I have this headcanon where even though they're in their own different universes, tentoo can still sort of see what the Doctor does, although it's slightly unclear and only in his dreams. It's like trying to put random clips of a movie together.
Slight spoilers. Wrote this intending for it to be quite vague.
I do not own Doctor Who.
in a blur,
the human doctor,
can barely make out
sounds and shapes
in his dreams.
it's like,
looking out the window
of a fast moving car,
and he watches a regeneration,
if only ever so quickly,
and he swears he can still
feel the burn.
(he holds onto rose tight that night,
and whispers sorry in her hair,
because he's so so sorry,
he's sorry he's not the man
she was looking for,
but he
loved loved loved her.
he promised to tell her
of the regeneration in the
morning.
he never does.)
he sees another red head,
with a scottish accent,
and a young man,
who waited,
who died,
and who lived,
again.
he watches a woman he recognizes,
from long ago,
with wild hair.
he watches adventures,
and love,
and stories unfold,
in dreams he never mentions,
unless rose is asleep,
or tony needs to be.
he watches them leave,
the lonely angel,
with two hearts still beating,
though they're held together,
with gum and glue.
it's vague, everything is,
but he pieces it together,
and he mourns,
because the doctor,
should never be alone,
but for a while,
he is.
(god, he feels almost guilty.
he has a family,
a life,
and it's beautiful.
he doesn't think he's worthy of this.)
one dream,
he watches the doctor,
meet the impossible girl,
and for the first time,
in a long time,
after the loss,
of the red head and the
soldier,
it's in colour.
everything is still a blur,
but he can still make it out,
and he wakes up,
weeping,
with rose
asking what was wrong,
and he laughs,
and kisses her forehead.
(he finally tells her over tea,
and she's quiet for a long time,
and she isn't even upset,
he has kept the secret for so long.
she lays her head,
on his shoulder,
and lets a few
tears slip out,
before asking,
what he wanted to do
today.)
he hopes,
that he is happy,
and that,
he won't put himself,
in danger,
and that he'll learn to
forgive himself.
he hopes that,
the doctor can see,
what he does also,
so he can watch,
as they live,
a fantastic life.
(he can)