Chapter 1

Man, I've been a wreck ever since Grissom left. He left and didn't tell me he was leaving, until he was leaving. Is that what lovers are suppose to do? I don't think so. I've cried myself to sleep every night since he left. I can't take it anymore. I need help. Who can I trust to keep my relationship a secret? Not Warrick, or Nick, they won't understand me, and definitely not Greg; he has a thing for me. Catherine, she's a woman and can understand what I'm going through. I walk to her office and she is there.
"Catherine. Can I talk to you for a second?"

"Sure what's up?" I walk in, close the door and sit down. "Woman to woman, can you keep a secret?"

"Yeah."

"Well..." I start "you are not going to believe me. Grissom…. and… I … am … are… in… a relationship."

"Wow that's great Sara."

"No it isn't. He didn't tell me about him leaving so it was a huge surprise. I can't stand it." Tears start to form in my eyes. "I can't really tell if he is in love with me because don't you think he would have told me he was leaving?" by now tears are dripping down my face and I try to hide it but Catherine has seen the tears and comes over to hug me.

"Grissom is just… Grissom" she says still holding me. "He doesn't know how things can affect people around him." I start to calm down and she sits in the seat next to me.

"I can't trust men anymore. First Hank and now Grissom. I think I'm going to have to end my relationship with Grissom."

"Why?"

"Just like you said about him not knowing how things he does affect people around him. He has hurt me too many times, in and not in a relationship. I don't know what to do. I guess I'll go back to women. At least they haven't hurt me this bad."

"Hey Sara. I understand you and what you are going though. I'm glad you came and told me instead of holding in your feelings and exploding later. The guys and I are going out tonight to get drinks. Do you want to come?"

"No… I'm going to go home and…"

"And what Sara cry yourself to sleep. No Sara. You let me in on your problem and I want to help you. I'm your problem now. Besides it will help your take you mind off of him. I'll be at you house at 7. Be ready."

"What ever but your going to have to drag me out of the house."

"Then I will."

"You know what Grissom never gave me? Sex. Too afraid to handle the consequences."

"Sara. Have you ever had sex with a woman?"

"Why?"

"If you want sex, I'm pretty good."

"I have had sex with a girl. I am Bi. Why do you ask? You like women too?"

"Yes. I'm Bi. How about I change what I said about tonight. We are going on a date. I have wanted you for so long. Have you never seen me stare at you a lot?"

"Well yea I have. You know I sort of wanted you too at some points. I've never known you were Bi so I was afraid. I have to get back to work now."

"Ok. Sara don't forget about tonight."

"Oh I will. I will totally forget," I say smiling at her. I walk out of the room and continue to work, forgetting about the pain Grissom has caused me.

I have been waiting to be with Catherine for a while now.