Just a teeny tiny drabble that floated into my head a little while ago. Enjoooy :)
Oh! There you are! I've been looking for you forever.
I guess that sounds dumb, since I've known Kurt for months now. But until today I'm not sure that I ever really saw him. Just him. Just Kurt. Not Kurt-who's-being-terrorized. Not Kurt-who's-stuck-in-a-uniform. Not Kurt-who-looks-up-to-me. Just…Kurt.
He was upset, but not because he was being bullied; his beloved pet had just died. He was following a dress code, but it was his own because he was in mourning. And most notably…he was not looking to me for anything.
I couldn't possibly describe exactly how that made me feel. Even my private school honed vocabulary is nowhere near expansive enough to find the right words. I felt…free, in a lot of ways. Good and bad. Bad because I guess I was used to being Kurt's support system. It felt weird to be so unnecessary. But it also gave me the freedom to look at Kurt from a new perspective. I had seen how strong and beautiful and talented and amazing he is before that, but never in that way. If that makes sense. It's like there was always something else in the way, and suddenly it was gone. I could see.
And there he was.
It turns out I never really had to look for him. The boy of my dreams was always right in front of me.