He almost kissed her. He tried to kiss her. I knew it. He wanted her. From the very beginning.

Damn it, Jade! How could you be so stupid!

It was Friday afternoon, and school ended early, leaving me alone in bed, stuck with my own depressing thoughts.

"I don't like her like that, Jade! Tori's just a friend."

Bullshit, Beck! I feel tears fall down from my face, not bothering to wipe them away. How did we end up like this? How did I let him go? How did he let me go?

"I'm not happy with our relationship!" I wince, recalling the time we were still in Sinjin's game show. Stupid game show! Our fights had gotten worse over one question. A query I didn't want to answer…

It was about the ocean. He knows I don't go to the ocean! He knows what happened to me in there! But he pushes me to the stupid question...

The ocean, huh? The ocean took too many stuff from me… But I'm Jade West. I'm not afraid of anything. Not anymore.

Tick, tock Tick, tock, Tick, tock. I think about what I was gonna do... Damn it, I'm not a weakling!

I grabbed my keys from the dresser, and ran downstairs.

"I'll be in the casino, if you need me, honey!" my mom calls to me as I pass her. As if, I thought.
I ran to the garage, bringing nothing but my keys. I left my phone in my room. I started the engine, then pulled out of the driveway, heading to the beach.

I didn't like driving in the daylight, but it's nearly 5:30. The sun was about to set. I pulled my windows down, feeling the wind in my face, preparing myself on what I was about to do.
After fifteen more minutes, I pulled over. I could already hear the waves, and smell the saltwater. I was in a beach called the 'Outskirts'.
It's not exactly Venice beach, but it was a peaceful beach to be in. My dad brought me here when I was a little girl. I remember him telling me not many people come here, but it was a good place to collect your thoughts or clear your head. Though I was here right now for a different purpose. I needed to face my fear.

I started to trudge up the raised part in the right side of the beach, heading up the cliff.

I can do this, I thought to myself. I needed to do this.

After a few minutes of walking, I was at the edge of the cliff, the water right below me. It was a bit windy today, the waves must be bigger than usual... I watch them crash against the boulders. It was at least 60 feet above the water, and I don't even know how deep it was after I've jumped. I didn't bother to look at the shore, which was probably unoccupied, due to the "fame" of the beach. But I think I just saw a glimpse of fire..

"Too many thoughts." I mumble to myself. "Let's get this over with."

I remove my black sweater, tights, skirt, and combat boots; Leaving me in a tank top and my panties.

I'm gonna count to ten. I thought. No. Ten's not a good number to count. On three, Jade.

"Three."

"Two."

"One."

Then I flung myself of the cliff, crashing into the cold water. The second I jumped, I remembered something: I didn't quite know how to dive properly.

I was right.

I hit the water badly, chest first. Pain overwhelmed my torso. I couldn't move properly. I was sinking, further down in the water, when I realized I had to swim up. But it wasn't easy. The waves were tossing me into every direction, leaving me helpless. And when I finally got my head over the surface, a big wave pushed me backwards, and my head hit boulder.
I could tell there was a wound cause I could feel the searing pain slicing my skull. I couldn't think properly now, and I was still underwater, feeling saltwater fill up my nostrils.
Then saw a dolphin heading straight at me. No! He was going to take me away. No, please… I try my best to swim away, but my body was too weak from the crash. I couldn't feel my legs either.. I lost hope. What was the point to this?

There was no Beck to live to. He wasn't even here to protect me, to save me. He was gone. I might as well be.

My eyes were slowly closing when I felt something move beside me. And then something was grabbing me, pulling me to a direction I didn't know which. Hmm, must be a squid. The squid was pulling me away from the dolphin though, who was starting to swim away. I felt my head hit the surface. I can breathe again, but I couldn't. I think my lungs gave up as my heart had.

I love you, Beck. Were the last words I thought of before giving myself up to the darkness..

.

"Jade!" the voice shouted. "What the hell are you doing! Wake up!"

He was pumping my chest repeatedly. "Jade!"

"Jade, don't you dare die!" And then I felt warm breath fill my mouth and throat. Was he kissing me? He kissed me repeatedly. Wow, a squid was kissing me… Huh… He kissed me one last time, and I choked seawater out of my system.

"Jade?" the desperate voice asked again. That was when I realized it wasn't a squid.

It was a boy.

I flitted my eyes open, and saw the face of the wet, topless boy with panic and worry in his eyes. I croak when I try to say his name.

"Ryder?"

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