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PS: This is a modification of an old story.
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I look at the ceiling. Up and down, again and again. A whimper escape from my throat. He just moaned and thrust faster. I feel my lower back tears up. Crap its hurts. I bit my lower-lip and closed my eyes. They are wet. Stupid body. I start thinking about brewing. Not the wolfban'one, too easy. I need to find something more difficult. Something which keep me from being here, with him. The lovemaker. There is a good one. Ironic but good. I never actually brew this. It is for people who have love in their lives. Not for me. He catch my tights and spread them wider. For a second, he slow down and I closed my eye tighter. A line appears between my eyebrow and my whole body tensed. That's just made the thing more painful but I can't help with it.
- Relax Snape.
His voice is husky. It scratch my spine. I made a conscientious effort for opening my ass for him. I took some calming breath and tried to remember how many turn are needed for the lovemaker potion. Three? More? Five, it's five. He put his hands on my hips, squeezing my bruises and brutally rap my body against his. I need to grab the table. Each movement made him moaned. I heard the blood running from my arse splashing on the floor. I'll clean after. Eventually, he climax and collapse on me. I can't breathe but I don't move. My fingers curls in fist and I keep them on the table. I just want him to go. Let me clean the kitchen, and cure myself. Let me time to recover.
- Harry…
My own voice are frail. I hate this. I hate what he have done to me. He gets up on his elbow.
- It was good. Wasn't it?
He pet me. I try to look away but he take my chin between his fingers and kiss me. I open my jaw and let his tongue dig into my throat. He love that. After hurting me, he loves playing this weird game. The love game.
- We need prepare Harry.
Now he smiles. Oh God his smiles are so beautiful, like the sun. Warm, light, comforting. I close my eyes quickly. It's the worst part of the game. He made me some butterfly kisses and put one hand on my swollen belly. His waves are cautious, almost tender. I need to remember that's just a game. Then he goes. I throw a healing spell for stopping the bleeding. The pain is still here but the flow on my leg had stop. I clean the floor. The blood need to be remove before it's gets dry. When the taint is gone I go to the bathroom. I use a raw soap and rub my corpse. I stem when the water in the bathtub turn pink. They are some little wounds inside my tight. I sink my head under the water and wait until my sob quit.
Later I go the master bedroom. It is not really my bedroom. I'm not allowed to sleep there. I sleep in the kitchen but the cupboard is in the bedroom. I doesn't have choice. I need to dress up. When I come in, I saw him on the bed, he wore a white shirt and a brown trouser. His robe lay next to him on the mattress, brown with some subtle golden embroidery. I open the wardrobe and put my hand on a classic black robe
- No.
- His voice is harsh. I slid my hand on another robe, a green one.
- Can you please try not to put more shame on me?
I pinch my lips. I don't have many robes and he had choose all of them. I take the blue robe. It is the first he had bought for me. Simple but nice.
- What did I expect? Whatever you put on your horrid body you still be ugly. Isn't you?
- I don't know why but I put my hand on my belly. I'm six month pregnant, I can't hide this with my hands.
- It was a question Snape.
- Yes.
I doesn't need to think about it. I'm ugly, I know.
- Yes what?
- Yes Harry I'll still be ugly.
I look at him. His sight is cold but I can see the sad light in those green eyes. He is miserable, like me. I lower my head when I heard a cry, a baby cry. It is James. I want to run by him but he grab my arm. Don't know how he manage to be next to me so fast.
- Ask me.
I turn myself in front of him.
- Please Harry let me go.
- No
James is still crying. I go on my knees and plea.
- Please Harry please, let me see him.
He look at me with disgust. Then he clutch my hair and force me to lift up.
- I'll go.
- Please, let me take care of this. I promise, Harry I will calm him. Please…
He strangle me with one hand. I can't talk anymore so I stop babbling. When I'm still, he mutter on my ear.
- Calm dawn Severus I'll not hurting him.
He said so the last time. I start shaking. One moment later, the cry stop. I listen carefully but I can't heard a noise. The house is peaceful. My heart pounds hard. Then a scream. A very shrill one and I run to the nursery.
James is laughing. One of his tiny hand on his father nose and the other in his mouth. He's happy and when he see me he start clapping his hand.
- Paaa…
- Oh yes James, Papa is here! Say it: paaapaa, said Harry.
- Paaa…
They have the same smile.
- Papa is worried about you. You want to kiss him?
He approach the baby who tend his arm toward me. I kiss him but don't take him. James made some whimper to point his disagreement.
- Paaa.
- You want to be with your papa, don't you?
- His tone is flat but he clench is jaw. The baby start crying again and he gave him to me without a sight. The baby stop at the minute I touch him and he slam the door.
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- It was an accident, said Harry.
Severus don't look at Harry. He just walk to the burrows
- One year's babies doesn't broke their legs themselves, he reply.
- It was an accident Severus. I will never hurt someone on purpose.
The statement was funny. He had several wounds and bruises which prove this false. But for Harry, he was not someone, he was less than a thing.
- You already did.
Harry grab his wrist and turn it in a strange angle. Severus had to breathe his pain before talking.
- Harry stop, someone could see us.
- And what?
He was searching for an appropriate answer when a man show up next to them.
- Harry, Severus. Is everything okay?
He released his hand.
- Yes mate!
Harry had a quick reply but Ron keep looking after Severus. Snape pull his sleeve on his swollen wrist with his other hand.
- Severus you're okay?
- I'm fine.
Ron just shook his head.
- Poppy want to see you. I think it's about the potions she need.
- I can't brew when I'm pregnant.
- And now you pregnant all the time, aren't you?
- Ron, said Harry.
It was a warming. Some subjects was forbidden. The fact that he had been through four pregnancy the last two year was one of them. For pregnancy but two miscarriage. Severus look at his husband. Harry nod and he go.
- Where is James? Ask Ron.
- Whiny take care of him.
- You elf-house? You left him with your elf-house instead of his family!
- I can't bring him here.
- Oh my god Harry! It's killing Molly, you know that!
- I can't let him see me the way that all of you saw me.
- You are so crazy!
- Stop it Ron or I'll take my husband and we'll go away.
Ron looked puzzled.
- Harry I can't understand why you keep doing this kind of thing.
- However it's obvious.
- What is obvious is that he is nothing but a dedicated husband and father.
- I know that! Since he got pregnant he became the victim and me the tormentor.
- He didn't made this on purpose! Yelled Ron.
- He could have an abortion.
- Harry listen to you! You're talking about your own son!
- Don't mix thing. I love James but I would have prefer if he have been Ginny's child.
- He's Snape's child! He had his eyes, his hair and even his pale skin.
- He ruined my life.
Ron grip his shoulder and shake him.
- Harry you have a beautiful boy, another child on the way and a husband who loves you even if he had no reason to! Your life is not ruined!
- I hate him Ron. He forced me to break my engagement with the women I love and marry him.
- Harry It was not his fault. It's a law. A stupid one but a law.
- I beg him to have an abortion and he said no.
This time Ron took his head in his hand and look at him in the eyes.
- Harry please listen to me very carefully. YOU had sex with a man while you were engaged to my sister. YOU have decided to seduce him because you find out that he was a virgin. And YOU have got him pregnant. If someone had ruined your life it's not him. YOU have done this to yourself!
Harry step back.
- Ron I just wanted to try everything before I get wed
- I'm married and I never wanted to have sex with a man.
Harry fold his arms on his chest.
- Okay, maybe your wright. Maybe I'm gay.
- Maybe?
- But… not with him. HE was an accident.
- Perhaps you're right, Harry. We will see.
- See what?
- His friend had a strange sight. Sad and guilt. Harry run to the burrows. He had a horrible premonitions.
Without using his wand he blow up the front door and rush inside the kitchen. Nothing. Nobody. He try the living room then the first floor but the entire house was empty. He was gone. He feel his heart broking and that took his breath away. He forced himself to take a deep breath in order to stop the sob. Then quietly he goes down the stairs. Ron was in the living room.
- I'm so sorry Harry
- James?
- Whiny had bringing him here immediately after you left the house.
- I understand now why the elves-house needs to be slaves.
- You don't get the point Harry, do you?
- That my best friend and those who I used to call my family just betrayed me.
- No that we just save your family, Harry.
- For how long he had plan that.
- Mione try to convince him since he had his first miscarriage.
- It was an accident.
Ron lain against the wall.
- His pelvis was broken and his sex was so damaged than Poppy think he could never have an erection again.
- Don't worry, he still can.
- Do you know what he told us?
- That I hit him?
- That he had fall down the stairs. Harry he had not planned this. It's Hermione and I. The others just help us.
- So you taking him without his consent?
- You have harm your own child! What do you think he would do?
Harry let his body fall in the armchair and can't help but screaming.
- It was an accident!
He hide his face in his large hands and start crying.
- It was an accident. I will never hurt James on purpose, he repeated.
- An accident like those his father keep having?
Harry bring his hand to his mouth and deaden his scream.
- Ron you have to believe me on this, it was an accident.
His voice sound desperate. Ron put one hand on his back, then carefully he wrapped his both arms around him.
- I believe you Harry.
- Do you?
- Yah I do.
- But still you stole my family.
- I'm sorry. It's safer like this.
- It's a girl.
- I know
- Will I see her? Will I see my daughter?
- I'm sorry Harry.
He push his friend then disparate. Ron look at the empty chair and cry.
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Please tell me if you can undertsand this text... It is my first story in english. I don't know I have try this because I'm not even good in english! If it isn't good enough I just translate it in french. Thanks you.