I do not own any of these characters...
With the help of my beauitufl girlfriend JUJUChick16, who inspired the following statement.
I have written this in a Minerva and Hermione relationship, and obviously from one to the other. However, I will not disclose which character I wrote it for, and would love to hear peoples opinions of whom they think this speech is coming from in the reviews :)
Never Knowing What Could Have Been.
It's not the waking up alone in the middle of the night on an empty bed, or the deep feeling in your stomach that's so hard to fill because only one person can. It's not the sound of the rain at the windows and it's not the way time seems to tick by even slower than before. It's not even the crying that spurts out spontaneously without you noticing, or the feeling of never being able to get on ever again.
I can handle the awkward moments where I see our friends when I'm by myself and even the inevitable question of how you are when people are unaware of our situation. It's hard to get up every morning, preparing myself for work, but I do. Even putting one foot in front of the other has become a chore, but I know if I can get on, I will. I cope with the hard task of trying to forget you and deal with the fact you won't be coming home to me anymore.
It hurts like I have never had before, I ache with every step, I am alone and frightened, but that's not what gets me.
I live with the regret everyday of watching you walk away from me. Of not ever telling you what I truly felt, and letting you down by not being able to. It hurts to know you never opened up to me too, the never knowing staying with me every second. I will never know the joy, or the happiness. I will never know the laughter or love again. I will never know the marriage, the children, the growing old that may or may not have been in our favoured future.
What hurts me the most is that loving you was all I was trying to do, and that I couldn't help you to see that. We had so much to say, I had so much to say, and we let that opportunity of knowing slip so willingly through our hands forever. I let you turn away from me, without an utter, and for that I will never forgive myself.
I can manage the pain and hardship that I am about to embark on. I'm not afraid to cry when I feel the need to, alone or with friends. But I still envisage in my mind that look in your eyes when you walked from me. I would trade anything, my health, my most prized possessions for that one moment back. I'd give away my home and be out on the streets just to be able to say those words that were left unspoken between us. I'd pay all of the money I had, and then steal some just to be able to say what I needed to tell you.
If I could have foreseen that day, I would have done everything in my power to make you mine.
And that's what gets me; Never knowing what could have been.
A/N: Remember to review who you think and why guys :), I hope the story was ok