A Hearts Loneliness
By: Pixie Wings
Pride can stand a thousand trials
The strong will never fall
But watching stars
Without you…
My soul cries
Relena sighed.
It had been raining for three days straight, and it was depressing her. She couldn't go our to tend to her garden, and of course she couldn't go out for a walk. She was stuck inside her mansion by herself since she insisted that the staff should have a few days off. Pagan had practically begged her to let him stay, being the ever faithful servant, but she refused, saying that she could take care of herself, after all she was 22. It took a lot of convincing but Pagan finally went to visit his grandchildren for the week.(AN: I don't know if Pagan ever had grandchildren or children…but in my fanfic he does) Now that she had finally gotten everyone out of the mansion for the week, she wished she had let some stay. Not for the work but for the company, she was bored out of her mind. Noin and Milliardo had gone to Peacemillion to take care of some issues. They had taken their two year old son Zachary along with them.
BOOM
Relena jumped then sighed again.
Everyone seemed to have moved on with their lives since the Gundam Pilots had destroyed their Gundams. Duo had expanded his scavenging business to a point where he could comfortably support his up and coming family with the profit his business brought in. Duo had married Hilde two years ago and now she was several months pregnant with Duos baby.
Trowa had quit his job at the Preventers, although he occasionally came back there to help out a little, to help his sister Catherine with her Acrobatics and Gymnastic School. Her school turned out to be quite popular with all the teenage girls coming to see the teacher who happened to be an ex-gundam pilot. While teaching there, Trowa had actually met a young woman who he was very interested in, not for her looks but for her brains. She was a year younger than him and was very pretty, but if you ever got into an argument with her about scientific things, well you can be pretty sure that she would win it. Trowa had just recently proposed to Sophie, who had eagerly accepted. They were due for marriage in about a year.
Quatre and Dorothy were a cute couple Relena mused. Every now and then Dorothy would come to her and tell her about some of the arguments that they had and would ask for her advice. Relena wouldn't quite kknow what to say because she had never been in any arguments like that, but she would give Dorothy the best advise she could give if she was placed in a situation like that. Quatre had taken over his family business and seemed to be rather stressed out as of lately due to Dorothys attempts to getting him to propose to her. Each attempt failed miserably with an argument.
"poor Quatre" Relena said out loud.
Relena knew that Quatre loved Dorothy but wasn't ready to make a big commitment at this moment. Especially when one of his top competitors was trying to drive him out of his families business.
Wufei and Sally had two beautiful girls, Mae-Ellen who was four, and Marina-Annette who was three. They were their fathers pride and joy. Little Mae-Ellen had picked up her fathers sense of justice and had been taught how to fight to protect herself by her father much to her mothers protests. Mae-Ellen was a Daddy's girl, and her father loved her like that. Marina-Annette was a cute little girl who stayed mainly by her mothers side, but would occasionally run to her father when she was feeling well. Marina-Annette was a very sick child, she had been to the hospital on many occasions, and it was lucky for her that her mother is a doctor. She had caused Wufei and Sally many sleepless nights, but they loved both their children dearly. Wufei had married Sally four months before little Mae-Ellen's birth. Wufei had changed in his views on women, he now thinks that women are capable of doing some things a man can do but not much more than normal, due to little Mae-Ellen's birth.
Wufei and Sally still wanted a son, actually Wufei demanded a son from Sally, but continues his work as a Preventer. He works on the L-4 colony only so that he could stay close to his family, where they live. Sally had quit her position in the Preventers because Wufei had demanded that when Mae-Ellen was born that she stay home and watch over their child. It became more necessary after Marina-Annette's birth. Sally hadn't minded the idea because she had wanted to stay close to her children during their first few years of life. She and Wufei were leading a good life.
Relena closed her eyes and slowly opened them then sighed again.
She had kept in touch with all the gundam pilots over the past six years since the Mariemaia incident. Well, she kept in touch with them all… except for…
"Heero.." Relena said sadly.
The last time she saw him was at his hospital bed after he had saved her. He was unconscious when she had decided to go outside to get some fresh air, but when she came back, he was gone. He hadn't left her a note to say goodbye, which was to be expected…this was Heero after all Relena thought. Now it had been six years since she last saw him, and still, everytime she thought of him she felt pain deep in her chest, as if her heart was breaking.
"I miss him so much" whispered Relena.
Sheh had often asked the other gundam pilots if they had ever made contact with Heero since that day in the hospital. They all had given her a sad "no, I'm sorry". As much as she wanted to fin him, she didn't try. She knew there was a reason for him leaving and she knew that he just wanted to be left alone. So she just concentrated on her diplomatic work hoping and wishing that Heero would come back to her, even if it was to fulfill his words to her. She had wanted to hear his voice again, even if those words came from those lips.
"Omae o Korosu" Relena smirked as she mouthed the words. Then softly whispered Heero's name again as she walked to her balcon window. She ran her hand over the cool glass window and the rain outside continued to pound against the already rain soaked Earth. Every now and then a flash of lightning and the sound of thunder would cut through the rain.
She then thought of all the times her brother Milliardo would set up dates for her at fancy restaurants. Her dates and her would always sit next to a window, a few times it had rained like this during her dates. All the men had been her brothers co-workers, all were able men capable of making almost any woman fall head over heels in love with them, but Relena had no interest in them. She had no interest romantically in any man except one. The one she couldn't have. Milliardo would constantly complain to her that if she didn't go out and enjoy herself that she would become a robot with all that work she had been doing.
Relena chuckled at that thought.
Me, a robot? She pictured herself looking like a miniature Wing Zero and wondered if Heero would pay any attention to her if she was a robot, or at least a mobile suit of any type.
At that thought Relena turned to the brown bear with a thin red ribbon tied around its neck who was positioned at the corner of her bed on top of a pillow.
"Heero, do you think about me at all, did you ever love me in the least bit?" Releena whispered, tears coming to her eyes. She bit her lower lip thinking about what he would answer.
"No, you couldn't have ever loved me, or you wouldn't have left me here all alone" she answered for herself as a tear trickled down her cheek.
"Everyone has such happy lives, I know Quatre and Dorothy are going to have wonderful lives also. Everyone else is so content and happy with the way their lives are going….except for me."
"Do you even check up on the other pilots to make sure their alright? Do you know that they're leading wonderful lives? They have gotten over their guilt about the war, but you haven't!"
Relena eyed the stuffed bear angrily, as if the bear was Heero.
Then her eyes softened and she began laughing. Soon her soft laughter faded and she spoke to herself in soft tones.
"I'm talking to a damn stuffed animal, I have to be going crazy".
She sighed for the hundredth time that night.
"Oh God how I miss you so much Heero" with that last thought whispered through her lips, she layed down on the bed, hugged the stuffed animal close to her heart, switched off her lamp, and fell asleep to the sound of pounding rain.
Outside lightning flashed with a cracking sound. Then came another flash of lightning showing the outline of a young man who seemed drenched from the rain. He had his head held up looking at the Peacecraft mansion, more specifically a bedroom whose light had just flickered out a few seconds ago.
End part 1
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Who could it be? Is it Heero? Maybe, but you'll never know until you read part 2! And whatever will Relena do by herself in a huge mansion for an entire week???
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Authors notes:
Okay well I had wanted to write this to let you know what has happened to the other pilots lives before I can continue on with the story. I'm thinking of making this into a series but I don't know…
I know I'll be writing about each of the other gundam pilots lives from this part…as a different story each. (during those six years that is) but AFTER I finish this story series (considering I'll probably never get back to completing my first fanfiction) ~K~? Well I hope to hear from all of you reviewers out there to tell me what you think of it so far. Do you love it, Hate it, Wanna burn it??? I won't get mad, promise ^_^ (Besides its really hard to get me mad) Any way I wrote this last night when it was…Raining… gee I wonder where I got the rain idea from hehe.. I was also really bored and kinda depressed (wonder who this is sounding like hehe..) and I was listening to a song from Romeo and Juliet called Kissing you from Des'ree. (I know its old but I still like it) theres a verse from it up at top! The next verse will be put in the next story and so on… Now you know where I get my inspiration!!! ^_^
Disclaimer
I DON'T own any gundam wing characters or Kissing you by Des'ree.
If I did I would probably be rich but I'm NOT! So please please please Don't sue me I don't have the money to pay!