Heeeello there!

So, lately I've been reading a-million-and-one Fruits Basket fanfiction thingers... and got this not-so-fantastical idea for one I could write.

It's written from Kyo's point of view and is a short little thing about freedom. It's supposed to be Kyo/Haru, but there's only one of two tiny mentions of it. It could be easily ignored, :)

As usual, huge hug to Alyssa (ApplePieeLovver‏) for zee edits and for being an awesome friend person.

Disclaimer: I could put something smart and witty here about how I DO NOT IN ANY WAY SHAPE OR FORM OWN FURUBA... but, frankly, I'm really sick and waay too tired to bother.

Enjoy:

You know when you say one word so many times that it loses all meaning? That it sounds strange, and makes you wonder why the word and the definition connect?

Freedom.

Freedom-freedom-freedom-freedom-freedom-freedom-freedom-freedom-freedom-freedom. Free. Free. Free. Free. Free. Free. Free. Free.

To be free.

We will never be able to live our own lives. The Sohma curse governs all of our choices and decisions. It rules us so much that it really has become our lives.

Our transformations make it next to impossible to have real relationships outside of the family and relationships within it do not last long. Akito see to that.

Akito is right though; why should I lead Haru on? I don't have that right. At 18, I'll be confined and Haru will be left on his own. It's better that we didn't get too deep or too far in. It could never work, so it's better that we don't try. Yet again, the Sohma curse destroys all hope of a normal life, of friends, and of love. We don't deserve it. I, most of all, don't deserve it.

And the stupid ox had finally gotten over Yuki, too.

Not that the situation is bothering me. Not at all.

This is the way it has to be.

Even those of us who try to run away, to escape, don't get far. Just take a look at Shigure and rest of us who use his house as a safe haven; we still participate in family events, we still talk to them and we are still a part of that retarded little group of zodiac animals. Except for me, of course. I'm cursed too, but I'm not the same as them. I'm not a part of the group. The little club. They have each other to turn to when living with the curse brings them trouble. When they feel lonely.

But I've got myself. I've got myself and Sensei, and training. That's all I really want and need.

I don't need some one to run to, and I definitely don't want that stupid ox.

They let me go where I want. I can disappear. I can go train in the mountains for weeks, and they don't care. They know I'll come back. That I have to come back.

Freedom is an illusion when you are a Sohma. A pretty dream, a childish fantasy. A word with no meaning.

Freedom. Free.

What I want is...

I want... to be free.

Tell me what you think. I know it's short, and could be considered OOC ... but I got to thinking, even really angry people (such as Kyo) have to have moments where their anger dissipates and all their left with is a feeling of sadness and loneliness.