April 16, 2010- 2:00 AM

I Believe in Ghosts

So, as all of you know I have made a major transition! I am now the Managing Editor at an up-in-coming magazine based out of London. The decision to move was hard, but with the love of family and friends I was able to move forward. The transition from New York to London has been just as challenging and full of mishaps, as my original splash into publishing in 2006 at Meade Publishing.

I miss my family, ALL of my family, from my papi and sisters (yes I mean BOTH of my sisters:), to my surrogant mother-to my annoying yet LOVING and totally fashionable brother; my intelligent, beautiful and loving nephew. I miss them all. It is like I left a piece of me in New York, but a good piece, a happy piece.

I left my mark.

London is full of ghosts-the really, really scary kind. The kind that only come out at night, when everything around you settles and your mind begins to wander. The kind that leave you in peace during the day, but shatter your heart into a million pieces over and over again at night. The kind that leave broken and sweating with tears clouding your eyes, and a thousand tiny needles all over your body.

Those ghosts, those scary, scary ghosts; they leave you shaken in middle of night-reaching grabbing for the one thing that you had firm in your grasp but let slip away. These ghosts they invade your dreams, replaying a million conversations over and over again; a million scenes.

These dreams will never leave me. They surround me like steel blue mist, silky strands of hair, and the thump of a heart beat never forgotten. They are the ghosts of my mind, showing me the life I could of had-had I not been blind to what was right in front of me.

They are merciful it seems, allowing me peace during the day at least, so that I might pursue my dream.

But he was always merciful to me.

Broadwayboy: AB I am calling you right now. Pick the phone up you are scaring me.

DanAlandTysMom: I will have you know I set this name up to specifically say this: I love you, you are my daughter in all ways that matter. He will come around, and when he does, reading this will kill him. Now go to sleep young lady.

MandyPandy: OMG, B, please hit up mine or Tyler's cell. P.S. I will kill him a thousand times over for making you feel this way.

IgnacioRules: When you are done speaking with Justin, please call me.

ABomb: Bbomb, I love you girl.

Bettyhead202: Yea girl we got your back.

Modey4life: I have a well prepared list from my Patty Huerst days that I am keeping just in case. Let me know

PrettyinPink: We love you!

Anonymous: Who are you talking about here? Did you meet someone already?

Re: Anonymous: Hildastyles: Back off of my sister, okay? We are from the block, I will not hesitate to cut of a bitch!

Heartbreaking12: I am getting over an ex as well, I feel your pain.

PJspaulding: "Surrounds you like steel blue mists?" Hmmm...I was in your poetry class at QBC..I know what that means. Keep your head up, we are all rooting for you.

UglyBetty: Thank you everyone. I love you all as well.