"Hey mate, what's up with the black? I haven't seen you out of that color all summer. And it's hot out too."
"It's called mourning Ron," Hermoine said distastefuly as she walked by Harry's other side.
"Oh, but he's been dead a while, hasn't he?"
"A couple of months Ron, but for some people that isn't nearly enough time. Some people wear black for years after a loved ones death."
Snd they argued for awhile. Harrys' mind meanwhile was on the diary. He couldn't wait to get back to the burrow to read it. It would be like getting a look inside his fathers' life. When he got to the Burrow he nearly raced up to the room he and Rom were sharing, dumped his newly purchased things on the floor and began to read.
-Dear diary, I am James Potter. Lily got me this book to put my thoughts in. Yea, we FINALLY started going out. The best part is, she doesn't even hang out with Snivelus anymore. But of course, you don't know anything about that. I've been liking Lily for a while now. Ha, it was more likely to get a date with her then the man I love.-
Harry blinked in suprise and continued reading.
- Yeah, that's right. MAN! You got a problem with that? Of course not, you're a diary. Anyway, I knew it would only be a matter of time til Lily caved in. I HAVE grown out of my egocentric git mode, as she calls it. Anyway, back to this guy. He's my best friend. Sirius Black.-
Harry dropped the book in suprise. Did Sirius know about this? Did his mother? He picked it back up and continued reading.
-So cute, adorable, and downright sexy. Uch! I sound like a school girl. But I know SIrius doesn't like me. Hell, I don't even think he swings that way. There is no way I am going to loose my friendship with him, so can that idea. I'm not sure when it started, hell, I'm not even sure HOW it started. Sirius and I have been best friends since day one. We always stuck together. Our beds were even right next to eachother. We are real close. Before I started dating Lily we always had an arm around the other and were never apart. I miss that. But I have to move on. Get a grip on yourself James!-
That was the end of that entry. He turned the page to the next one.
-Dear diary, Sirius and I have been drifting apart lately. He seems so distant with me. He's spending more time talking to Remus and Peter and less time talking to me. He doesn't even sit next to me anymore. Peter does. It's strange haveing to look across the table instead of right next to me. I really really miss that. I used to be able to brush arms with him and now the tables big and I cant reach his feet-UGH! What am I thinking!? I am being UTTERLY disrespectful of Lily. What would she think if she knew I was thinking like this? She'd hate me.-
Harry turned the page again. He hoped, for his mothers sake, she didn't find out.
-Dear diary, I just don't get it! Sirius is hiding something! I don't understand, we can tell eachother anything, right? I don't understand and frankly, I'm a little hurt. Okay, I'm MORE then a little hurt. We are growing more and more apart and I'm so afraid of loosing my best friend. I know I never could have been with him, but before Lily, at least we were close. It's not fair. I cried diary. I CRIED! That's how upset I am. I never cry. I'm a guy for gods sake. Oh well, if he wants to be that way, then fine. I'll just spend more time with Lily.-
-Dear diary, I've come to greatly depend on Lily. I hardly ever get to have any real conversations with Sirius anymore. Lily has not only become my lover, but my some one to talk to. I am so grateful for her. What would I do without her? Sometimes...I cry and she just holds me. She never pushes me to tell her what's wrong.
-Dear diary, I gave you to Lily about a week ago. I felt bad about her not knowing how I felt about...him. After she finished reading, she just looked up at me with those pretty green eyes of hers and asked if I loved her. I said yes, and it's true. I do love her. She then nodded and kissed me. Everything was fine after that. Hell, it was better then fine, I finally have some one to talk to about how hurt I am that Sirius doesn't even pay attention to me anymore. She always listens and neever complains. She told me I should confront him. I actually think that's a good idea. I'm going to.-
'You'd better feel bad.' Harry thought. He gripped onto the book tightly to see what happenes next.
-Diary, I'm shocked and...and...unexplainably happy! And thanks to my beautiful Lily I am happier then I've ever been in my entire life. Well, I don't know exactally how to explain what happened to day, so I'll just write it out.
I was confronting Sirius, like Lily asked me to, but I was afraid to go alone, so she was with me. I grabbed his arm and pulled him back as he went to walk away.
'Sirius' I said 'I need to talk to you about something'
'Fuck off James,' he barked and turned to glare at me. I was shocked. Sure he had been distant and everything, but he was never this outright mean to me.
I, of course, skipped to the chase. 'Look Padfoot! I don't know what the hell is wrong with you or why you are so upset. I know somethings' Bothering you. I know you. But you're not telling me, and you're even avoiding me. Frankly, I'm hurt'
'You wouldn't understand.' He went to walk away, but I stopped him.
'PADFOOT! I don't understand, I thought we told each other anything'
'Not this'
'I don't get it Paddy, we're like broth'
'BROTHERS! YOU THINK WE'RE LIKE BROTHERS? YEAH, WELL THAT'S WHAT EVERY ONE SAYS RIGH? THE GREAT JAMES AND SIRIUS! ALWAYS TOGETHER, FINISHING EACHOTHERS SENTENCES. OH, THEY'RE LIKE BROTHERS! WELL, NO ONE STOPPED TO THINK THAT I DIDN'T AGREE WITH THAT'
'Padfoot, I'
'DON'T YOU GET IT JAMES?! I THOUGHT YOU DID ONCE. I DON'T WANT TO BE YOU'RE BROTHER! I LOVE YOU!'-
'WHAT?!' HArry thought. He almost dropped the book again in shock. What would happen now, he wondered.
-Everything was silent. Then, Lily let out a heartbreaking sob and dropped her books before fleeing in tears. I watched her leave alarmed. I wanted to go after her, but I coudn't. I just turned back to Sirius. Tears were slipping down his face.
'You probably don't want to be friends with me anymore. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that.I know you don't love me, I'
'Sirius.' I grabbed his arm the third time that night as he tried to leave. 'That's not true'
'What?' He gazed at me with those beautiful blue eyes with something akin to hope.
'I can't leave Lily. I love her, but... I've always loved you Sirius'
He stared at me in wonder and, ran into my arms to embrace me. 'Oh James...' he whispered.
I stroked his beautiful black hair and, when he looked at me again, I couldn't help it, I kissed him. He kissed me back pasionatrly and... well we kissed for a while. And I don't know how I can explain it diary. It was everything I'd dreamed of and more. But when he pulled away and asked me about Lily, I ran. I couldn't believe I'd cheated on her, after she'd been so faithful to me. She was probably crying her eyes out right now. I ran away from them, both of them. I went to the dorms to grab my invisiblity cloak and headed off to the shrieking shack, crying so loudly that the whole of Hogsmede was probably cowering in fear at the so-called 'ghosts' that haunted it. I was there for a while and, I don't know what to say. When I went back to the tower I saw Lily and Sirius together, smiling. They saw the tears on my face and both embraced me. Sirius smiled at me.
'Were you crying James? I'm sorry'
'what?' I said. Come on! It was the only thing I could think up at that moment.
'I think we should explain it to him.' Lily said. Sirius nodded and they both let me go. They smiled at eachothe.
'Well,' said Sirius. 'Lily and I realized something. We both like you, well, love you and, you love both of us'
'Yeah, so?' I said, my voice a little hoarse from criying.
'SO' said Lily, 'We figured we could all date, like, eachother. That way every one's happy'
I swallowed. A threesome had never occurred to me, 'Are you S's'serious'
'No,' said Sirius. My heart filled with dread. 'I'm Sirius.'
I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding. 'What I MEANT' I glared at my new lover? 'was...is this for real'
'Yes.' Lily said. I looked into her eyes and knew she wasn't joking.
'Well then, THAT'S GREAT!' I shouted in joy and hugged them both.
'Now,' said Lily, a mischievious gleam in her eyes. 'Shoo'
'What?! Why'
'Sirius and I need to develop feelings for eachother if this is going to work out, so we need to'
'ARE YOU KIDDING!?' I shouted in rage. 'YOU HAVEN'T EVEN SLEPT WITH ME YET'
'Think of it this way.' Sirius said cheerfuly, patting my back. 'If it's me and Lily instead of me and you, you won't have to worry about getting pregnant tonight'
'HEY' I said accusingly. 'Who says I'd bottom the first time'
'I say,' he said huskily and kissed me. I couldn't help it, I melted. He then withdrew. 'See?' he said as he pulled away. 'You'd bottom the first time'
I whimpered.
He nipped my ear and looked at me lovingly. 'I love you'
'I love you too.' I practically sighed out. Damn, there goes my dignity.
And then they ran off. Now in the wizarding world, when you have sex with some one, you form a connection with them that will never go away. That is why there are so few divorces and never any affairs. People also usually wait for marriage. So it made sense that they would form a connection by sleeping together.-
Wow, he never knew that. Then again, Harry never knew a lot of things. He couldn't help but be happy that his dad and godfather got together. Harry turned the page and saw a change in the handwriting.
-And it worked too. Hi, Lily Evans here. I snagged Jame's diary. Anyway, after Sirius and I slept together, we all had a threesome the next night. You should see how much those too love each other. Now I admit I was scared that James would leave me for Sirius when I heard him confess his love. I was so delighted when we became a threesome. Yes, I love those two boys now. They are so cute together. I watched those two make love once secretly and it was beautiful. Anyway, I'll be writeing in here for a while. James left it empty for a few years now. I'll explain what has happened since then. We all dated secretly. Not even Remus and Peter ever knew about us. James and Sirius eventually told me that Remus was a werewolf. I guess Severus was right after all. Anyway, I'm more then sure he's become a deatheater. It's sort of sad really. I mean he was my first real friend at Hogwarts. He was good for a while. But, his friends turned him to their beliefs. I tried to stay his friend. I really did, but when he called me mudblood I couldn't forgive him anymore. It was a while after that when I got closer to James. And then we dated... anyway, I'm supposed to be talking about what happened SINCE then and not before. Well, after we graduated, we joined Albus' Order of the Pheonix. Voldemort is on the rise again. James, Sirius and I had a three way marriage that no one knew about except for us. James and I had a normal marriage to throw them off. We cant trust any one with our relationship. It's sad, but we cant trust any one, not even Remus, until we find out who the spy is. I fondly remember all the great and scary memories we have since joining the Order. James almost died once. I remember how upset Sirius and I were...-
-James is pregnant!-
'What the...' Harry dropped the diary and picked it up again. 'PREGNANT!?'
-Yes, men can get pregnant. In the wizarding world, babies are concieved from love, not neccessarily girl/boy. A girl can get pregnant having sex with a girl, and a guy could get pregnant having sex with another guy. Sirius is so happy. James seems happy too, when he isn't vomiting. He is unhappy that we never do anything around the house anymore. No one knows about the pregnancy. They think I'm pregnant. Sirius and I are constantly fussing over James. We all took a break from the order.-
-I think...our baby is the one from the prophecy.-
-Hello, James Potter here. SOME ONE HELP ME! I am being pampered to death. I can't do anything on my own. It's not fair. My little baby is kicking again. Sirius Is so happy. It's his baby obviously, but we also see Lily as a future parent. He or she will need a mother. Wow, I wonder what it will be for him or her with two fathers.-
-Sirius Black here. He is beautiful. My beautiful baby boy. His name is Harry. Harry James Potter. Well, Lily and I got a few nasty jinxes thrown our way durring the conception before we got his wand away from him. Well, we now know there is a chance that Harry could be a part of the prophecy. James said I should probably tell you that if I die, I'll come back to life because there is magical blood in my line.-
And then it ended. Harry was shocked. He was a pureblood, and... Sirius was coming back?