Author: Kate
Title: Deserving to Die
Summary: A little Josh angst
Disclaimer: Wait your saying Josh doesn't belong to me? Ah man!
Note: This is my first story feedback would be immensely appreciated. Hope you like it!
Sometimes I lie in bed at night knowing that I'm going to die. Knowing that I will not wake the next morning. With all the things I've done wrong. All the things that I regret, I deserve to die.
I've hurt so many of my friends. Sometimes I say things and I can't take them back. I deserve to die. I fail to help my friends when they need it most. I tend to make things worse for them.
I couldn't save my sister. Instead I remained as the reminder to my family of the child they lost too soon. I couldn't save my father. Instead I left him to die with out me. I couldn't save the President, I allowed him to be shot. I couldn't save Hoynes, instead I probably helped bring him down.
And Donna. Probably the person I love the most, and probably the person I hurt the most. I see the pain in her eyes when I yell at her. I see the concern when I instead sit silent and alone. I know all I do is cause pain, when I should be bringing joy.
Sometimes I'm absolutely positive that this is my last night on earth. That I will finally leave my friends in peace, but then the sun rises. I take another breath, and live another day, to hurt all the people I love.