Shadow Life
Rating: Mature
Couple: Ana/Christian
Summary: Ana gets kidnapped at 16 and is abused and hurt every day and she and Christian were best friends and he holds out hope that one day he will find her again. Six years later he is in the BDSM lifestyle and finds her when he is looking for a new sub. He instead shows her what real love is and helps her rebuild her life.
Shadow Life
Chapter 1
It was a hot summer day in Seattle and it was winding down to the last days before school started again at Washington State. I was getting ready to head to Bumbershoot at Seattle Center with a group of friends. It was our last big hangout session before we went our separate ways.
As I'm about to get in my BMW M3, I notice my next-door neighbor and best friend Anastasia "Ana" Steele. She been my best friend for the last few years. I just watch her she's beautiful but off limits you see I'm 21 and she's just 16, but we're best friends. Our families have known each other for years. We met when Ana was 11 and I was 16. I have always felt this pull to her, always very protective but not in an older brother way. She has always been, in my eyes, so small and fragile that I just wanted to protect her from the world.
I watch her as I climb into her car. I had asked to come along but she refused saying she would feel out of place with my school friends which she didn't know well. So, if I had known then that that would have been the last time I saw her.
I wake up in a cold sweat almost every night. I have had this dream every night for the last five years. I can remember the call I had gotten from my mother that told me Ana was missing. As it turns out, the reason she didn't go with me was because she had had a date with a boy, Jose, from her school but the date had gone south and he had left Ana stranded and she had forgotten her phone.
The next thing we know Ana is nowhere to be seen the police had questioned Jose but he said the last time he'd seen her, she was headed to the bus stop on 5th and Pike to catch the 101 out of downtown. They had had an argument and Ana walked off never to be seen again.
We spent weeks looking for her but to no avail. It's like she just disappeared off the face of the earth. Finally, the police decide that Ana is a runaway and resources dwindle in the search for her, but I know in my heart of hearts Ana did not runway, I can feel it in my bones and in my soul. My family and hers used our private funds to still search for her but even with private investigators we couldn't find a trace of her. But, after six years of hope and dead ends, we are no closer to finding her.
I saw what her missing has done to her mother Carla and stepfather Ray their hearts are broken. Carla used to be this bight woman the life of the party but when Ana went missing she lost her spark and her heart. They moved to Arizona right after the police declared Ana a runway. It was too painful to be around where Ana use to be for them. Ray got angry and standoffish and close himself off from everyone. His heart is torn in two with Ana missing.
I kept in touch with them for a while but after a while, it becomes too painful for all of us. I try to keep them updated on my search for Ana for a time but with no new leads, we no longer speak.
As for me; Ana had my heart. I created a wall no woman could penetrate. I began to use sex as a tool, not for love, my love was gone.
I think back to how I began in my lifestyle it had been three months after Ana's disappearance and I was spiraling and head down a road I had no clue how to stop going down the dark abyss. That is when I ran into a friend of my mother Elena Lincoln at a business function. It was a normal day I was 21 and Ana had been gone for so long I could no longer handle the pain of my heart being ripped out of my chest. Elena saw the pain I was in and reached out to me.
Elena came up to me that day at this dinner and said she had seen the pain in my eyes and she wanted to help and said she could help me channel my pain and anguish she quickly showed her darker side. She showed me what control BDSM could provide me it helped me channel my pain.
At first, I was Elena's sub as she taught me the ropes of the lifestyle she showed me how to get pleasure out of my pain she let me see how letting someone else be the master of me helps me forget everything. I was under Elena's teaching for a year and then I went out on my own.
Although I chose women, that looked like my Ana it was never the same never her sweet voice was not her voice saying my name when "she" came. I would set up contracts with myself and my subs for 3 month periods so I would not get attached. They were there for an allotted period and nothing more. I would not get attached and neither would they.
Also, to focus my pain and heartbreak I also created Grey Enterprises Holdings a business that focuses on systems development, communication technology, and sustainable energy and is a global leader in communications technologies, eco manufacturing, and next generation farming solutions. I am also with billions and employ thousands of people but there is still a gaping hole in my heart and soul and it is in the shape of Ana.
I was ruthless in business no one messed with me I always seemed to get what I wanted and when it came to social events or business functions I would go alone no one not even my family knew of my activities in my private life.
I was headed to a private function to find a new sub I used a service the Lovely Lady which is a company that Elena runs she's been out of the lifestyle for a while I have been without a sub for a few months because business and the search for Ana has taken over my life.
I need to let loose so I was headed to the mixer at Lovely Lady it was a function for Dominates and Submissive I arrive and the party is in full swing Elena comes up to me we exchange pleasantries then I notice a woman I've never seen at these events. All I can see her is her from the back she has a slim build, skinny, chestnut colored hair she reminds so much of Ana that my heart leaps into my throat. It's like I'm seeing a ghost I've dreamed about seeing her for all these years.
Without even thinking or having control over my body or senses I feel a pull to this mystery women like our hearts are connected. I walk up and tap her on the shoulder as she turns around I am in complete shock there she is my Ana. Without a second thought, I was like this woman realized who I was and crushed herself into my hard body without thinking I embraced her holding on to her like my life depended on it.