Author: Kovacsgirl
E-mail: kovacsgirl@yahoo.com
Category: Additional Character (Drama/Angst)
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: Season 6/7
Archive: E-mail me if you want this on
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Disclaimer: No own ER.
But, I do own Monica!!!
Author's notes: A spur of the
moment story. I rap pretty hard on Abby, so don't get really mad. I don't like
Abby anyway. I thought of this while going to a play the other day. I thought
it was an interesting take. Please enjoy and send feedback.
Summary: Luka and Abby's daughter faces
a life of dispare because of their earlier lives.
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Mine is the most infamous name in
the entire junior class. If you were to walk up to someone and whisper it just
right, it will send icy, sharp chills down that person's back. So, what is my
name? Is it a death-invoking chant? Guess again. No, not a satanic ritual's
title. And not a freakish, Frakenstein reminisce. No, no it's a quite simple
name. A quiet name. Monica Kovac. At first sound, it strikes no particular
chord. Like when you are introduced to a large group of people. Their names
wash over you, but do not strike you… Like clouds. On does not cry out each
time they see one. But yet, I'm known… Why?
Abby and Luka Kovac. On paper the
names mean nothing to you. Ah, but you have not met them. You have not lived
sixteen years with them. You are not their daughter.
I hate my
mother. I probably hated her even when I was a child. When I was born. She is
dirty, smelling of must, cigarette smoke, and alcohol. You don't want me to be
so hard on her? Now, I know I am speaking to a stranger! Abby Wysinski
Lockheart Kovac. She has been married twice. Yet, I guess she still couldn't
get the sexual arousing that she wanted…or needed…because she had an affair
with Doctor Carter over at Cook County General. Don't get me wrong; Dr. C is a
great guy… I guess you feel abandoned when something like that happens. Too me,
my mother is dead. La Mort, as they say in French. La Mort… I don't miss her; I
never had a mother. She was always a background noise, with her insanity. My
father and Ana, a good friend of my father, raised me. She is schizo. Truly.
She lost it soon after her mother commit suicide. Kerry Weaver tells me not to
judge her on it; it's not her fault. Well, she didn't have to grow up with a
neurotic mother. I did. She almost killed me once. When I was five, she tried
to slash my wrists with a butcher knife. I was taken to County, and they
patched me up, but things were never the same. Her affair with Doctor C ended
abruptly, Ana came to care for me, and Abby went to a mental institution. Those
scars are infamous too. People think I tried to kill myself. Nah, there's
enough of that to go around at my house. When she came back, she treated me
like a daughter again. Only for a while. Then she lost it again. I don't know
why they let her work at County. Maybe because she was my father's pseudo-wife.
Insanity runs on my mother's side.
My grandmother was bi-polar and killed herself. Abby is schizo, and everyone
thinks I'll crack too. There are bets as to when and where. Like a race. A
sick, dirty, wrong race.
My parents were divorced two years
ago. Dad married Ana, whom he loved even before he met Abby. I don't know why
he married her. Pity. I bet it was pity.
Dr. Dave Malucci married Deb
(Jein-Me) Chen. Their daughter Ashleigh is my best friend. Doctor C. married
his high school sweetheart Mallory Davis. They have twins, Adam – my archrival -
and Lucy, named after Dr. C's former love interest. Cleo Finch and Peter Benton
got married (WHO IN THEIR RIGHT MIND WOULD MARRY THAT GODDAMN BITCH!!!). Mark
Greene and Elizabeth Corday have a daughter – Ella – who is a year older than
me, and a son Paul – a major pervert – who is in my class. My other best chum
is Heather Boulet. Her mother, Jeannie is such a sweetheart and is cursed with HIV.
So is Heather, but we love her anyway.
My dad is my favorite person on this
earth. He is Croatian, and was married once before (not counting Abby and Ana)
and had two children. They died during the war. Dad is soft-spoken, and at
times sad. But he loves me and I know he'll protect me if Abby ever tries to
get me.
Ana is short for Anastasia, and is
Russian. She and Dad met in high school, and she came from Russia after Abby
tried to kill me. Dad always loved her, and I'm glad they finally got together.
So, that's the external view of my
life. It seems so simple, but it's not. Hell, it's far, far, far from that.
Just listen. I'll tell you all about it. And then you'll know why Monica Elaine
Kovac is a shunned person.
