RoyXEd

Roy sat unmoving. It was all his fault. All his. If he would have... He stopped blinking away tears. He should have been there for her, but he hadn't and now she was gone.

His entire fault.

He lost the one he truly loved. Gritting his teeth the Colonel stared down at his paper work. He should have noticed that the lead seemed to be too good to be true. He should have, but now it was too late. His mistakes had lost him the thing he cared most for.

Of course it had been only two years ago since she went missing, but without any leads his team were forced to end searching. It was hard and Roy couldn't give up, so he simply didn't every night he went out and searched. It had been only the last month that he had stopped looking. He hadn't given up... No it was impossible to do that but he had to deal with the heartache. The heartache which tore at him everyday.

Sighing and closing his eyes memories flooded the blackness.

"You look gorgeous" Roy said smiling at Katrina Elric she was everything he could want and more. Taking her hand he spun her around. Katrina rolled her eyes but smiled anyways. He may have been a perverted womanizer, but he knew how to treat a lady.

Roy pulled her in for a simple yet sweet kiss. He would never knew how he had gotten so lucky. If he never almost ran into her than they might not have ever met. She was strong and kind the two things Roy admired about her. When her mom had passed away and her dad was out of the picture she stepped up to take care of her younger brothers in the best way she could. So she came to the Eastern Headquarters to try and get a job doing something simple in the military. Were she wouldn't be on their beck and call. While she was doing this though she was also going to school to get her education, so she could apply for those higher paying jobs outside the military.

She was amazing everything Roy had wanted and more now she was gone.

Gone.

She was kidnapped and it was his fault. Shaking his head he tried to climb out of the depression he'd fallen in since shed left. With no success he looked back down at his paperwork and continued where he had left off. It was only when the Colonel was almost done that his lieutenant, Riza Hawkeye knocked on the door leading to his office.

"Sir?" she asked.

"You may enter," Roy mumbled still feeling down, but hiding it well. Hawkeye entered and walked over to Roy.

"The boys are coming. I just thought I'd give you a heads up," She said watching him. He nodded refusing to look up. Riza opened her mouth, but before she could ask her question the door in the other room slammed open. Riza turned missing the Colonel jump in his chair.

Riza turned keeping her eyes on the Colonel. When the door slammed opened he signed and put the last document away. She frowned. It wasn't like him to finish his work so early and even get to work on time. He came in everyday and drank coffee till about noon skipped or declined going out to lunch saying he had to finish his work. To be honest it was scaring everyone. He looked like shit and was zoning out all the time. Biting he lip she knew what she would have to do. It was time to get Hughes involved. He was the only one who could through to him when he got like this, and Riza knew that if she didn't act soon it could be too late.

"Lieutenant your dismissed," Roy said his voice wavering a bit at the end. Nodding and giving him a quick salute she left taking the finished papers along the way. Once the door closed behind her Ed tossed himself into one of the leather couches and turned to the Colonel throwing his report toward his superior's desk. He smiled as Mustang caught it. He knew he would. He admired Mustang, he had done a lot of amazing things, but bad things too. Ed manly admired him for his want to do better. His dream to change the country inspired him. But like he was ever going to tell the bastard that. His ego was already big enough.

Ed shook himself out of his thoughts and looked back up at the Colonel. Frowning he was reading his report, but he hadn't said a word to him. It was weird. Usually they would be yelling at each other. He would be calling him a bastard and he would be calling Ed- Ed stopped his train of thought. Nope not going to think that.

Roy in honesty was feeling extra shitting today. He hadn't slept in roughly four days and it was getting to him. Coffee could no longer keep him awake. He held back a yawn and continued to read the pipsqueaks report. It was a good report; Ed's usually were. The thing was that Roy didn't want to look at Ed. He always reminded him of her. It was painful and he always ended up a mess afterwards. Sighing he took a deep breath and looked up at the Fullmetal alchemist.

Ed was watching the colonel trying to ignore the worry eating at his insides. He could tell something was wrong. Something was very wrong. He didn't know how bad it was till Mustang looked up. Ed blinked in surprise it looked like he hadn't slept in days although he hid it pretty well. He opened his mouth to say something, but the colonel spoke first.

"Good report Fullmetal." he said his signature smirk-taking place on his face.

"Very surprising from someone who can barely see over my desk."

Turning red Ed yelled jumping off the couch to point at his superior. "WHO ARE YOU CALLING A MICROSCOPIC PEANUT WHO'S SMALLER THAN AN AMEBA AND CAN'T ANSWER THE PHONE BECAUSE IT'S ON THE COUNTER AND HE'S TOO SMALL TO REACH IT UP THERE!"

"I said no such thing Ed," Mustang said standing up after signing Ed's report. "I'm going home now so scurry along." Mustang said grabbing his jacket and going through the door giving the report to Riza before saying his goodbyes and leaving.

Ed stood frozen. The bastard had used his real name. There really must be something wrong. He never used his real name. Ever. Ed turned and ran through the door that led out of Mustang's personal office and straight up to Riza's desk were he pointed to her and asked, "What the he'll is wrong with Mustang." She looked at him surprised before looking down then back again. Ed's arm fell down as he watched Riza. Something was wrong. Trying not to let the worry engulf him he waited for his answer.

"I don't know," She whispered. "But you shouldn't be worried with it I'm sure it's nothing. Go home, I'm sure Al is worried." She finished smiling.

"Yeah..." Ed said not buying but not wanting to fight. Sighing he said his goodbyes before leaving to go home to Al. Even though he acted like it wasn't bothering him it really was. Mustang was acting strange. He thought about it on his way home before deciding to stop and get something to eat.