Chapter 1
Okay where to start. Um... I think I should start with the basics of my life so far. Well My name is Clarissa Fray and my dad's name is Valentine my Mother's name is Jocyln and her Husbands name is Luke. I know what your all thinking that it was a big messy break up and they all hate each other and so on but that's not it Valentine only hates me blames me for the whole thing because even though he is friends with both My mam and step dad he is still in love with Jocyln. My mother obviously doesn't know of his hatred for me but I can deal with it so it doesn't matter if she did anyway. I have a brother named Jonathan who is in the year above me and he is an amazing brother. He looks just like our farther but has the beautiful green eyes of my Mother like me. I have fiery red hair which lead to the annoying nick name Jonathan's best friend Jace Herondale gave me.
Speaking of Jace he is the start of all my problems. He may not have meant to start so many, many problems and I can forgive him obviously I don't really want to hold a grunge against him even though I have never had much of a problem in the past because we never exactly got along. I would always make jokes about him being a man whore which he totally acted like I mean one day I actually caught him with three different people and I just didn't understand how he managed it or why people would want to be with a player like him. I mean sure he looks like a Greek god with his golden eyes, golden hair and beautifully sculpted body and even though he smelled like sunshine he was a total pain in the but and to hard to put up with sometimes. But then again he would have his sweet moments were he could be just as protective as Jon like when he beat up my ex boyfriend Sebastian after he told the whole school I slept with him even though I had only went out with on the date because my friend Izzy forced me to. Something about him just always screamed off to me and I was proven right the next day when the rumours started flying.
Anyway all this is heading somewhere I promise. So anyway I am 17 and in High school my brother is in the year above and this is his and Jace's last year of school so they had a massive party and the beginning of the year to celebrate, but a lot of people showed up from all different years including myself. I'm not normally a drinker but that night I was because I had been dragged there by Izzy and Simon who had then both ditched me at the drink table so the could dance together. I'm not trying to sound bitter or anything because I love those two together they have to be the cutest couple ever but I still don't appreciate being dragged to then ditched at a party were I could actually see the sluts throwing themselves at my brother which is just something you don't want to watch. He didn't know I was going that night and didn't figure out I actually went there because I made sure to always stay out of his eye sight and if any of his friends saw me they were to drunk to remember the next day so I was safe and under the pretext that I was sleeping over at Izzy's so no family members would be trying to hunt me down.
I don't know how many drinks I had but I was a little tipsy and felt a buzz by the time I finally left the drink table to dance. Then on the dance floor some weird yet wonderful things occurred that totally changed everything for me and even though I wouldn't take it back some of the things that happened were pure crap. Anyway whilst I was dancing someone that I hadn't seen all night danced his way over to me and I groaned on the inside prepared to be scolded. " Hey Red, what are you doing here?" he said. Colour me surprised when I heard that, were was the usual scolding for being out and partying? Oh well I wasn't going to get complain when I can have a good time even if I lost my friends as soon as they got a drink in them.
"Partying. What does it look like?" I say my voice flat not wanting to continue the conversation.
" It looks like you need another drink. Want one?" he said with a little smirk spreading across his face.
I swear if my eyes could have they would have popped out of my eyes. They both hated me drinking what the hell! I just nodded my head taking advantage of the opportunity to drink I mean what teenager wouldn't even if I wasn't a big drinker. Jace came back with drinks and we danced for a long while him refilling his drink once empty but I only had the one taking sips occasionally. then before I knew what was happening he was taking me away from the dance floor and leading me upstairs. I followed with no questions not really caring as I could feel the buzz coursing through my body but clearly not as much as Jace. We made it into a room and before the door was even closed his lips were on mine and his tongue was licking my bottom lip begging me for more and I happily gave it to him. We flopped down onto the bed both our hands travelling all over each others bodies savouring each feel. He slipped his hand under my top quickly gliding it of my body and throwing it of the floor. His shortly was it this was going to be my first time and as it continued I found I wasn't scared I was actually quite exited.
A while later when we were done I felt like I was floating but then I turned and caught a glimpse of the clock seeing hours had passed and it was almost time for me to leave like I had planned with Izzy. I quickly gathered my clothes putting them back on about to turn and say goodbye to Jace when I realised he was asleep. Oh well. I raced down stairs and out the door going and waiting by the car for Simon and Izzy to return. Simon had been the designated driver and you can tell by the state of Izzy when she came out the door 10 minutes later she had took full advantage of the drinks on offer. Or she could have just had some on Magnus's moonshine that always makes people forget the next whole party the next day. I had stayed clear of it like every time. I had tried it once when I had been Visiting Alec Izzy's brother with her and Mags had been there but god did it taste vile I have no idea how most of our school found it drinkable including Izzy.
Simon opened the car and took us all back to Izzy's house so we could go to sleep. By the time we got home it was around three in the morning and I could barely keep my eyes open same for Izzy. When we got out the car Simon just picked Izzy up saving her from most likely falling in her high, high heels. I don't know why she wears them honestly she is tall enough as she is. We all got to Izzy's room and managed to change before falling dead on her bed Simon on the Floor with the inflatable matrice.
I fell asleep wondering how things were going to be tomorrow and if Jace would tell Jon, if he is smart he wont but I know him well enough he tells Jon everything. That's how they both found out they were sleeping with Seelie and she had cheated on them both because some how she managed to get both school players to settle down for a little while but she screwed it up and to be honest I think Jon was kind of relieved, I think he only went out with her because she was an easy lay then she just clung on for dear life so he couldn't get away. Same goes for Jace actually.
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Then the next morning when I woke up and went home I walked into my worst nightmare Jace telling Jon how he got some last night but instead of looking guilty and regretful like I imagined, he was boasting. That shouldn't be a good thing that you slept with his sister moron. I had to face it anyway so I walked in the kitchen hearing their conversation.
" Yeah I just wish I could remember it though by the look of her it must have been pretty awesome." I stop my walking totally confused if he can't remember then how the hell did he see me I left before he woke up.
" Who was it, do I know her?" Jon asked clearly already caught up in the gossip. I refrain from say that he actual shares the same DNA as the person.
" Yeah you know her. She's in our English Class you know Anna with the bright red hair." he states and it was like a soccer punch to the gut. He was with someone else on the same night he was with me. OMG I new it was a mistake but I couldn't help but get caught up in it because let's face it he is so dreamy and now it feels like he just stamped on my heart. What a fricken Jerk!
"No way I can't believe you were with her she doesn't do stuff like that. I mean she wouldn't even go on a date with me and I mean look at me." He said gesturing at himself like he was magnificent and I can help the snort and eye roll, it's like a second nature. Jon's eyes immediately travel to me now that he realises that I am here and he just smirks at me and gestures again and again I roll my eyes walking past him to the fridge hitting him on the back of the head which made me feel so much better. I just shouldn't let on anything they don't need to know what else happened last night but it looks like Jace was trying to score with as many red heads as possible. Ugh!
"Still I can't believe you don't remember I never forget no matter how drunk I am. How much did you have to drink anyway?"
"I can't remember I remember Magnus coming out with a new batch of his Moonshine then nothing." he sighed
Jon laughed because we all knew once you had some of Mag's brew you are a goner and those memories are never coming back. As well as you can't be responsible for your actions after you have taken it so I guess I can't hold that big of a grudge against him and it would look kind of suspicious if I was all of a sudden not talking to him, I mean I can't let anyone find out about that night it will be locked away forever in my mind for only me to know about. If Jace can sleep with two girls in one night I can keep the secret to myself so there. Done and Dusted.
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Only it wasn't done and dusted because about a month later I got up in the morning running straight to the bathroom and threw up in the toilet trying to drag my hair back before it got any sick on it. It didn't work well not with my hair being so wild. I stayed of school that day my stomach churning at the smell of the greasy food my brother brought home and I threw up again. This happened all week and my mam started to get worried. So she took me to the doctors on the Friday so I could be checked out. Hours later after waiting the doctor had come out and started asking me loads of questions. Soon she came to the conclusion that was already attacking my brain. I was Pregnant.
To say my mother was upset was an understatement. She burst into tears straight away. I felt so bad as I looked into her eyes and saw the disappointment there. We got home and I refused to talk. She asked who the father was and I refused to tell. Jace had a good future ahead of him as the best quarterback the school had ever scene before, I wasn't going to ruin it. But this just made mam furious and she told Luke as soon as he walk through the door. But to my horror Luke wasn't alone just behind him were both Jon and Jace and they both look liked they had just been slapped out of the blue. My cheeks turned red as they just wandered in the room all four of them standing in front of me; whilst I sat comfortably on the couch with my knees and arms crossed. Luke, Jon and Jace stared at me with wide eyes as my mam ranted and ranted, irresponsible this and irresponsible that. Ugh I get it I screwed up. They all asked again who that dad was at the same time and I found that rather creepy god it was like they turned into one person. But yet again I refused to tell then Jon started yelling and threatening saying I was going to be locked up and whoever's kid it was, was gonna have to make a run for it because and I quote " I will surgically remove that dick head's balls" god! they tried every approach they could, being nice, understanding, compassionate, sad and enraged but I wouldn't talk. I would just shake my head no. I found it oh so funny though that Jace was trying to find out just as much as the rest of them and had to bite my lip to detain the smile that was there. Trust me buddy you do not want to know about it.
They ask other questions like if I had a boyfriend and when I could have possibly have met someone and when I could have possible have done that with someone. They went on and on and all I did was sit and stare at them not giving anything away. I've been told I have a great poker face at times. They threatened to call Valentine more times than I can count and I honestly could have cared less he hates me anyway what could I possibly care if he found out. Me being totally indifferent to Valentine knowing confused them but they still had a lot of anger and disappointment to let out so they continued with the questions and everything. At one point I fell asleep only to be awakened again by my mother who just yelled some more. When everyone finally gave up I just stood and went to my room my head swimming with everything they said about finance for the baby and crap and I just started to cry. Not load at all just silent tears falling down my face as I finally had a chance to think about what this baby will mean to me. I cry and cry and once it's out my system I start to plan how I will do this. I am going to find a job and save for the next 8 month or so so I can start to afford the baby items I will need. I'm sure my parents will try and help when they get over the shock but it is my baby I have to care for it otherwise they might make me give it up and I can't do that. No I will survive this with or without a daddy for my baby. Jace doesn't need to know and the rest of my family doesn't need to know it is Jace's.