Darkness and Inspiration (?)
Kohari: I don't own Yu-Gi-Oh. I'm gonna go ahead and say that now. Anyway, this is basically a conversation Seto has with himself on night. I just thought it up at 4:30 in the morning, so if I take someone's idea, I'm sorry. This is my first Yu-Gi-Oh fanfic, so be nice. Here goes.
It's night. I can't sleep. Not that that's unusual. I'm used to it by now. I've pulled more all-nighters than many teens can even imagine. Even adults.
But it's dark. The clock claims that it's only midnight, but I'm not sure I believe it. It feels like it's later than that. This darkness that envelops me scares even myself sometimes. And it gets worse.
I'm alone. Again. As always. It hurts. And for some reason, I can think of only one person. Yugi.
Why, in my mind's eye, can I see almost nothing but you? You, the only one to beat me? It angers me sometimes. That I was humiliated by the grandson of a poor game-shop owner. But it doesn't bother me as much as it used to. Is this what my brother, Mokuba, calls love?
Oh, if you were only a female, Yugi Moto. Then, these feelings would be justified. But then, I would only be further ridiculed for being so easily defeated by a girl. How can something so simple as emotion be so darn complicated?
And Anzu (Tea). What of her? I can barely stop thinking of that...what could you call her? A cheerleader? Yes, a personal cheerleader for my nemesis. For Yugi. I'm jealous sometimes. Yes, jealous. That someone so pathetic as my "rival" could win something that I cannot. That's right. Females aren't attracted to me anymore.
They say I'm too cold-hearted. When I first began playing Duel Monsters, they flocked around me. They begged me to give them more attention. They pleaded for something more than acquaintance. I never gave them that. Now, they stalk people like Duke. And Yugi. They no longer think twice about me. I never cared for them anyway.
But Tea. That girl is...different. Why should Yugi have her, when I have so much more to offer? Because I'm hated. That's the reason. I push everyone away, even my own brother. I take care of him and protect him only because of our relation. Don't I? He has his own ways of looking out for me as well. He's tried to play matchmaker on more than one occasion. He's more like Yugi than I want to admit, though his resemblance to me is also rather striking. He's popular as well, kind...though a little secluded, and cold in heart by nature as I am.
It saddens me sometimes. That his idol is Yugi; every time a problem arises, he wonders what Yugi would do, not what I would prefer. It saddens me that he can be loved and I can't. But he needs that. I need no one. Right?
Wrong. If I needed no one, why would Yugi always have to bail me out when I'm in danger? Again, Yugi. I owe you so much. Why do I feel friendship between us? You offer it on more than one occasion. I wish so badly you'd stop haunting me. The relationship I desire is forbidden.
Maybe my saving grace is with Tea, and not with that...Yugi. But she adores him. I love to say both their names. Yugi, so calm in the face of battle and danger. The best duelist the world has even seen. Even I pale in comparison. And then there's Tea. Graceful, attractive, intelligent...there's too many words to describe her, and none of them negative. I've seen more than one pair of eyes aimed on her.
Do I love both? Does that make me bisexual? I'd do anything for both of them, though I'd never show it. It pains me to see them together. I'd rather have Tea for myself. But then, Yugi... How could I ever let them know? Know how I feel? I can't. Both relationships can never be. They are meant for each other, and I...I am destined to be a loner for life. Destined to always sleep in a bed by myself. To share my secrets with only me. I am destined to forever...be. Secluded, hated, and alone.
I envy you...Yugi.
Kohari: I don't own Yu-Gi-Oh. I'm gonna go ahead and say that now. Anyway, this is basically a conversation Seto has with himself on night. I just thought it up at 4:30 in the morning, so if I take someone's idea, I'm sorry. This is my first Yu-Gi-Oh fanfic, so be nice. Here goes.
It's night. I can't sleep. Not that that's unusual. I'm used to it by now. I've pulled more all-nighters than many teens can even imagine. Even adults.
But it's dark. The clock claims that it's only midnight, but I'm not sure I believe it. It feels like it's later than that. This darkness that envelops me scares even myself sometimes. And it gets worse.
I'm alone. Again. As always. It hurts. And for some reason, I can think of only one person. Yugi.
Why, in my mind's eye, can I see almost nothing but you? You, the only one to beat me? It angers me sometimes. That I was humiliated by the grandson of a poor game-shop owner. But it doesn't bother me as much as it used to. Is this what my brother, Mokuba, calls love?
Oh, if you were only a female, Yugi Moto. Then, these feelings would be justified. But then, I would only be further ridiculed for being so easily defeated by a girl. How can something so simple as emotion be so darn complicated?
And Anzu (Tea). What of her? I can barely stop thinking of that...what could you call her? A cheerleader? Yes, a personal cheerleader for my nemesis. For Yugi. I'm jealous sometimes. Yes, jealous. That someone so pathetic as my "rival" could win something that I cannot. That's right. Females aren't attracted to me anymore.
They say I'm too cold-hearted. When I first began playing Duel Monsters, they flocked around me. They begged me to give them more attention. They pleaded for something more than acquaintance. I never gave them that. Now, they stalk people like Duke. And Yugi. They no longer think twice about me. I never cared for them anyway.
But Tea. That girl is...different. Why should Yugi have her, when I have so much more to offer? Because I'm hated. That's the reason. I push everyone away, even my own brother. I take care of him and protect him only because of our relation. Don't I? He has his own ways of looking out for me as well. He's tried to play matchmaker on more than one occasion. He's more like Yugi than I want to admit, though his resemblance to me is also rather striking. He's popular as well, kind...though a little secluded, and cold in heart by nature as I am.
It saddens me sometimes. That his idol is Yugi; every time a problem arises, he wonders what Yugi would do, not what I would prefer. It saddens me that he can be loved and I can't. But he needs that. I need no one. Right?
Wrong. If I needed no one, why would Yugi always have to bail me out when I'm in danger? Again, Yugi. I owe you so much. Why do I feel friendship between us? You offer it on more than one occasion. I wish so badly you'd stop haunting me. The relationship I desire is forbidden.
Maybe my saving grace is with Tea, and not with that...Yugi. But she adores him. I love to say both their names. Yugi, so calm in the face of battle and danger. The best duelist the world has even seen. Even I pale in comparison. And then there's Tea. Graceful, attractive, intelligent...there's too many words to describe her, and none of them negative. I've seen more than one pair of eyes aimed on her.
Do I love both? Does that make me bisexual? I'd do anything for both of them, though I'd never show it. It pains me to see them together. I'd rather have Tea for myself. But then, Yugi... How could I ever let them know? Know how I feel? I can't. Both relationships can never be. They are meant for each other, and I...I am destined to be a loner for life. Destined to always sleep in a bed by myself. To share my secrets with only me. I am destined to forever...be. Secluded, hated, and alone.
I envy you...Yugi.