"Shock again please right clear"
"no still no output right charge again at 250 this time right clear "
"come on don't do this to us please." Raf pleaed with the patient
"right shock again ready clear."
"no sheds still in vf." He really was panicking now
"again shock again."
"Raf mate we've shocked her 12 times I don't want to say it but its been at least half an hour I think the injuries are too bad there's nothing more to do." Fletch said as a lump formed in his throat.
"no we cant stop I promised id save her I cant let her die there must be something right more chest compressions why don't we open her up and do a heart massage or put her on bypas untill shes strong enough someone page miss naylor." He said but no one moved everyone even himself knew there was nothing to be done
"Raf she's gone we cant do anything else. Time of death 22:57pm" tears were now pouring down both Raf and Fetch's face.
After hearing the words everyone hates Raf took off out of theatre hitting the wall on his way out.
"lou could you sort everything out here and get her cleaned up in case the family want to see her. Oh and everyone we did our best we did her proud we all know she would have done the same if she were in out positions." Fletch said as he made his way out to follow Raf who he found just outside tears streaming down his face.
"she's gone Fletch I didn't save her why couldn't I save her." Fletch him self was now crying they both embraced each other as they needed the support.
"I need to go and tell her god how can I tell her this it will break her if she was the one doing the surgery she would of saved her."
"Raf I can do it if you want and I don't think anyone could have her injuries were pretty bad and I know it will be hard but we will just have to be here to support her you did everything you could so don't go doubting yourself you're an a brilliant doctor."
Raf left fletch as he made his way to break the news he always hated going to the families and telling them that there loved one was dead. Every death was hard but this one so much more as he really admired her.
"I'm sorry but we did everything we could" Raf himself was crying as he had to deliver these words about a woman he admired so much he couldn't believe he couldn't save her he wished he could of why out of all the patients he treated did this one have to die.
She didn't say anything she just sat and stared into his face how could she be dead how could her Serena be dead she was bouncing around the ward only hours ago how did this happen. Well she knew how she wanted to know why.
Bernie Wolfe was heartbroken for one of the first times in her life.
"Bernie is there anything I can do for you" Raf could see just how much she was hurting he wanted to do something anything.
"No Id like to be alone." With that she slowly walked to there office and shut the door and blinds behind her.
Once inside she allowed her self to cry she sobbed so much that her body gave way underneath her her heart hurt so mush how could she live without her Serena he wonderful sexy surgeon she just wanted to hold her right now. Time seemed to stand still as Bernie sat and sobbed against the filling cabinet with her knees brought up to herself she was hugging her self.
*tap* *tap*
Bernie's trans was interrupted by the tapping at the door before she could even reply or do anything whoever was knocking at the door just came in she didn't even look at who it was she did it want anyone but Serena. They made there way over to where she sat and cradled her while she sobbed.
Bernie want normally one to show her emotions in front of anyone she classed it as a sign of weakness the only person she had truly ever shown emotion to was Serena. In fact she didn't care who was there or what thy were witnessing she was actually glad for the comfort.
Eventually she looked up to see her wonderful friend dr Copeland. He was just sat there tears in his own eyes as he helped his friend through this.
"Bernie I am so sorry I'm here for you what ever you need." Bernie didn't respond she couldn't she just gave him a weak smile and they sat in silence once again both consumed in there thoughts.
After a while the silence was broken.
"How did you know I thought you were off recovering." Bernie asked as she was very much aware of what went in with Issac.
"I was at home watching my day time tv when the lunch time news came on and I saw what was going on I had to come and make sure everything was okay and then I found out when they started letting people back in."
"Oh right I see"
So much had happened in these past 12 hours ever since her shift started she knew it was going to be a long day. She never expected this is happen though.
" dom not that I don't appreciate you coming here so you mind if I just have some time alone a just….
Before she finished she as cut off by dom.
"Sure don't worry I'll leave you but if you need anything then call me" with that he got up kissed her on the forehead and gave her shoulder a reassuring squeeze before leaving Bernie to her thoughts.
She couldn't understand how this had happen she needed to know why she thought back to the start of the day. Oh how she wished she was back there again
13 hours earlier
*buzzz* *buzzz*
Bernie groaned as she heard the not so delightful sound of her alarm as she turned it off she went to roll over to the other side of the bed only to be stopped by something in her way. When she looked down she was met by the wonderful sight of them beautiful brown eyes starting back at her. Without even saying anything one look was all that was needed as there lips met and they kissed passionately but with such love at the same time.
"Good morning my sexy major." Serena said a little breathless after that kiss.
"Well good morning my wonder life savour." They suddenly became aware that they were lay there in Bernie's bed both fully naked and there bodies pressed against each other.
"Well Wolfe you certainly know how to show a girl a good time last night was so much fun I want to do it all over again." She said winking as she did
"Well I have to please my lady don't I anyway you were pretty good last night too."
"Oh how I love you my big macho army medic I can't believe I get to wake up to you I can't believe I'm so lucky to have you I love you so much."
"I love you I couldn't imagine how my life would be if I had never crossed paths with you now How about we skip work and just stay here together I'm sure we will have much more fun here" Bernie said with a seductive look
They again l locked lips but this time it was much more passion and there hands roamed each other.
"As…much …. As I'd love to just stay here with you we're can't leave our family without there mothers now can be darling." They we're both panting for breaths While there lips locked again neither wanted to break the kiss but they eventually parted looking deep into each other's eyes.
"Major if were quick we will have time for a shower if we go now and as I stress I'd we are quick now go." They bother jumped up and almost ran to the shower where they shared a rather steamy shower and once they were finished they got dressed.
Within another 30 mins the were both ready and heading out the door in hand and hand both feeling loved they both never felt like this before that it was exciting and knew they loved it they didn't care who saw them as they were happy and that was all that mattered. The drive to work they were still hand in hand they would both be starting at the other and telling them self's they were lucky to be togther by that time they got to the hospital thye were gutted as it meant they were no longer in this bubble of just the two of them.
Once parked Serena made to get out the car but was stopped when Bernie pulled on her arm and pulled her into a long lingering kiss it felt like the world stopped around them. once they had pulled apart no words were needed as they told each other with there eyes how much they loved one and other.
*bang* *bang* the sudden shock of someone banging on the car pulled them out of there trans they looked to see that Jason was stood on the drivers side knocking on the window they both got out and greeted him.
"hello auntie Serena , Bernie how are you today."
"we are very well how come you are here I thought you werent on shift today." Serena asked a little confused at why he was here.
"oh I'm not I just needed to pick something up from my locker on my way to see Alan."
"oh okay then I guess we will see you later."
"goodbye auntie Serena , Bernie."
Once they had walked into the hospital Serena went straight to the ward while Bernie got there coffees to start the day off properly. She was hoping that it was just going to be a quiet day on AAU and hopefully the red phone wouldn't ring as she had some paperwork to finish and she was still recovering from last night so a nice office day was just what she needed but she knew that she wouldn't know what the day was going to bring.
Once in the life she was almost praying to be greeted with a nice quiet ward as the life dinged she took a deep breath the doors opened to reveal a surprising AAU ward much to Bernie's delight she got out the lift and went bounding towards her office hoping Serena was in there.
Once inside the office she was greeted by a pleasant sight of Serena with her head in the filling cabinet while her gorgeous arse was sticking up in the air it was a sight to take Bernie's back a bit .noticing that Serena hadn't head her she gently put the coffee's down and quietly walked towards her where she grabbed Serena arse causing her to jolt in shock and bang her head in the process.
"oww" was all that was heard before Serena spun around to playfully hit Bernie on the arm.
"oh my I am so sorry Ms Campbell I have no idea what came over me I just saw you and couldn't control my self do you require any medical attention." Bernie teased
"well I am not sure this is appropriate work place conduct I might have to sanction you Ms Wolfe but firt I would like you to kiss my head better I do believe this is the best treatment option."
"well as I am a doctor I would like to treat you so a kiss would be satisfactory and maybe you should punish me." Bernie said with a wink
They had both forgotten that they were in work both caught up in sexual tension. Bernie slowly put her hands on Serena's head and gently kissed the spot in which she hit her head lingering for a while before pulling away and looking into Serena's eyes.
"thank you Ms Wolfe I feel better already now you punishment is that you are going to have kiss my now."
Serena couldn't think of anything more then kissing Bernie.
Just as Bernie was inches from Serena's lips the gap closing ever so quickly.
*ring* *ring*
The dreaded red phone started to ring they pulled apart quickly as Bernie sprang into action picking up the phone and finding out what they were going to be dealing with.
"major RTC on route 4 victims 2 critical and 2 not so much."
Serena nodded as the both went to inform the rest of the team.
Present time
Bernie sobbed as she recalled the last time she kiss Serena the last time they were alone in the very spot that she was now sitting her emotions got to much as she started to hit the filing cabinet repeatedly denting it to the point where her hand was full of blood and she could no longer feel anything in her hand. The pain didn't even register it just made her feel even worse. Sitting in there office made her feel worse all the memories they had shared all the kisses and sly hand holding when they knew no one was looking.
She couldn't sit there anymore she just got up and ran no idea where she was going she just needed to get out of this room this ward where they had spent most of there time together. She went to the one place where she hadn't expected herself to go as she stood outside the door and read the sign that read the same thing over and over again she wasn't quite sure why she was there.
The sign read morgue.
This was one place no one ever wanted to be she had only been there once before and that was when a patient had needed support on seeing a loved one. She wasn't quite sure why she had came but she had not really thought about where she was going she just needed to get away from the memoirs but she knew deep down that she just wanted to see her Serena one last time even if she wasn't ready.
Just as she was about to push the door open she felt someone clasped her hand she was surprised when she saw who it was.
"nobody should do this alone." The words of fletch as he stood at her side supporting her.
Bernie didn't say anything just started ahead at the door
When she was ready again she pushed open to door and was greeted by the medical examiner who explained what was going to happen and that there would be a small wait while they got her ready he led them to a small room where they would wait before he came to collect them again. Bernie had listened to him but hadn't really takin it all in she was just scared of what she was going to see if this would change her image of Serena forever what if every time she thought of her all she saw was her Serena lying on a cold metal table lifeless.
After a short wait he returned again.
"are you ready Ms Wolfe."
Bernie just nodded and they made there way to see her.