Disclaimer: Just by the way...I don't own Skins

Description/Content: That's what I think should have happened after bouncy castle...^^

AU: Thomas was at the party and had sex with Pandora instead of Cook- the boys had'n shown up at all, sorry...

..and yeah I know that the group is a bit off character...

A/N: Sorry for the mistakes!

Naomily

When Naomi opened her eyes, first thing she felt was an arm around her body and a person spooning her from behind. The blonde groaned. Where the fuck was she? Why was this place so colourful and soft? She carefully turned around and face a girl with red hair and a soft smile on her lips.

Emily was still asleep, but at the moment when Naomi looked at her, it hit her! Everything came back, the kiss, the feelings, the other kiss...the arousal. Shit! She carefully took Emily's hand and put it away. The blonde got up and stumbled off of the bouncy castle. She went inside Pandora's house. Effy was leaning at the sink in the kitchen and grinned at her new friend. „Interesting."

Naomi had to agree.

Emily had woken up when Naomi took her hand. When she had taken a short glimpse at the confused face of the other girl she had decided to pretend that she was still asleep. She didn't wanted to be confronted with that. She didn't want to her Naomi telling her it was all because of the drugs and the alcohol, or that it was just a moment... she wanted to lay her and imagine that Naomi would come back with a blanket and two coups of coffee.

Kati stumbled into the kitchen, still drunk like shit, she looked at Naomi. „You did it again, fuckin' lezza!" „It's none of your damn business!" Naomi answered. Shortly after Pandora and Thomas came into the kitchen. They said their mornings and drank their coffee in silence. When Kati's mobile began to buzz she picked up and started talking to her boyfriend. Pandora and Thomas were in there own world and Effy and Naomi had started to grap the empty bottles and started to clean up.

„So, you and Emily, sweet" Effy said. Naomi scoofed and turned away. „It was just because of the drugs, it was just the moment." the brunette chuckled „Keep telling that to yourself." When Pandora and Thomas came into the living room and started to healp them she went into the kitchen, made another two coups of coffee and went outside.

Emily laid on her stomach and thought about the kiss. It was the most wonderful thing that ever happened in her live. The feeling being pressed on Naomi had been amazing, the soft hands on her back...she felt her skin burning when she thought back. „Hey..." a soft voice said. Slowly Emily sat up and smiled. Effy was standing in front of her with two coups in her hands. „May I join ya?" Emily smiled and nodded. The girl gave a coup to the redhead and sighed. "So now we have two muff munchers...cute." Emily smiled sadly " I guess there is just one... sitting next to you."

"Why do you think that?" Effy asked, sounding a bit bored...just like always. "I guess... because she didn't stayed after waking up, she told me that this was just because of the drugs and...dunno..." Effy smiled, something made her feel weird about that girl. She felt something that she had felt once or twice when she was with Panda. It was the urge to protect the other girl, to help her. No one ever made Effy feel so much care, not even Pandora.

So she did something, she'd thought she'd never ever do. She hugged the redhead, stroke her hair and when she felt Emily staring to cry, she kept holding her and summed some song that she remember always making her feeling better.

Inside of the kitchen 4 pairs of eyes watched them. Piercing blue eyes were suddenly field with confusion and...jealousy, brown eyes were widen up field with confusion and jealousy too, but out of so different reasons. Just Panda's and Thomas' eyes showed kindness. "Is Emily crying?" Pandora suddenly asked. Naomi and Kati didn't answer. "Come on, hon, we should clean up" Thomas said. In silence they cleaned up the house. Everyone in their own thoughts.

Naomi "Shit...I really hurt her...but I told her, that it wasn't more and it was just because of these fuckin drugs. But I have to admit that it felt so damn good, her body pressing into mine, her lips... FUCK...what am I talking? I'm not a fuckin lezza. Cooks rule!

Kati "I don't understand this...Effy is supposed to be my new friend. Why is she hugging my fuckin lezza sister, god that's so not true, it's all because of this Naomi...she messed everything up. I hate her... I hate her for making Emily even more different from me than she already is...Yeah, I like to be the one in the spotlight and I like to be popular...but sometimes I want to change things between us. I want to be a twin again, I want to be able to read her thoughts even if I can't see her face, I want to be the one, holding her on the bouncy castle...but now that she is acting like this... people might think I'm like her....a dyke. And...I now it sounds totally fucked up... but to me...it's important what people think of me...Think that's one of those things Emily and have still in common... but Emily, who might be even more scared of other opinions. ...well she is stronger..she gets over her fear...I won't accept her being gay...that's stupid...I'm not gay...so she's not gay!

"Common, stop crying now, red head, let's get you cleaned up and help the others..." Effy said softly. Emily looked up, her eyes red and puffy. "Why are you doing this? I thought you'd be Kati's new best friend...." Effy let out a little laugh "Yeah...well I decided that I like you more..." She grapped the red head's hand and lead her into the house. Naomi wasn't looking at them, but Kati seemed like she didn't know to look angry, confused, or worried. Effy saw the inner fight and smiled "She's okay..."

After the house was clean again, the group went home, everyone feeling completely unsure about the new situation. Effy decided to call Freddie, to talk. Thomas and Panda decided to tell Pandora's mum about the relationship, Naomi was really quiet and when Effy and Emily had come back from the bathroom she had excused herself and went home. The twins went home in silence.

Emily was scared, but she just fucking needed to know, needed to hear, that Naomi didn't liked her, that the kissed didn't meant anything to her. She took her mobile and texted: "Hey... I'd really liked 2 talk bout what happened..." When there came no answer she tried to call the blonde 2 hours later. But there came no answer. "Shit...I really fucked up...now she won't even want to be friends with me..." Emily thought and slowly the tears started to come down her face.

"You crying because of the lezza?" Kati asked, when she saw her sister on the bed. "Please Kati...just leave me alone... please, this shit is hard enough without you making me feel like crap!" Emily shouted, got up from the bed and run outside. Kati was surprised by this and hadn't even the chance to speak. Her sister actually had pleaded her...in her voice had been so much pain...and for the first time in month maybe years...Kati felt this pain, not really because she knew how it felt to be lovesick because of an other girl...but because Emily was her twin sister. "I'm sorry" she whispered, looking at an old picture of two smiling redheads, holding each other tight.

"Where r u?" Emily read, when she had finally calmed down. She was sitting at the edge of a pier, hiding at this secret little lake from all the pain and fear. The message was from Effy.

"I'm hiding...whatz up?" she wrote back.

"Stop hiding and come with Freddi n me - grap some coffee"

"K"

They met 30 minutes later at a little coffee house. Freddi and Effy were holding hands and even Emily was feeling like shit, she had to smile at that. There was still hope for her, right. There was more love around than you can see at the first sight. She had to laugh at herself. It amazed the red head, how good it felt to have Effy as a friend. The girl made her feel good... special, and showed more understanding than anyone ever had done. Freddi had to excuse himself because JJ had written him an sms...about him falling in love with Cook.

"So..." Emily started, not exactly knowing if she was allowed to ask about Effy's love life. "I like him, he likes me...let's see were it'll lead us..." Effy smiled. "Oh..." Was all what came into the red heads mind, because she could see a blonde girl walking past the, hands in hands with a boy, sitting at the table next to them. Effy followed her gaze and blinked. That even surprised her. She knew that Naomi was in denial but this... she had seen how Naomi was drawn to the other girl, she had seen how the girls smiled at each other times to times...and she never imagined such things, Effy Stonem didn't guess...she knew.

Emily was looking at her hands. "I think I should go home... doing some stuff for school..."

Effy nodded but smiled then and said "I also have to do the stuff for history... we could do it together." Emily agreed. She was so glad not to be alone with Kati, and of course Effy knew this.

When the girls entered the twin's room, Kati was sleeping on her sisters bed, holding an old picture of her and her sister. "Interesting..."Effy said, sitting down on Kati's bed. "Strange..." Emily said, sitting next to Effy. They watched the sleeping girl. "She looks more like you when she's not all bitchy, homophobic and popular...she looks more like your twin..." Effy said. Emily smiled "Yeah...she does." She looked at her sister, took a blanket and covered her sister.

"We can work down staires..." Emily said and lead the brunette into the living room. They worked for a while, reading a text about the seconde world war and writing the important facts down.

"I wrote Naomi...and I tried to call her..." the red head said, when they had finished. "No answer." Effy smiled softly at the red head. "It will need some time...just don't stop fighting... I gotta go... Freddi has called...date" They hugged each other and Emily went back into her room. She changed into some Pjs and went to bed, the crying had exhausted her.

In the middle of the night a familiar voice woke her up. "Move bitch, can't sleep in your bed." Emily did so and Kati lay next to her. "I'm sorry." Kati said and the twins went back to sleep, sharing a dream where everything was alright.

The next day, monday, they all met again in history. Emily and Kati doing this creepy I-know-what-my-sister-thinks-even-if-I-can't-see-her-face, Pandora chatting with...or better to Effy, who was secretly holding hands with Freddi, who had to smile at the blushing JJ has Cooks and touched the boy's tight. Naomi was sitting next to JJ, she seemed to listen to the teacher. She hadn't acknowledged Emily at all, just nodded at the boys, Effy and Pandora.

Emily couldn't deal with it anymore, she wanted to talk to this girl so badly. She would survive it, hearing Naomi saying that the drugs were to blame, that she had a boyfriend now or that she wanted to forget the kiss. But this, all the ignoring was too much, it hurt so damn bad and Emily felt the hole in her heart getting bigger and bigger. She needed to hear the girl's voice, to look into her eyes, to feel alive again.

"Write her a note" Kati whispered, she had noticed her sister starring at Naomi and even she didn't like it at all, it was a lot worse to see Emily suffer. "What?"

"Tell her you want to talk to her, after that you'll leave her alone..." The red heads looked at each other. "I can't...I can't leave her alone..."

Kati sighed "You'll have to give her some space...after you have talked to her." Finally Emily agreed and wrote a note, which she gave Pandora after the bell had rung. "Please give it to Naomi." Panda smiled and nodded. The next lesson, they had politics, Naomi got a piece of paper. She looked around the class, saw Kati starring at her, Emily looking at her hands, Effy looking like she just knew everything and the boys...well they looked like they knew nothing.

Naomi began to read:

"Please Naomi...talk with me...I need to know how you feel, I need to hear it! I like you...I really really do like you, but you can't play with my feelings like this. Let's meet after school... after you have spoken to me ...I'll leave you alone if you want me too! Emz"

Naomi looked up and her eyes met Emily's. She slowly shaked her head...and something inside of her broke when she saw Emily nearly breaking down at that moment. But she wasn't ready to face that girl that made her blush, horny, feeling safe and loved. Because these things...she didn't deserved. Her mother told her every day... and she knew...she'd hurt the red head, because she couldn't handle love...she didn't needed love.

Effy had noticed what was going on, got up and just grapped Emily's hand, while Freddi took Naomi. They ignored the teacher and went outside the class. "Thomas!" Freddie shouted.

"What the fuck are you doing?" Naomi shouted and tried to free herself from Freddie's grip. But shit, that boy was strong. Emily was too surprised and when she finally started to try to get out of Effy's hold, the girl pressed her against herself with an amazing strenght and whispered. "It'll be okay, trust me!"

"Fuck, Thomas!!" Freddi shouted one more time. His hand hurt, because Naomi had just tried to bite him. "Coming!" the dark skinned boy shouted and waved. The 3 friends nearly threw the two girls into an empty classroom and locked the door. "Guys! Guys, let me out of here! Right now...I'm gonna kill you!!! Once I'm prime minister...you'll suffer for this!!" Naomi cried and tried to open the door.

After 10 minutes Naomi sighed and placed her head against the door. "Did you set this up?" Naomi asked without even moving. Emily was scared to look into the other girl's angry face, so the floor became suddenly really interesting. „No..."the red head whispered. Her phone buzzed and a message from „Effy" showed up. „Talk- we won't let you out before you are kissing and got all lezzy!"

Emily smiled at that... "What's so funny" Naomi asked, her voice cold. The redhead read the message once more- loud. A big WTF was written above Naomi's head. "What the fuck!? Look...Emily, I'm not ready for this...I don't want to talk about what happened!"

"Why not?" Emily asked her.

"Because...look...If I said, I like you...you'd be hoping for more, if I said, i'd hate you, you'd cry, if I'd told you I love you...you'd get hurt. I mean...common, what do you see in me? Little stupid Naomi, wanting to make the world a little bit better, hated by her mother, left by her father, first time fucked by a boy she met at the coffee shop. Me, who judges books by their covers, me who is so different, me who is totally outcasted, me who your sister hates...."

"She doesn't hate you" Emily said. "She's just scared of new things..." Naomi laughed. "That doesn't make it better. Look Emz, I like the kiss....I really did... I'm not gay, I don't like you like that...and common, we are so fuckin different!"

"No we aren't! You like standing in the rain, I do too. You like bouncy castles...I do too. You like going for a ride by bike on nice warm days, I do too...You like being spontaneous...I do too. You like to say straight ahead what you think...and I...I like that about you, I like how you get all passionate about politics and history, how you talk, how you look, how you smile...You are you...and I like...I love that about you... but don't stop being you, because you are scared...I'm not gonna leave you..."

Emily had said this while she came closer to Naomi. Now she was standing in front of her, one step was between them. "You are so...fuckin...beautiful..." Emily whipsered and came closer. Inside of Naomi's haead, two voices were screaming. "Kiss her!"- "You aren't gay!"- "Kiss her!"- "You aren't gay!"- "Kiss her!"- "You aren't gay!"- "Kiss her!". But suddenly there was a third voice " You are not good enough for her, she'll see that and dump you...just like everyone you ever loved has!"

Naomi pulled away. "Stop it, Emily! How much do I have to hurt you so you finally believe me, I don't want to be with you!"

But now something in Emily had changed. The red head had seen the twist in the blue eyes, she loved so much. She had seen the confusion, the fear, but also the wanting! She grapped the blonde with a suprising strength and pressed her against a wall. Emily pressed her own body into the blonde. Breathing hard on her neck. "Emz, stop please, this is wrong... Oh my...fuck" Naomi moaned when Emily suddenly started to kiss her neck. "Does this feel so wrong?" the red head asked between the kisses. "Emz stop..."

"What?- This?" Emily asked and kissed the other girls cheek. "Or this?" her lips met the corner of the blonde's mouth.

"Naomi, how do you think about the word Naomily?"

"Naomily?" asked the blonde. Emily nodded. "Yes."

"uhm...I don't know, sounds ...special, why?"

"It would be our name."

"Name?" the blonde asked with a husky voice. In response the the red head nodded again.

When Emily leaned back and let go off Naomi, the blonde took a deep breath, she noticed that she had stopped breathing while Emilyhad been so close. Carefully she touched her skin where the red head's lips had touched her. She was amazed what this girl could do to her. Just a little touch and she could feel it everywhere. "Oh my god..." the blonde whispered, surprised, scared, desperate and lost.

She stood there and slowly sank down the wall. "Shit" she said and noticed to late that she did that a little bit to loud. Immediately Emily was kneeling in front of her. "Naomi, what's wrong? What happened?" she asked worried.

"How dare you to ask me that" hissed the other girl. "You just make me feel all this things."

Emily looked at the girl with wide eyes. Now she understood. Her face softened. "I know you are scared...but I'm not going to hurt you, I don't want to rip your heart apart and you know I'm not doing that." She softly kissed Naomi's forhead. "Does this hurt?"

"Ems stop" Naomi said, but her voice sounded weak. The red haired girl place a light kiss on the blond's nose. "Did that hurt?" she asked gentle.

"Do you know what you are doing?" Naomi whispered her lips just inches from Emily's away. "Do you?"

"No."

With that Naomi kissed the other girl very rough but still full of wanting, need and passion.

The kiss softened when Emily sat onto Naomis lap and took over the control of the kiss. "You feel so damn good" Emily nearly moaned those words. Naomi pulled the girl into an other kiss. When the red haired girl started to move her hand under the shirt of the blonde the door suddenly bursted open and Cook looked at them with wide eyes.

"I might be gay now...but, fuck, this is still turning me on....JJ we need to find a room." The boy with the curled hair blushed but followed his friend. Freddi just laughed and Effy also had to smile. Katie, Pandora and Thomas came and when they saw Emily sitting on Naomi they laughed. Their plan had worked.

There will be a part 2...reviews are always great ;)