Disclaimer: I do not own Buffy the Vampire Slayer. There is not real hinting at who the couple is but whom I wrote them as, is Willow and Spike. I do not own Complicated. That belongs to Carolyn Dawn Johnson, and who ever else own the rights to it.

DEAD-ication: To Shar for reading this for me a few months back.

  Complicated

HIS P.O.V.

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So scared that the way that I feel

Is written all over my face

When you walk into the room

I want to find a hiding place

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Should I tell her? Every time I think about doing it… all the time's I was rejected come flying back at me… I know she'd never do those things to me but I can't help it.

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We used to laugh, we used to hug

The way that old friends do

But now a smile and a touch of your hand

Just makes me come unglued

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She's my friend. How can I tell her this? We're close, closer then close. So close we know each other inside out… well except for this…

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Such a contradiction, should I lie or tell the truth

Is it fact or fiction, oh the way I feel for you

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I can't tell her, I can't lose her friendship, but can I gain her love?

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So complicated...so frustrating

I want to hold you close, I want to push you away

I want to make you go, I want to make you stay

Should I say it...should I tell you how I feel

I want you to know, but then again I don't

It's so complicated

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She's got a date tonight. And all I wanna do is hold her tight, and never let her leave my side… but she's not mine… and were just friends.

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Just when I think I'm under control

I think I finally got a grip

Another friend tells me that

My name is always on your lips

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Everyone's always telling me that all she's always talking about me… but, does she love me? All I do is push her away, and hide behind my masks. So how could she love me?

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You say I'm more than just a friend

You say I must be blind

Well I admit I've seen you watch me

From the corner of your eye

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You say were the best of friends, but I can't handle just being friends anymore. All I wanna do is hold you. Sometimes… I catch you watching me, but is there anything behind it?

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It's so confusing...I wish you'd just confess

But think of what I'd be losing

If your answer wasn't yes

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If I told you and you didn't feel the same way… I'd lose everything, your friendship, and your trust. Everything I've worked so hard to form over the last two years. Can I take that risk?

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So complicated...so frustrating

I want to hold you close, I want to push you away

I want to make you go, I want to make you stay

Should I say it...should I tell you how I feel

I want you to know, but then again I don't

It's so complicated

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If I told her would she leave me? If her answer wasn't yes, would she still be friends. I don't think I could live without her in my life anymore. Or would it be worse… would she laugh in my face? No… she's too good to do that, but still…

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So complicated...oh, I hate it

Cause I've waited so long for someone like you

Oh, what do I do

Should I say it...should I tell you how I feel

Oh, I want you to know, but then again, I don't

So complicated

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I can't tell her, I'd rather love her from afar, than have her know and not feel the same.

The-End