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It was another day, just like any other. The sun was out so we were all out enjoying the weather. The newest member to the team seemed to be fitting in quiet well. His name was Spike oldest to the team he's 20. He's got spiky black hair and chocolate brown eyes. He's extremely strong too, anyway enough about him. We were out in the park. Robin, Starfire, Beast Boy, and Spike were playing football. Cyborg was grilling ribs. Of course I sat under a tree reading. The day was perfect nothing could ruin it not even a thief. Only that's how the day appeared but that is how life goes after all.

I sat there reading my newest book of my favorite vampire series Dark Curse. It's a romance novel by Christine Feehan about the Carpathian's. Even as I read I can't fully get the wandering thoughts out my head. I slip into a dream world where I was Laura, the main woman of topic in the book. Because I know how it feels to be there. See she's been tortured since she was a baby by her grandfather and father, only her father was being controlled, but I'm totally there. I know her fears, her wants, her desires, and her needs. I completely understand it all. It makes me wish I could find my lifemate, someone who would love me forever despite my brokenness…

"Raven watch out," Spike called and I looked up instantly being snapped out of my thoughts. I sigh and stop the ball. I shot it back at Beast Boy and continued reading. "Aw man, what was that for he's the one who can't catch," BB whined "You threw it you can't throw." "Let's see you do it, you've never even touched a football," he challenged. "I'll pass," I said in a monotone. "Yeah that's what I thought." I glared at him a second then shook my head and continued reading.

"Come and get it," Cyborg called. "Man where's my tofu?" "Your tofu is not touching my meat." I sighed softly glancing up at them. "You two can't go a whole day without auguring huh?" "Dunno." Spike sat down next to me, "What are you reading?" I looked up at him; I do suppose it would help to be nice. I mean he is new after all. "Dark Curse, by Christine Feehan," I said softly. "The Dark Series didn't know you were into that stuff." "You know the Dark Series?" "Yeah I love it." I smiled slightly, this was new to me. Had it been anyone else I would've been made fun of. "Which is your favorite," I asked softly. "Hey Spike better get some before Cyborg and Star eat it all." He laughed slightly, "Dark Prince," he said getting up. Dark Prince with Raven and Mikhail, I hardly call that favorite material. Unless… I shake off the thought and continue reading.

Spike came back with two plates. "Here I got you a plate. Wasn't exactly sure what you liked so I got you a little of everything." "Thanks," I said softly taking the plate from him. I put my book down and started eating. BBQ wasn't my thing but it wouldn't hurt to eat it for once.

"He got her to eat BBQ. How come none of us can do that," BB whined. "You don't even like meat Beast Boy," Cyborg said. "That's not the point." "It's good she's opening up," Robin said. "To him, he's been here a week. What about us?" "Shut up Beast Boy," Cyborg sighed. "He understands her better then we do, it's that simple," Robin said "Yeah sure, I call it a conspiracy," Beast Boy sighed. "Oh is BB jealous," Cyborg teased. "Creped out, How can he be cool with us and still get her? It's impossible, she's so out there. I mean none of us get her." "She's not out there, she's just different. It's simply that we haven't been where she has. Maybe he knows what it's like to be in her position," Robin mused. "I'm with him, you shut up. I mean your green who are you to be judging her. Besides if you weren't always annoying her and being an idiot you'd get to know her better. There's a lot your missing man," Cyborg said. "Sure whatever," Beast Boy pouted.

"So what is your favorite book from the series Raven?" "Dark Destiny and this one," I said softly. "Dark Destiny," he said softly. "Mind if I ask why?" "I know how they feel, being trapped like that being forced to be something you don't want to be. Yet they come through it, it's kind of gives me hope," I said softly avoiding his gaze. "I guess you could see it like that. Know what I see if I were to compare you to Destiny? You're scared to trust people, a flower waiting to bloom. You love helping people although nature says you shouldn't. You always do your best to help others. You waiting for the one person in your life who's going to make everything better and although you doubt you'll find him, I know he's out there for you. Once you meet him I think you'll finally come out of your little shell and show off your greatness," he said and I blushed. "I don't know about all that," I said softly. "Hey Spike ready to play," Beast Boy called. "You know it. Just think about it," he said winking before getting up.

"Raven sure you don't want to play," Robin asked. "Positive, have fun." I sighed softly considering what Spike said. Was it possible that I was just a flower waiting to bloom? I look around suddenly feeling power surround me. It was familiar power, power similar to mine. At first panic set in as I instantly thought "father" but I then relaxed it was gentle, loving. I smiled and got up leaving my book there. I follow the power letting it lead the way I knew who it was. "Raven," Spike called. "Friend are you okay," Star asked. Spike ran after me and I was tackled in a hug as I walked under another tree. "Raven," a voice said as I was crushed. Spike growled and I sighed. "Randy get off." "Oh but I missed you little sister," he said and I growled. He laughed and pulled us both up. "Where is the love?" "Little sister," Spike questioned with the others.

Randy looked at him and instantly pulled me behind him. See my brother is a bit over protective of me, and he still probably thinks I'm a baby who can't fight for herself. "Who are you," he growled. I sighed and shook my head. "Randy shut up, stop being an idiot. This is Spike one of my team mates. You know I really don't need you to protect me anymore right, I can fight for myself." "Since when last time I checked you were a bomb waiting to explode and you couldn't fight worth a darn." I sighed and moved around him. "As if, that was years ago I'm not a little girl Randy. What are you doing here anyway?" "I can't come to say hi?" "It's been at least 5 years, I doubt that." "Ok…ay, maybe there is a reason I'm here. We can talk about it later though." I eyed him wondering what he had come for. Instinctively I already knew. "What did he do?" "Nothing," he lied. I knew it as such he could never lie to me. "I'll catch you guys later. I want to catch up with my brother. Spike grab my book for me please," I said and teleported us back to the tower. I wasn't going to let it go, something was wrong I knew it. I could now feel the pain he was trying to hold in and ignore; I could see his slight shaking and his uncertainty glowing in his eyes.