Love Sucks

Lily is thinking about how much she hates James.

Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter.

Love sucks.

What's wrong with me?

I hate him, don't I?

Then why do I feel this way?

I hate him.

No, you don't. You care about him.

I hate him. I really, really hate him. I do!

Prove it.

The way he pulls his fingers through his hair, making it look like he just got off his broom. He's arrogant. He hexes people in the hallways, even if they haven't done anything to him. He and his friends think they're better than everyone else. He keeps asking me out! It annoys me.

I hate him.

No you don't.

Yes, I do! I've already told you that I hate him. What more do I need to do to make you believe me?

You need to be sincere. Lying is a sin.

I…I hate him. I do! Jus believe me, already!

No.

I hate him! And I hate you!

You don't mean that.

I do! Do I have to spell it out for you?

That might help. Hah! Prove to me that you really hate him, then.

And how do I do that?

Maybe I'm the one who should spell it out for you? Do I have to make you believe that you don't hate him? The things you said, I'll prove you wrong.

Firstly, pulling his fingers through his hair isn't a crime. It's something some people do when nervous.

Secondly, he isn't arrogant anymore.

Thirdly, he's barely hexed anyone the whole year. When he has, it's because they've insulted his friends or, for that matter, you.

Fourthly, they don't really think they're better than others.

And, lastly, he hasn't asked you out for months. But he still cares.

No, he doesn't.

Yes, he does.

No, and what does it matter? I've already said what I think of the stupid prat. I. Hate. Him!

It matters because you care about him. You love him.

No, I don't!

Of course not. That's why you've been jealous whenever he's asked someone else to go to Hogsmeade with him. That's why your feelings boiled whenever he kissed or even looked at them. When they talked, or went for a walk together.

No, I haven't.

Yes, you have.

So what! Does it matter that I love him?

Hah! So you do love him?

And? What do you care? He gave up on me. He doesn't like me anymore.

Yes, he does. He's trying to make you jealous, so that you'll realize you like him. Go for it. Try. It's the only thing you can do.

Fine.

I hate him.

I love him.

Love sucks.

A/N: I'm not sure I really like this one. It doesn't feel…complete, somehow. I really want to know what you think of this one-shot. Please R&R!