James was a two timer. He hadn't wanted to be, it had never been his intention to hurt anyone. But James loved two people. He loved Sirius and he loved Lily.

Sirius knew about Lily, he knew that he was sharing James, with every touch, moan and climax Sirius knew that James would go back home to Lily.

James knew the day he had to call it off with Sirius, it had been like a slap in the face.

He'd been making love to his wife, buried deep within her, pounding in and out, Lily making all the wonderful noised she liked to make, creating deep scratches in James skin. Like always they came together, their orgasms sweet, complete and mind blowing.

James had cried Sirius' name.

Thankfully Lily hadn't heard him over her own cries.

That night he'd been with Sirius, Sirius had him bent over the bed and had been deep within, violently pounding into him, calling him a whore. James had been biting down on his own hand trying not to scream in pain and in pleasure. Sirius had come first, a maddening friction, hot seed scorching James. James had come soon afterwards, a punishing climax that ripped through him, making him scream like a girl.

James had cried Lily's name.

Unfortunately Sirius heard him.

Pulling out of James Sirius stood up, pain in his eyes and there were angry blotches of color in his cheeks, and his hands were balled into fists.

"I'm sorry Sirius! I'm so sorry, I love you, please come back to bed," James exclaimed.

"You called out Lily's name…I know I share you James but that's unforgivable," Sirius leaned up against the wall, naked and beautiful.

"I called your name this morning; I don't know what's wrong!" James cried, standing up to go to his lover.

"What's wrong is we shouldn't be doing this, I want you…but I don't want to share you anymore," Sirius shook his head, his dark hair falling in front of his eyes.

James wrapped his arms around Sirius, "I know…I know…we've strung this on too long…But I love you Padfoot."

Sirius tilted James head and kissed him gently, "I love you too Prongs, but…It's time for Lily to have all of you. I had my time where I didn't have to share now it's hers."

"How much longer can I keep you?" James asked.

"Oh James, you selfish prat," Sirius chuckled mildly, "You don't have anymore time…You should leave now."

"What, but Sirius!" James jerked away looking at his best mate, "when will I ever see you?"

"Every other Sunday with Remus and Peter at the Leaky Cauldron," Sirius sighed and began looking for his pants.

"But I won't be able to touch you…to…to…kiss you…" James stuttered, tugging a shirt over his head.

"That's the point Prongs, we've been good together, but you're a family man now," Sirius smiled as he zipped up his jeans, "come on I'll walk you out."

Sirius watched as James finished getting dressed, the silence between them thick and depressing. Sirius wrapped an arm around James' shoulders as he led him to the door.

"In time this wont hurt as much," James whispered to himself.

"In time we'll look back and have great memories," Sirius smiled, opening the door.

"I love you Padfoot," James kissed the corner of his friend's mouth.

"I love you too Prongs," Sirius closed his eyes against the pain. When he opened them again James had gone.

Sirius collapsed against the door jam and cried.

That's how Remus found him an hour later.

That's how Remus became a replacement for James