Learning
Author's Note: This is just some drabble I wrote. Prompted by a long conversation with a friend. Trust is a subject I have mixed feelings on right now. Tell me what you think of it.
It isn't easy for her to learn to trust again. Being betrayed by someone she loves is hard. Being let down and seeing everything crumble right in front of her eyes hurts. But learning to trust again is harder. She is a daughter of wisdom, and is not controlled by her feelings. Or is she? This new boy brings back old feelings: trust, faith, hope. He has saved her, in more ways than one. But she is wary of people who seem to assure something enduring or true, because another boy has wounded her deeply. He promised her protection and a place to belong. He promised her he would take care of her. But he failed his promise. And by doing so, he destroyed all her illusion of a world in which people and promises endure. This new boy has come dangerously close to breaking down the walls she built. Doesn't he know that without those walls she might once again have feelings for someone? She has learned that feelings only lead to hurt and disappointment. Logic and reason are the only things that do not fail. Love and friendship are unstable and cannot be depended on. Yet, his friendship is slowly healing her. She's taking baby steps, but she's inching towards caring for someone again. And letting someone care for her. This time is different. This boy is many things that the other was not. He is braver, but also gentler. He is less angry and easier to talk to. And he seems to care about her. To care about her past, her thoughts, and her dreams. She's feeling things she hasn't felt in a long time. The scab is falling off her wound, and while it does hurt, it's a step to recovery. Because he's teaching her to feel again.