slightly blurred, so at the time, I couldn't be sure if I was right or not, but I couldn't see Alice.
"Mummy, make them be quiet please." I whispered in the smallest voice, so that nobody but my mum heard me, but she immediately silenced everyone, allowing me to clear my head and focus on the people in front of me.
Esme and Carlisle were standing in the corner talking to my dad, and Jasper and Emmett had Bella with them at the end of my bed. Edward was sitting on my left hand side, while my mother was sitting on my right, but I couldn't see Alice anywhere. I was starting to panic, why wasn't she there? Was she hurt? Was the feeling I had for her?
"Mum? Where's Alice?" Everyone in the room visibly stiffened and I could feel the panic in me rising. "Mum? Is she hurt? Is that why I was ill? Mum? Dad? Edward?" Tears were running down my face now and everyone looked so sympathetic, it was killing me, and I didn't think I could stand it much longer, but then my mum opened her mouth.
"Sweetie, Alice had a party to go to, so she couldn't be here, but that wasn't why you were ill honey, you had appendicitis, no one's hurt baby, don't worry." I sat there, perfectly still, feeling the anger rise up to overflowing point, but I took a deep breath and turned to talk to Edward. I probably should have addressed the issue then, it would have saved an awful lot of arguments over the years had I confronted Alice then, but I didn't have the strength.
The next year, Edward and I stepped out of his mum's car. She gave us both a kiss and pushed us off in the direction of the school. I held back the tears that threatened to erupt and walked towards the school that I was sure I would come to love as much as I loved the Elementary school.
Edward reached out and grabbed hold of my hand, giving it a reassuring squeeze before we both walked, together, towards the school office to get our schedules.
"Aww, man, we don't have anything together!" Edward exclaimed as he looked over both of our schedules. "Oh, except lunch, we have lunch together, that's something at least." I nodded mutely as we walked back into the main stream of the school hallways and took back my schedule, finding my first class on the map. I made sure he knew where he was going, before I hugged him goodbye and we went our separate ways. Little did I know that our pathways would be separate for a very long time...
Throughout the school year, Edward and I grew further and further apart. He moved into the more popular circles, playing sports, generally being an ass, whereas I became known as a geek. I got good grades on all my work, and I hung out with other smart people, so that immediately wiped out any possibility that I might have a personality of my own. Edward was coming round less and less, Emmett was too busy with school work, and even when Jasper came round - which wasn't often as he was very shy - Alice would monopolise him.
But as Edward became less tangible, the more I felt attracted to him. This posed as a slight problem for me, as he was always hanging around with his jock friends and generally leaving me out of everything. I was hurt by all his rude little remarks, and though none of them were particularly derogatory, I was getting tired of trying to be his friend while he pushed me away.
The final straw was pulled when I was walking through the almost empty hallways during lunch. I turned the corner and saw Edward standing with Mike, Tyler and Eric. They were laughing at something and I was just about to ask them what was so funny when I heard for myself.
"Oh my God dude, how can you not see it, she is, like, all over you, she so wants to go out with you!" Mike spoke loudly, his voice ringing out through the empty halls.
"Yeah, I know right, but why would I ever want to go out with Rosalie Swan? Seriously Mike, grow a brain and get with it man!" My heart broke. Right then, in that hallway, it broke, and I'll be damned if it didn't half hurt. A single, gut-wrenching sob tore itself from my chest as I heard those words. Edward and the other boys turned around at the sound and Mike laughed along with Tyler and Eric. Edward was the worst though. He saw me and guilt flashed across his face for a split second, but it was gone as soon as he started laughing along with them.
"I hate you, Edward Cullen! I hate you with all my heart!" I screamed at him and ran from the school. Sobs wracked my body and tears streamed down my face, flying behind me, my hair whipping against my face as I ran, wishing fiercely that I could escape from the nightmare that had just occurred.
I ran until I reached the woods behind the school and collapsed against a tree trunk. I let the tears fall silently as my shoulders shuddered, dragging on the bark of the tree behind me.
After about twenty minutes of me sitting there, crying, I dragged myself up from the floor. Looking around, I realised that I was lost, hopelessly lost.
I stumbled around a bit until I almost fell out of the woods, but I wasn't in the Middle school car park. I realised with a jolt as I saw Emmett walking out of the school with some of his friends that I was in the High school car park.
"Rose?" Emmett yelled when he caught sight of me. I shook my head and turned to walk back into the woods. "Hang on here a minute guys, I'll be right back." His voice was faint as I stepped between two trees of the small wood. "Rose? Rosie, what are you doing here?" I shook my head again and he wrapped his arms around me.
At 15, Emmett was really big for his age. His hair had grown a little and he was wearing it in a stylish flick. His muscles had developed a bit with all the wrestling he did and his hug was strong and grounded. I took a deep breath of his jacket as he held me close to him and recognised the distinct smell of his house. The deep earthy tones of his cologne smelled different to Edward's lighter, sweeter one and immediately that thought brought back the events of this afternoon, causing me to cry again.
"Oh, Rose, don't cry, what's the matter?" I shook my head and delved deeper into the familiar embrace. "Oh come on, it can't have been that bad, really, what is it?" I pulled away and looked at him. His eyes held true feeling and concern, just like Edwards, although Emmett's were a sparkling ice blue, compared to Edward's expressive emerald eyes.
"Really Emmett, it's nothing, I'm fine, go back to school, I'll walk back now, I am missing fifth period." I disconnected myself from him and walked slowly back to school. He didn't follow...
"Bella! Get UP!" I yelled at my sister through her closed door. It was her first day of Middle school, and my first day of High school. Alice was listening to her iPod as she ate breakfast downstairs and texting her boyfriend on her brand new phone. She got it for her 'very best report yet!' Alice knew the stuff, but she didn't even have to try, unlike some people in the family, who try their very hardest at everything, and get good grades and everything, but they don't get brand new phones do they? NO!
Giving up, I barged through Bella's door to find her dressed and sitting on her bed with tears running down her face. I ran over to her and sat on her bed, rocking her gently from side to side and shushing gently into her hair.
"What's up baby?" She shuddered against me and dug her head deeper into my shoulder. "Is it because dad isn't here, Hun?" She nodded her head into my collar bone and I sighed. My dad was never there, hadn't been very much since I was nine years old. He was working for my uncle, and was always away on random business trips etc. Bella was affected the most by this; she still felt like the baby in the family, and didn't take too well to dad being away. She was a stereotypical 'Daddy's little girl'.
"I just - can't believe ...that he's...not here - for my first day...of mid,dle scho-ool!" She sobbed harder into my chest and I stroked her long mahogany hair. I pulled her up by her arms and dragged into my room, right next to hers. I sat her down on my bed this time and went to fetch a wipe and my make-up bag.
"Right, I want you to calm down and take deep breaths for me." She did as I asked while I gently wiped away the tears staining her face. "Ok, good, now hold your breath for five seconds, then release it slowly." She sucked in a huge gulp of air and held it, before slowly letting it out in a steady stream of cool air. I pulled a hair band over her face to hold her hair back and began applying a light layer of foundation while I instructed her to keep breathing slowly.
I put on a little bit of eyeliner and mascara, followed by some clear lip-gloss while she continued to breathe deeply. Soon, she calmed down completely and I directed her to the mirror. She smiled at her reflection and hugged me tightly. I hugged her back and began plaiting her hair in a sophisticated style that ran down her back.
"OK honey, what do you think?" She flicked the braid over her shoulder and smiled brightly at me. "Good, now, get your butt downstairs and have some breakfast." I forced a smile onto my face as she practically skipped out of the room. Sighing again, I collapsed onto my bed and let the tears fall for a few minutes as I thought about facing Edward in the car this morning after what happened over the summer...
"No! Eleazar, don't! Leave it, don't go round and see him, it'll only make things worse!" I pulled on my cousin's arm as he tried to leave the house, unfortunately for me, he had Alice on his side.
"Stop being such a spoil sport, Rosie" She sneered the name and I growled at her, tears rising. She knew I hated that nickname, she also knew how much I hated the person that gave it to me, the person they were now going to ask out, on my behalf!
"Stop it Alice, you know all about what happened, I can't believe that you are about to do this!" I released Eleazar in indignation and stormed up to my room to find Kate, my other cousin.
Eleazar and Kate looked very alike, they could have been twins! They both had the pale skin that was a family trait and deep, chocolate brown hair that hung in waves. Eleazar's features were sharpened, and he was far shorter than Kate, but given his age, and the size of his ankles, he was sure to catch up fast.
Kate was a head height taller than me, and I am not exactly short, just average. Bella was fast catching up to her, and Alice was already taller than her, but this didn't faze Kate like it did me. She was always so nice to everyone, nothing bothered her at all.
Eleazar was a different story. He had a fierce temper, much like myself, and again, like myself, was very, very protective of his friends and family.
Eleazar was Alice's age and Kate mine, so we both had someone to vent to when the other got on our nerves. This could be seen as a good thing, or a bad thing. A good thing for me, because Alice frequently got on my nerves, but bad for Kate for the same reason.
"I don't get why she won't just leave me alone! I mean, she has her friends picking on me, why does she have to do it herself? I am beyond glad that I will be away from her for a year, I might finally have a chance to find some friends!" I practically yelled so loudly, I hardly heard the door slam.
"We're back, he wasn't home." I breathed out a sigh of relief and smiled at Kate. I gestured for her to follow me as I walked out the door of my bedroom. She tried to jump on my back as I walked down the stairs, laughing with her, until I reached the door of the study, and then I stopped walking abruptly.
"What Rose?" Kate looked over my shoulder and gasped at what she saw in front of her. Alice and Eleazar were sitting at the computer on MSN and they were talking to Edward. "Eleazar! What the hell were you thinking?" Kate's face faded out as I stared at the conversation glaring at me from the screen. Even when Alice hastily closed the window, the words written there in garish pink and green mocked me from behind my eyelids, shining brightly and slowly breaking down my resolve.
Allllyyyyyyyyyy! :) =If she asked, would you go out with Rose? : P: P
don't . call . me . eddie=NO
NO
No
no
"No..." I whispered as the tears silently fell down my face.
I sat up slowly, wiping the tears away and grabbed my school bag as I heard Emmett's Jeep pull up outside the house. I ran down the stairs, grabbed hold of the cereal bar that my mum was holding out to me and walked out the door, slamming it behind me.
I walked towards Emmett's Jeep and saw that he had left the front seat open. I laughed as I saw him waving for me to hurry up and him pointing at the front seat. I ran a little quicker and yanked open the door. I looked into the back and my face fell as I saw Edward sitting in the back seat, looking morose.
"So, Rosie Posy, whatcha been up toooo?" He dragged out the oo sound at the end of the word and I laughed at him, brushing away the pain that stung me when he called me'Rosie'. I looked at him and found him looking at me, his eyebrows raised suggestively, he wiggled them before putting the car into drive and peeling out of the driveway.
"Oh, nothing much, you?" I couldn't help but keep looking distractedly over my shoulder at Edward. I flicked my head back and caught him staring at me, guilt and apologies written all over his face. I snapped my head back to the front and continued an animated conversation with Emmett about Freshman life, etc. etc. Basically, it boiled down to that, everyone knew Emmett and soon everyone would know that I knew Emmett, so I wouldn't have much trouble from anyone really.
Edward climbed out of the car first and walked away towards the main building. Emmett frowned and shook his head.
"Do you have any idea why he's acting like that?" I shook my head, biting my lip, don't tell him, don't tell him, don't tell him, I chanted to myself in my head. "Oh well, I wonder if he couldn't get the girl he wanted or something, I mean, he's been like that for three weeks, mum's really worried." My breathing hitched. Three weeks. The exact time it had been since he said 'No' to me, or rather, to my sister.
"I don't know Em, but point me in the direction of the office will ya?" He smiled at me and reached a hand out to ruffle my hair. I glared at him and he retracted his hand, grinning sheepishly at me as I beamed back at him; he really was like my big brother. He grabbed my hand and pointed it in the direction to go in. I smiled again and wrapped my arms around his middle. "I love you Big Bro!" Something in his stance faltered and he patted me on the head.
"You too Rosie Posy, you too." He smiled, but it didn't reach his eyes and I frowned, but as I opened my mouth to speak, Emmett rolled down the window excitedly and began to talk to one of his friends, Marc, I think. I smiled at his changeable nature and climbed slowly out of the car before carefully closing the door so as not to interrupt Emmett talking.
I walked towards the main office and just as I was opening the door, I felt large arms wrap around my waist and began to panic. But I heard a familiar voice whisper into my ear and I relaxed immediately.
"Why won't you talk to me?" I spoke slowly and carefully so as not to betray my emotions. Edward released his hold on me immediately and took a step back frowning. He opened and closed his mouth a few times, his jacket held by his side. He made a small noise like he was going to say something and then walked off again, disappearing in the throng of students milling about. I stood there, stock still, confused and disorientated.
"Hey, Rosie, why are you standing there like a lemon, come on, I need to get my schedule too, so we can go together." I let Emmett put his arm around my shoulders and lead me into the office, but my heart and head were somewhere else completely. They were with Edward, the boy who broke my heart and then stomped on the pieces a little more. The boy that I would pick up my heart for, the one who could help me get over the pain and anger I felt.
"Rosalie Swan and Emmett Cullen, please." I heard Emmett's voice, just a faint whisper in my ear. The blood started pulsing through my head, creating a rushing noise that distracted me completely. "Thank you. Oh no, I'm sure she's just a little shocked at the new environment, I'll sort her out before her first lesson." He pulled me over to a chair in the office, but it felt like my feet were moving of their own accord, I kept stumbling and tripping, almost as if I had forgotten how to move.
"Ok, Rosie, you're scaring me just a little bit now, what's wrong?" I couldn't answer him, nothing would work, my throat was dry and my breathing was laboured. I could get enough oxygen into my lungs and all my gasping was causing me to get a little light headed. I slumped against Emmett, still fully conscious, but unable to do anything. "Rose!" My whole body started shaking and I was aware of Emmett wrapping his arms around me and putting me on the floor. My body stopped shaking, but the act of laying me down caused every single drop of blood I had to rush straight to my brain.
I saw black spots in the corners of my eyes, and my eyes drooped shut, then everything stopped.
"She's waking up now I think, just a panic attack, probably from the move, you know?" I heard whispers rising from the darkness that surrounded me entirely. "I was looking at her medical records for the school just now, and it tells me that she had appendicitis, is that true?" I felt something move against my head and opened my eyes groggily, blinking a few times from the bright lights in the nurse's office at school. "Ah, hello dear." A plump nurse was sitting in a chair in the corner of the room and she smiled at me with straight, white teeth. I smiled back and noticed that a weight had moved from my arm and I looked down to find Emmett staring up at me from a chair right beside the bed.
"Rosie!" He smiled and sighed, it looked like he had been about to cry. I smiled back at him and tried to get up, but all the blood rushed to my head again and I swayed on the spot, causing Emmett to jump up in alarm and grab my shoulders to steady me. I shook his hands off irately, standing up straight again and slipping on my shoes. I grabbed my bag from Emmett who was standing there, looking like an idiot, with my bag and his thrown over his shoulders.
He had grown quite a bit in three years and now towered over me, almost two feet taller than me. His muscles were a lot more pronounced as he now did weight lifting and baseball every day, alternately. I smiled as the nurse handed Emmett and I notes for our teachers. We were only ten minutes late, but the teachers would still be annoyed if we didn't have a note.
Emmett walked me to the door of my classroom. He knocked on the door and the teacher opened it, frowning disapprovingly down his nose at me. Emmett handed in my note and the teachers face shifted from annoyance to concern. He took one look at my pale face and waved me through the door. He handed me books and told me to sit next to the one person I had hoped to avoid this year; Edward Cullen.
The rest of that day went smoothly, as did the rest of the week, and the rest of the term. I met Carmen on the second day of school, and we instantly became great friends. She had short brown hair that was naturally curly but professionally straightened every six months. Her eyes were an inquisitive blue that always sparkled when she was excited or up to something.
We also met Tanya. She was nice, but a little fake. She had long blonde hair, a few shades darker than mine, which tapered at the end of her ponytail. It had dyed highlights that reduced the quality of her hair dramatically and looked dyed because she had never bothered to have them re-done.
Along with Tanya came Irina. Irina and Tanya were twins and it was easy to see where Tanya got her inspiration from. Irina had beautiful blonde hair, again, a few shades darker than mine, but Irina's shone in the sun and the fluorescent lights glanced of the angled fringe that sat lightly across her forehead, just slightly covering her right eye. Her make-up was perfect, with brown mascara fanning out her lashes, and light green eye shadow adorning her eyelids.
We also met Zafrina later through the year. Zafrina was gorgeous. She originated from India and her parents moved to Forks to avoid their parents. Zafrina's hair was glossy black satin that fell and rested on her collar bones, flicking up perfectly at the ends to create a simple, but effective style. Her eyes shone a deep brown, almost black, that sparkled with expression all the time. She was tall and slim, with a beautiful figure that fit perfectly into the skinny jeans and tank tops that she wore with open jackets over the top, exposing her amazing physique.
We also met Maggie and Siobhan. They were sisters. Siobhan was in the year above Maggie, but they were best friends and always made me envy their relationship. Alice was never that easy to be around and I was worried that we would turn out like my mum and her sister, never talking to each other, and not standing to be in the same room as each other.
We all became fast friends, and by the time Christmas came around, we didn't want to leave each other. Maggie and Siobhan were going to Corfu for the beginning of Christmas, coming back on Christmas Eve. Tanya and Irina were taking a trip up to Alaska to visit their distant cousins. But Carmen was staying at home and so was Zafrina, plus Eleazar and Kate were going to come up and visit, so we decided to have a relatively large get together with all of us, alcohol and movies.
I walked up to Emmett's table in the cafeteria; he never minded if I came to talk to him, not like Edward would have. As I approached the 'jock' table, as Emmett like to call it, I noticed a familiar, but unwanted face sitting next to Emmett. Edward was at Emmett's table.
"Hey, Rose, why are you walking away, come sit. Edward, squish over, make room for Rosie!" I grimaced before turning to face him again with a forced smile gracing my face. I noticed Edward wince and my broken heart failed again as I thought of the unfortunate occurrence from the holidays.
"Yeah, sure, why not?" I threw my arms up in the air and Emmett laughed. I sat next to him and he wrapped an arm around my shoulders as he spoke. I tried to ignore the heated stare that was focused on me, emanating from the person on my right. I did not need to talk to him right now. But never the less, I found myself laughing at his jokes, answering his riddles, and generally having a good time with him again.
I looked over at Carmen and Zafrina every now and then. They looked really sympathetic and I immediately remembered why. Tapping Emmett on the shoulder, I whispered into his ear that I was leaving and he nodded his head without once looking away from his friends. I clambered awkwardly over the bench and almost fell, but Edward and Emmett snapped around and each slipped an arm around my waist. Edward's arm crushed my ribcage, and made it hard for me to breath, whereas Emmett's arm actually cushioned the blow and the rebound of my landing in his arms. It felt nice. Really nice.
I blushed and quickly disentangled myself from them, but Edward caught my wrist and anger flared inside me once again. I hate him, I hate him, I hate him, I hate him. I thought to myself, over and over again, trying to convince myself that this laughable notion was true. How could I hate him if I loved him?
"Rose, I..." I shook my head and pulled my arm away, walking over to the table where my friends were seated and grabbing my bag. Swinging it agilely over my shoulder, I stalked past Edward and Emmett with tears clouding my vision, and walked silently to the car park, vaguely aware of someone following me.
"Rose, seriously, listen to me." I turned to find Edward standing behind me. "Rosie - " I cut him off short.
"You have NO RIGHT! No right, to call me that. You can't do it! You stopped being my friend, remember?" He looked at me questioningly and I sighed in frustration, although it turned into more of a huff of exasperation than anything else. "You stopped talking to me Edward, then you broke my heart, when you knew full well what I thought of you!"
"Look, Rose, I know that my comment in sixth grade hurt you, I knew that it did then, but really, that was three years ago! How can you still hold a grudge over that?" I looked at him in pain and he looked at me confused. "What? Was it not that? Tell me what I did Rosalie!" That stung; no one called me Rosalie.
"You really don't know do you Edward? How about asking Alice what you did? Or maybe Eleazar? They both know. Carmen knows too, you could ask her. Or how about my baby sister? You know, the one who had to live with her big, strong, older sister crying herself to sleep every night over you!" I turned around to hide my tears, but I knew that he could see my shoulders shaking.
"Rose..." He trailed off and I felt his hand brush against my shoulder before I ripped it away and whirled round to face him.
"No! No, no, no, no, no! That's what you said! You said no! And I hated you for it; I still do. And even though I always knew that you were too good for me, it still hurt. You know why? Because I love you Edward Cullen, I love you and there's not a thing you can do about it!" I sobbed and ran from the car park into the woods outside the school. I ran through them until I reached the Middle School. I ran through the car park and into the familiar cafeteria. I didn't stop running until I fell into the arms of my sister.
"Rose!" She wrapped her arms around me and Jasper came over to help her manoeuvre me out of the building. "Rosie, what's wrong?" I sobbed a few more times and just let her hug me. I pulled away and wiped my eyes on my sleeves. "Seriously, Rose, you're scaring me." I shook my head and cast my eye over to Jasper. He was Edward's brother, I couldn't say anything now.
"Nothing Alice, nothing, I just needed a hug from my sister is all, it'll all be fine." I forced a smiled onto my face and Alice returned it, seeing nothing different, but Jasper looked at me appraisingly and my smile faltered. "Right, I'll see you at home Alice." I muttered, disjointedly, Jasper's gaze still boring into my own eyes, my stare wavering under the impact of his greyish eyes.
I walked quickly back through the forest and picked my bag up from where I had dropped it before walking calmly back into school and to period five...
"Mum! Will you tell her to stop doing that!" I yelled to my mum from upstairs as Bella bashed it out on the drums. I was trying to finish an English essay, and I did not need her playing the drums!
"Sweetie, she has to do drum practise." My mum called up the stairs in a slightly distressed voice, and I could tell that she was worrying about Dad again.
"Well, tell her to take it out to the garage!" I yelled back, my voice ripping through two octaves as I threw my biro at the wall. I sighed and put my head into my hands, rubbing my face roughly before giving up and pulling on my trainers. I jogged down the stairs with my headphones in my ears and yelled out so that my mum knew where I was. "I'm going for a run!" I faintly heard her call back in answer to me, but I was already out the door and switching on my headphones as I jogged steadily up the drive...
I ran back down the lane and almost walked straight into Esme's car as she was pulling out.
"Oh, hello dear, how are you honey?" She smiled warmly at me with charm even Edward can't manage and I felt my heart twinge as I realised that she had lost a daughter when Edward got rid of his friend, and I hated him all the more for it.
"I'm good thanks Esme, how are you?" She smiled at me again and I saw a flicker of hope flash in her eyes; I knew she had always intended for at least one of her boys to end up with one of us, I just hoped she knew it wasn't me.
"I'm great darling, thank you for asking. How is school going for you? I know that you have some classes with Edward; he talks about you a lot you know?" I smiled sweetly, trying to ignore the burning desire to run over there and throw myself into his arms.
"It's really good, thank you, it's tough, but I'm working hard. I'm in almost all AP classes you know? I guess you do, Edward's the same; we don't just have some classes together, we have all classes together!" I laughed half-heartedly at my own response and I'm sure Esme saw my face fall a little.
"Well honey, it was nice talking to you, we'll have to organise dinner or something soon, yes?" I nodded my head, acknowledging her comment, but I am fairly certain she knew that I wasn't paying proper attention. "Emmett's back soon, he is flying in from New York for Christmas, isn't it exciting? I can't wait for him to get here..." I stopped listening as I thought about Emmett...
"Bells, stop it, you know that dad can't be here all the time, and he told you that he would be here for your birthday, so I don't get why you are so upset." She shrugged her shoulders and leaned into me, sobbing a little more. I waited for her to tell me what was really going on, and hoped that she would be able to confide in me..
"OK, you want to know the truth Rose?" I nodded and held her at arm's length by the shoulders. "James broke up with me yesterday, and I don't want to go to school and face him again today! It hurt so much!" Fresh sobs broke out and I pulled her close to me again, rocking us back and forward. My little sisters both had boyfriends pouring out of their ears, and I had no one. Not one person that wanted to go out with me.
"OK, Hun, I have to finish getting ready. Brush your hair and put on that new outfit. You know? The one we bought last week?" She nodded her head and began getting ready. I walked out of her room and into my own. I picked up my brush and pulled it through my long golden hair.
"Bella, Rose! Your lifts are here!" My dad called up the stairs and I sighed. Grabbing a bobble, I yanked my hair up into a messy bun and let it rest on the top of my head before I swung my school bag over my shoulder and raced down the stairs to Emmett's car. I stopped short when I saw Edward in the front; he never sat in the front, Emmett always saved it for me. I shook my head to clear my thoughts and grabbed my iPod to entertain myself on the half hour ride to school.
We reached school, and I was going to ask Emmett what was wrong, but he got straight out of the car and walked away. I slowly slid out and was immediately joined by Tanya and Carmen talking about their boyfriends and how one did this, and the other did that. They were really just having a conversation over me because I wasn't joining in; I was trying to work out why Emmett was blowing me off.
I finally came to the conclusion that he finally came to his senses and realised that I wasn't a good friend for him to have. And I never spoke to him again before the end of the year when he-
"Goodbye Rose, sweetheart." Esme smiled sympathetically, and I, in turn, gave her an apologetic one.
"Bye" I mumbled, she probably didn't even hear me. I walked slowly back to my house and completely forgot about Emmett and immersed myself in my school work. I still had that essay to write: Love in Shakespeare.
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