STATE OF GRACE

I'm walking fast through the traffic lights near St. Barts. The streets are filled with busy people going along with there busy lives and yet you stand here, as still as you can in the shadow of the buildings. I walk past you, not even acknowledging your presence except a small touch to your hand as I go. We have both changed our minds about this love too many times. You do not know if this love will hurt or bleed or fade in time and neither do. All I know is that I do not care.

I never saw you coming. I was too caught up in my infatuation for your brother and then in my infatuation to get over him. And then you were there, and I knew I would never be the same again for once you crossed my path I was blinded. Around you the armour I had built up around myself would fall, you hit me like a cannonball aimed straight at my heart and all I now know is that I can't let you go.

There have been many times that we were alone together either at the morgue or at your office though I will always remember best the short time we spent in your flat. We were alone; just you and me. Back when I barely knew you and both our slates were clean. Yet the more we talk the more I can see the fire burning in your bright blue eyes; the eyes I can't help but fall into.

I know you are no saint and that you have done terrible things, even if it was just ordering those terrible things to happen but I have loved all shades of wrong before, I could see Moriarty's true colours under his façade yet I still loved him; and you understand that, we both have to live with the pain of our actions and try to mend our mosaics that are our broken hearts together. Your love will make me brave and my love will make you strong. Together this love will make us better.

With you I am in a state of grace and because of that I know that this is a worthwhile fight. Love is a ruthless game which we have both suffered at the hands of though you refuse to tell me who broke your heart, I can only hope that you will tell me in time. But I know we will both play this love is good and right and real and for that reason we both want it to succeed. You are my only weakness, my Achilles heel, I know that if anything happened to you I would be lost. You are my guiding light, shining bright and golden.

I never saw you coming and I'll never be the same again but I know you are worth fighting for; that this love is worth fighting for, because with you, Mycroft Holmes, I am in a state of grace.

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