"When you're quiet, but your eyes
Are saying everything I need to know
I want to burrow like a sparrow
Dodging alley cats and whiskers
Why do we talk in whispers?
Is it painful hearing voices ring
So early in the morning?
I've been waiting for the day
When I can throw away these numbers
That line my dresser drawers and cupboards
Start me over
Life seems so much slower
With your toothbrush by the mirror
Can I make it any clearer?
And I just might say it tonight
I just might say it tonight
I just might tell you tonight
That I love you
And you should stay all my life
They'll tell you that you'll maybe make it
If you just cut your clothes and change your hair
But I won't fuss and moan
'bout what you wear
I feel so much better
When I read your dirty letters
Just wear your sweaters in the winter
'Cause I wonuldn't want you to get cold
I hope that we're together when we're old
I would have sold all my possessions
Never took piano lessons
But baby you're a grand
And I will learn to play the good notes
And tune you up the best I can
And I just might say it tonight
I just might say it tonight
I just might tell you tonight
That I love you
And you should stay all my life."
Might Tell You Tonight - Chapter 1 - I'm Not Perfect - A Darren Shan Sage/Cirque Du Freak FanFiction
Darren's point of view
"Steve!" I ran down the steps in front of the school to catch up with my best friend. You see, Steve and I had been best friends for as long as I can remember. It started with him beating up some kid who was trying to steal something from me. Everyone thought we were inseparable from that day on. When he turned around, a warm smile touched his lips. It seemed like I was the only one who got that smile of his. It just encouraged my next statement.
"Wanna hang out at my house today? You can stay over all weekend." I usually let him stay at my house over the weekends. He and his mother didn't get along. I never really tried to push him into explaining further than the fact that she was drunk. I simply tried to comfort him in the only way I knew how. Being there for him and letting him get away from his hell hole of a home.
"Sure!" He said. It was obvious how excited he was. Steve might have been an impassive badass towards most of the school, but he was a funny and usually sweet guy around me. It was almost comical how different he was in two different situations. I stopped by the corner, one direction leading to my house, the other, his.
"Come on over at 6? We'll have dinner ready then." I couldn't stop the soft smile that was tracing my lips. He nodded at my offer and then we both set out in the direction of our own home.
Steve's point of view
I walked in the front door of my house only to be greeted with the familiar scent of alcohol. It's sickening. I scrunch up my nose in disgust. What idiot did my mother bring home tonight? Maybe it was a Mark or a David. Perhaps it was a Nick. Who knows? I sure as hell didn't. Luckily, I get to go to Darren's house this weekend. This means I get to have an entire weekend free from my mom and her endless list of boy toys. It was almost like heaven was served to me on a platter. In no time, I was up the stairs, packing my bag, and back out front. Packing never really took long. Hopping on my bike, I started down the street to Darren's. Second right, first left, third house on the right. The directions were engraved into my mind.
I couldn't stop the smile on my lips as I found myself standing on the doorstep. Knocking, I waited in the silence that follow. It wasn't even a minute later that Darren h=opened the door and nearly yanked me inside. I'm not sure if it was just my imagination or not, but I could have sworn that Darren was getting more... Needy towards having me around. I'm not sure why though. Maybe he was just nervous about going to the Cirque Du Freak later in the week.
I put on my sweetest smile as I walked into the kitchen. I knew Darren's parents weren't too fond of me, but they were warming up to me. Each time I came to visit, they would act more and more like they could tolerate me. Perhaps they would actually like me one day. Only time would tell.
"Oh, Steve. It's great to see you, darling." Mrs. Shan said.
"You too, Mrs. Shan." I said in the friendliest tone I knew of.
"We're having steak for dinner." Darren said as he led me to the dining room. We all found a seat around the table. Annie was at one end, followed by Darren, me, Mrs. Shan on the other end, and then Mr. Shan opposite from me. We ate dinner at a reasonable pace, every now and then starting up a pointless bit of small talk. I actually preferred it this way though. It left me in the clear from having to say anything that could potently rip apart everything I've worked for to try and get Darren's parents to accept me. After all, there would be no way to break what happens tonight to them if it's not just me.
As we all finished up dinner, I thanked Mr. and Mrs. Shan for having me over and for the wonderful meal before trotting up the stairs with Darren. We got into his room and started doing what we always did whenever we were at his house. We read some comics, played some video games, ate junk food, read some more comics and played even more video games. It was as we were reading comics that I decided to do soemthing. Darren was sitting on his bed reading the latest vampire comic, completely oblivious to the world as I placed my comic on the desk on the opposite side of the room. I stayed deathly silent as I walked towards him and sat at the foot of the bed. "Hey, Darren?" My nerves started to get worked up. Darren looked over the top of his comic and simply quirked a brow as response.
I took this as my que. I didn't even give him a chance to react before I captured his soft, pink lips with my own.
Darren's point of view
My mind went blank as a soft, warm pair of lips captured mine. Wait. Lips? There was only one other person in the room with me, but it coldn't be him... Could it? Suddenly, everythign fell into place. Steve was kissing in my room. It took me a moment to react. Shoving my hands into his shoulders, I shoved him off of me and put on what could have only been a shocked expression. "What the hell was that Steve?" I practically yelled. Almost instantly, I regreted it. Almost. Steve had already found his way to lean against my bedroom door with a guily expression plastered across his face.
"I can honestly explain." He said in a guilt ridden tone.
"Explain away Steve. I'd sure as hell like to know why you just kissed me." I replied in a snappy voice.
Steve rolled his eyes dispite his guilt before launching into an explaination. "Darren, I've always loved you. Yes, I know I act like a badass and everything including a chick magnet, but I really only want you. I know that's not something you want to hear, but I just had to say it and I knew that if I didn't kiss you the way I did, I probably wouldn't have ever gotten the chance..." His voice trailed off as he waited for me to respond.
I don't know what I was thinking, but I didn't hesitate to respond. " Just shut up and kiss me again."
A/N: Ah, yes. I state again that I'm not comfortable with my writing style. I love my plots, I just don't love my writign. I will always dislike the way I write, but whatever. I would also like to apologize for typoes. I don't have a good spell check or anything like this on my dinosaur computer. . And I know this song doesn't really fit the chapter, btu I was looking for hours and couldn't find one I liked for it since I wrote it without basing it froma song though this whole thing is based off a song. Send me some love/thoughts/messages/reviews of the story. Let me hear your opinions and what not and it just may effect the plot line later on. We will see. Send Steve and Darren some love because you know you want to ;D And they'll die if you dont.