Epic Sakuno

I awoke from my dream.

Everything was the color white,

I quickly understood this was a hospital scene,

And I couldn't believe my sight.

This isn't what I wanted,

I planned to die.

I want to know what happened,

This was supposed to be my goodbye.

Then a nurse entered

She was surprised to see me awake.

Not too sound self-centered,

But why didn't I just drown in a lake?

Later in the day,

Obaachan and the regulars came.

And there I lay,

Knowing my life will never be the same.

I didn't bother putting on my mask

Since from now on the world would be my tormentor.

I guess dying was too much to ask,

And there is no surrender.

I hated them all,

They (my grandmother, the Regulars, and even my friends) betrayed me.

They treated me like a fragile doll,

I just wished my life would end.

They would ask me why I wanted to die,

I would show no resistance,

And tell them why,

Then I would look far off into the distance.

When I went back to school

Everyone kept an eye on me.

My grandmother gave me new strict rules,

And never gave me time alone to just be.

No matter what anyone did

I stayed in my depression.

Everyone just kept treating me like a kid.

They all added to my unhealthy obsession.

I stopped talking,

Unless talked to.

I even stopped smiling

And nobody knew what to do.

They made me the team manager,

But I didn't care.

I always felt like a stranger,

But I shouldn't be one to question whether it's fair.

Then came Rikkai Dai,

They came for a practice match.

I didn't know what to say,

They were quite the catch.

While all of them were caught up in a game I tried to get away.

That is until Yukimura-buchou caught me.

Why couldn't life go my way?

No one would let me be.

He asked me where I was going,

So I told him I want to be free.

He was confused on what I was doing,

So I told him to leave me be.

He was surprised by my tone,

But I just wanted to leave.

He followed me until we got to a weird zone.

There was a cliff from what I could see.

I told him I wanted to jump,

Fall was a wonderful season.

I could hear in his throat was a lump,

Yet he ignored it and asked me the reason.

Today was the best day ever!

I told him in my world there was no sun,

Then I pulled the lever

And I told him about how I spent my whole life trying to find one.

I was never needed by anyone

Ignored by all

And now I was done,

All I wanted was to fall.

What he said next shocked me.

He said he wanted to be my reason,

Then somehow there were many colors I could see.

This would be like committing treason.

He asked my grandmother if we could date.

Everyone was surprised when she agreed.

He said he would wait,

This was something that I would always need.

I gave him a chance.

Once he made me smile.

I would not accept this as romance,

But I was just in denial.

His friends accepted me,

But I couldn't care less.

Couldn't they see?

I'm a living mess.

Seiichi (as he told me to call him) proved me wrong.

No matter how much I wanted to fall,

I stayed strong,

And I endured it all.

He was very patient.

He waited for me,

But having him was sufficient.

I don't know when he looks at me, what does he see?

I figured out why my heart beats.

I'm saying this on a whim,

And I hate this wondrous feat,

But I'm in love with him.

No matter how painful it is

I will let him go.

I hope he accept this,

But for him I will live though.

With every last whim,

I called and said "hi",

Ended the relationship with him,

And quickly I said "bye".

I told my grandmother

And she respected my decision.

I knew I would not love another,

So to express my feelings I became a musician.

One day when I was walking home from school

The Rikkai Dai Regulars

Minus their buchou,

They came to get answers.

I told them of my suicidal ways,

They were beyond surprised.

No one had anything to say

And then a problem was raised.

There in front of me was Seiichi,

I left to walk,

Maybe I'm just sleepy,

But he was real and wanted to talk.

He said "I love you"

I went along with a whim,

Since I didn't know what to do

So I just kissed him.

I was surprised when he kissed me too,

We stopped when we needed air.

I didn't know what to do

So I looked at my footwear.

He wanted to have a real relationship again

And I couldn't say no.

I took this chance to explain,

After that he said he would never let me go.

Three years later we got married,

A year later we started our own family.

Our son loved to be carried

And we moved on in life freely.