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Title: The Road
He stood there frozen in shock of what happened. Everything was in slow motion.
The blood gleamed in the moonlight on the tip of the blade sticking out of her chest.
RED, as like the color of the suit he was wearing.
He heard a scream in the distance. It sounds distorted. Everything is off.
The scene is blurry, and the sounds are muted.
But none of it matters, the battle, the city, his friends, none of it matters anymore.
He failed. HE FAILED. Iris is DEAD. HE FAILED!
Its like a bad movie and he's watching it over and OVER again.
Thawne… Solomon… Savitar
MOM… DAD….. IRIS
Its HIS fault, He needs to be punished.
Jail, NO he needs to suffer.
But what jail could hold HIM. HE needs to SUFFER.
Like …. Like WALLY.
Like WALLY did in the speedforce.
.
.
THE SPEEDFORCE. That's it.
RUN BARRY RUN.
Memories passed him. Memories, faces… events but he does not care, the past, present and future.
NONE of it matters as long as HE SUFFERS.
….
BAM… Something hit him like a train.
But that does matter.
All that matters to Barry is that it stopped his momentum.
Stopped him from completing his GOAL.
NO… HE needs to SUFFER… HE needs to get to the speedfore.
'NO, NO NO…' he drops to his knees tears spilling out.
All he says is "NO" over and over again.
….
"Barry" he hears a voice in the distance.
"Barry" its getting closer.
"Barry" he is trapped. Something has wrapped around his arms like a vice grip.
He can't move.
"No, I have to.." he cries.
"Barry"
"He has to.."
"Barry, calm down."
"No, I have to go"
"Barry its me"
"Let me go."
"Barry."
"don't you get it" he cries to the mysterious voice. "he has to suffer."
"who, Barry."
"Its all his fault"
"Who's fault, Barry"
"Mine" He yells as he finally looks at his captor. "its me that needs to suffer"
He yells at Kara. "If I wasn't there than reverse flash… savitar. Neither of them would exist."
"if I wasn't there to put them in danger, than they would still be alive. MOM… DAD… IRIS. They would still be alive if it wasn't for me."
"And I can't even fix that because than I would ruin everything AGAIN. I would be causing my family and friends pain just to make me feel better about myself."
"I can't do that. I can't fix anything, AND I can't save anyone." He screamed.
"but," he paused as he took a breath. "I can punish the person responsible."
"ME." He said with pain and conviction that it broke her heart.
'Here is someone who is suffering more than I am' she thought.
'Someone who needs me KARA not SUPERGIRL, Kara the person not the legend, the friend not the hero, this I can do' she thinks resolutely.
As she looks into his eyes, she can see the long road ahead of them.