Hope you enjoy this. it´s a short chapter, but if you like it, hopefully I will write some more. Please leave a comment!
(English is not my first language, so please be nice ;) )
Sometimes he feel like he is trapped inside his own body. He dosen´t know what to say or how to behave. With a room full of people he feels alone and awkward. Everything is just too much. Even if he knows some of the people, its just too much. He can´t stand it. He just want to be alone. In silence and peace in his own home.
He likes being alone. He likes the feeling of complete control. But he knows that the world expect him to act differently. He has to go to school and be around other people all day. It is exhausting to live through a day when all you want to do is go home and be alone. To surround your self with the things you love and control. To feel safe and to have peace in you mind.
«I´m never going to get a boyfriend,» Kurt says to himself.
Well, that´s the other «thing». Kurt is gay. He is a 16 year old, gay, boy who lives with his dad in Lima, Ohio. He does not have any close friends, he is afraid to let them in. They could brake the walls and the safe place he has created for himself. Of course he speaks with a few of his classmates, but that is just superficial stuff and rarely anything personal.
Nobody knows Kurt. Except for his dad maybe. The other kids at school probably thinks Kurt is a freak. They know he is gay. Everybody knows that, or at least that is what they assume, even though Kurt has not told anyone except his dad.
Kurt likes to be alone, away from the looks and noise and the expectations of the outside world. But sometimes…sometimes it just gets lonely.