This is a story for the wonderful Jen and Tilly. This is just an idea that popped into my head to forgive me if its not great! Thanks.

Chapter 1

Both Jen and Tilly were left with shattered hearts. The love they once had disapearred in an instant. With the click of a finger. Who'd of thought one misunderstanding could break a relationship like theres so easily.

Jen taking the job was actually one of the biggest mistakes she'd ever made. She wanted the job, of course she wanted the job. Its not all of the time a studant teacher gets offered a full time teaching job after so little time. It was the fact of breaking Tillys heart that hurt her the most. Knowing it wasn't possible to have Tilly in her life anymore. Jen had told herself over and over again the relationship was nothing but a little fun, something was definetly going to end by the end of the summer, but what she didnt think was it would end so badly, or she would feel so lonely. She knew she'd fell for Tilly she just didnt want to belive it. This relationship she had with Tilly was wrong, and shouldn't of even carried on in the first place.

Tilly tried to act tough and careless when people were around but as soon as she was alone, it was a whole new act. She knew the relationship wouldn't last past the summer but she just didnt want it to be true she wanted nothing more than to carry on seeing Jen. They had so much fun, surely after everything Jen couldn't just forget about it. It obviously ment more than just a meanless fling to Jen or she would never have started things up again with herself and Tilly. She would have just ended things without turning back.

Tilly, now actually does wish Jen had just ended things and not looked back. At least then the feelings wouldn't be so hard to deal with, Tilly would have moved on by now acted like a normal studant towards Jen. Of course she knew there would be a little tension between them at first but at least then she knew she'd of been able to get used to it. Not now though, not after everything they have been through together.

All though Tilly knows she was the real reason this relationship ended she actually couldnt blame Jen anymore. Jen was the reason to it all, she'd lead Tilly to believe there was actually something serious between them and at the first chance Jen dropped her like a peice of rubbish thats what hurt Tilly the most.

Tilly doesn't really know what exactly she had expected to happen really. Tilly re-thinks it and re-thinks it over and over. Mabye it will get easier as time goes by, proberly just infatuation a silly crush on her teacher. Most people go through it don't they? there's always someone a little older there who you think you like but with Tilly it was different. She'd actually touched Jen, in ways no one could even imagine. But the more Tilly thinks, surely infatuation doesn't hurt this much?

Over and over she regrets treating Jen the way she did the last time they spoke. Of course she does all day and all night going over the last conversation every minute of the day. The more the teen thinks of the conversation the more real it all feels and the more it hurts. Now, Tilly wonders if she could just apoligie to Jen and hope for the best that things can go back to normal. But how can it? not now Jen is her full time teacher. Now Jen proberly feels better about herself, now she wouldn't have to split from Tilly because Tilly had already done it for her.

Since the last arguement Tilly sees Jen around the College an awful lot. More than she used to see of her when they were actually together. Passing each other in the corridrs. Tilly tences as soon as she sees Jen walking by, Jens exactly the same. Jen changes her gaze down towards the floor as she walks past. Tilly at the least just wishes they can be some sort of friends, instead of acting like children around one another. Even friends could be better than nothing couldn't it? But of course that wouldn't be possible, not when Jen cares so much for her job, not when she's as parinoid as always. Yeah, they tried to be friends before. But look where that got them. Got them in bed thats where it got them.

Art is obviously the worst lesson of the day. Tilly often digs herself for actually acting so immature to even consider switching classes to Art. At first she was just doing it to get at Jen, like she said. The worst someone can engore is being in a room with someone you don't want to be now Tilly regretted the decision she made. Because now, Tilly feels even worse than before. At least before Tilly was getting some sort of attention from Jen, but now there was nothing. She often has to avoid looking at Jen, trying not to look so weak and hurt. But it is hard, a lot harder for Tilly than Jen. Jen knows how to control her feelings, she knows how to distract herself from thinking about certain things, certain people which is obviously Tilly. Even though its so hard, still Jen doesn't want to let down her barriers when around Tilly.

Tilly often locks herself away in her room, writing in her diary or looking through pictures which was once taken when herself and Jen looked so happy together. With her having no one she can really talk to makes it all that harder, if only it wasnt a secret relationship and her friends knew about her and Jen then at least she'd have Maddie to talk to about it. It would make it all that easier to get through, but having to deal with it all alone makes things a lot harder to deal with.

Jen is the same, as soon as she gets back to Dianes she barly has anything to think about. Which causes her mind to drift to Tilly very often. It hurts her too, but deep down she knows its the right choice. After the heartache both herself and Tilly have been through, there have more than likely got through the toughest part of the break up. The beginning is always the hardest. The best thing for both to do was to get out, enjoy themselves finally live there lives properly.

At least now Tilly isnt lieing to her friends, which was the worst part of the relationship with Jen. Cutting her friends out a lot of the time. It wasn't very often she'd get to spend time with Jen alone so Tilly done everything she could to be there. Leaving her friends behind or not Jen ment everything to her and that was the reason she dropped everyone else for her when needed.

'Fancy going out for drinks tonight? I need cheering up'

The only way Tilly felt able to ease her pain was to go out and enjoy herself with her friends, the people who she wanted to be around the most, the people who was sure to put a smile on Tillys face finally. Weeks after the break up. Of course, everyone agreed to meeting up. Not just for Tillys sake but because it was the weekend, and a lot of her friends had there own problems they needed to get away from. Everyone text Tilly back instantly Yes of course, Tilly smiled, she knew never in a dull moment would her friends let her down when she needed them. Not like Jen, Jen was there when she wanted to be and dropped her when she didnt want to be. Its just the way Jen was towards Tilly, was before and will be again. It was time for Tilly to finally move on from this little crush and find someone else, someone who she could be out in public with, someone who would treat her right. Yeah, thats what she needed someone different.

Tilly took the time to dress up at her best, took all the time she needed to look beautiful. Wearing a short red dress with high heels. She looked at herself in the mirror. This is what she's missing out on she felt a little weird thinking that but who cares? no one was there to judge her for saying it anyways. Speaking the mind is always what Tilly was like, and that wasnt going to change just because it was with Jen. Now, a little bit of dancing and a lot of alcohol would definetly build up her spirits, having a good time is exactly what she needs.

Meeting in at the Chez-Chez at 8pm with Maddie, Sinaed, George, Ester, Ruby, Bart, Jono and Neil is just what she needed. Everyone getting in without a problem. Proberly because everyone was dressed to the nines and all looked absolotly stunning.

Jen was back at Dianes, as always sketching. Unkowing to what Tilly was up to, or what she was thinking. Her mind wondered to Tillys wearabouts pracically all the time. What was she doing? Was she enjoying herself? Proberly getting over me! Jen thought a lot. And indeed she was right, for once Tilly was enjoying herself, she was getting drunk and she was in fact trying her very best to get over her.

A couple of drinks down and everyone was having a brilliant time, the more drinks that came Tillys way the more she was enjoying herself. She was finally happy, enjoying the company of other people. Dancing around with strangers, flirting with Ester a little and just enjoying the time while she had it.

Another couple of drinks down and Tilly was finally starting to feel the alcohol rushing through her body, feeling a little drunk but not enough! Not enough to go home yet, or even stop to think about going home. She was in fact out here to get drunk, so thats what she wanted to do. Its not like she was the only one. In fact Tilly was the least drunk out of them all. So it was time to up her game a little. Ordering 3 vodka shots for herself at the bar. One shot down, second shot down, third shot down. She felt more alive than ever. Finally not thinking about Jen, Jens name wasnt even wantering in that little head of hers.

Finally, Tilly was enjoying herself without the company of Jen. Jen wished she could do the same thing Just stop thinking about her you stupid cow its over for good Jen thought to herself. She'd was actually mad at herself for being so stupid, thinking about Tilly so much after everything they have put one another through. Jen decided it was time she found someone her own age. Someone who she could also be openly about. Yeah it was fun, and exiting with Tilly having to hide away. But it obviously wasnt ever going to be anything more than that was it?

Luckly for Tilly her night ended with a little kiss from the one person she least expected one from.