I bleed

Varley990, RedStar

Summery: I found the poem I beeld some where I looked and looked and looked but coiuld not find who wrote it (If you know pleaase tell me I wanna read more by them) and I COULD NOT get it out of my head. Well this is the outcome If you are the person who wrote this and want me to take the poem oput I will. Everyone else enjoy.

I wanna think who ever wrote the poem I bleed, it's beautiful and inspired me, thank you.

Disclaimer: Just incase you didn't catch it, I dont own the poem I bleed. I also do not own Instant Star, nor any of it's chartercers (sp?). I would like it if Tim would own me. Oh the things I could do to that man.

ALSO:Long live Tim'sWhores Ya'll girls are like my sisters! Thanks. I'm soo soo lucky to have found ya'll. And to the future Whorettes---- I cant wait to meet you! I hope we can all be just aas close!

--- Red out

I breath in the musty air. the room around me is dark, the few lights are so weak they do little to fight off the shadows. I push deeper .

Blood.

I hear footsteps. Coming closer a vistor to my prison. A Savior I hope. Still I push deeper.

My blood

I hear the door open, lght spills in, I raise my arm to shild my eyes and red drops rain in front of my face.

My life's essesce is seeping away

She walks towards me. My gaze slides from her, my angel, come to save me at last; to the ever growing puddle on the floor. Shame rushed though me, tears slide down my face.

Filling the puddle on the floor

She stops just byond my reach. She stares at me her face soft with pity. I reach out toward her,

The Knife drops to the floor.

We both stare down at it. Little red dots litter the edge. I look up to her face, to beg her for help. But the expression on her face stops me cold.

You turn around.

Her eyes catch mine and she shakes her head. She starts to back away from me, towards the door. There she gose leaving me to my prison.

Walking out with out helping.

She never even looks back. I watch her retreat. As the door shuts, my cobalt gaze drops.

I smile looking at the knife.

I pick it up and begin to draw out little red symbols of Pain.With each cut more pain. All that I am unable to handel.

You sold me out.

Slice after slice but now there is no reliefe. She has stolen even that from me. My mind starts to wonder. How did she find me.

You proved how much I ment.

If she loved me she would have stayed. would have helped me, would have SAVED me. She doesn't love me, only the ideal of me. What she wanted me to be. Like all the others before her, she is no different.

I smile harder.

I dont need her. I dont need any of them. I am fine alone. No one to remind me of my mistakes, no one to try and chage me. I need no one. Especalliy not HER!!

I knew it would come to this.

They all have left me before, why should she be any different. and then maybe I pushed them all away. My mind starts to slow. I feel ... different.

This will be the last time.

I feel cold. it creeps up my body and leaves me paralized. And I, I am too tired to fight it. I've fought to long. The lights around me fade. Total darkness.

Never again will you have my back.

Well What do Ya'll think? Ya'll like it? I do, but I wanna know what Ya'll think. So please tell me. This is the darkest fic I've ever written. So I wouild really really love some feed back, and yes I'm begging!! Love Red!