Today was probably the worst day in the world. First, Lauren and her clone Jessica called me an anorexic emo child which just leaded to me kicking her effin ass. Even though it was true. I am anorexic. And im not emo!.... just… emotionally disturbed and… OK FINE IM EMO! Grrrr. The reason I don't refer to myself, or like to is because most people think that emo people are cutters and suicidal. Im not a cutter or suicidal. Just a plain emo. Marvelous
Second, I had to sit through lunch watching people eat. I know your probably thinking 'then why not eat?' but it all started with my parents calling me fat. I was overweight but my mom knew I was sensitive to people teasing me already. Lauren and the rest of the schools plastic freaks would make fun of me. I spiraled into a long depression. After therapy for 3 months they let me out. I wasn't fully recovered but turned emo.
Third, I came home to my mom saying to me that they were sending me to a rehab for people like me and just people with issues. This is full of bull.
Im going to Washington tomorrow. I began to pack my suitcase and I had an early shipping of XXS clothes from hot topic coming very early in the morning. That's another thing I forgot to mention. I hate to sleep.
My record for the longest sleep was 3 months. So I ask for everything to ship early or I get impatient. I put all my ear rings and my gauges for my cartilage in a bag. I put in my blue gauge for my cartilage, my dark blue earrings and my dark purple earrings right above the blue. Together I have 5 pircings. I stayed packing making sure I brought all my clothes considering im going to be there for a year or two. Fabulous.
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3 hours later
I got my hot topic back filled with a supply of skinny jeans, t shirts, and accessories. I put all of this into 4 suit cases (one bag was for shoes). Once I finished I put my clothes into charlies police cruiser and we went to the airport.
"alright bells have fun." He says smiling. you call rehab fun? W-O-W! I mean I knew he was twisted but… seriously??? I just smiled and got on the plane. It took a good few hours and a lot of stares. As the plane landed I got off before I could get anymore people staring.
As I got my cab my dad had put a tag on all four of my bags saying
Isabella (Bella) Marie Swan
Washington Rehab Center
000-0000 (a/n I cant put a real number)
Shit. There was no running away now. As I entered a cab the guy asks for my location.
"Washington rehab facility please." I say. His eyes go wide then back to normal.
"so what are you on kid?" he asks. Rude much
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"nothing. Im going for anorexia." I say. He sighs in relief.
"oh okay. I thought you were some crack headed person. Sorry." He says
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"its fine. I would of done the same thing." I say. I was starting to warm up to this guy.
"my names james. Whats your name?" he asks.
"Bella. Nice to meet you. Usually people don't talk to me unless they are making fun of me." I say.
"I don't understand why. You seem friendly to me. And I don't judge people based on looks. My fiancé Victoria is emo. And we are getting married in a month. Here we are." He says smling.
"thanks. How much do I owe you?" I ask.
"its on the house. You made my day." He says.
"thanks. And congratulations." I say getting out.
"Bella. I hope you find what you are looking for." He says. What I was looking for? He then laughs and helps me get my luggage and gets in the car.
"have a nice day Miss. Swan." He says. Miss. Swan? I never mentioned my last name.
I shook it off and entered the building. I went to the receptionist.
"can I help you?" she asks.
"im Isabella swan." I say
"hi welcome. Here is your room key, a map, and an activities list of what you will be doing while you are here. Oh by the way im Angela. If you have any trouble you can contact me." She says. I smile and thank her. I then go up to my single room and unloud everything.
I looked at the list.
group gathering
single gathering
lunch
group gathering
free time
wow.
I immediately scratched lunch off my list. Sorry. But im coming here and I don't have any intention of healing.
As I headed to group in this big room, there were 10 chairs in a circle. 9 were filled.
"miss Swan nice of you to join." The lady says.
"please take a seat." She says. I nod and head to the only open seat next to a boy with blonde hair.
"now. I want everyone in this circle to tell me their names and then something about them" she says. She then points to the boy next to me.
"hey im mike Newton, and I am here because I stalked this one girl in my school, and took sleeping pills." He says. Yuck. Then she pointed to me.
"hey im Bella Swan and I am here because of anorexia and I have depression." I say quietly.
"hey im Jasper Whitlock and I became crazed with all types of drugs. Coke mainly." He says.
"HI!!! IM ALICE BRANDON! I HAVE A VERY, VERY BAD OBBSESSION WITH SHOPPING AND I AM ALWAYS HYPER BACAUSE I TAKE SLEEPING PILLS TO MAKE ME STAY AWAKE!! HEHEH!" she was literally bouncing in her seat.
"umm…okkkaaayyy. Yo im Eric. I tried to commit suicide." He says. I roll my eyes as I see him and that Newton kid checking me out. I became suddenly uncomfortable when mike was staring at me. Someone across the room growled. I looked at him. He was absolutely beautiful. His tousled bronze hair was untamed. Yummy. His emerald green eyes piercing. It was his turn after that eric kid.
"Im Edward Cullen. I have a drinking problem." He says. Looking at me while saying this. He was sort of scowling and glaring at the same time. He wore all black like me.
"hi im Rosalie. I-I had an abusive boyfriend." She says crying. I wanted to go and hug her. I never had a boyfriend but people at school would punch and kick me and left me there. To die. Just waiting. I walked across the room and bent down to her height. I looked her straight in the eyes. I then whispered to her
"kids at school used to beat me all the time. J-just waiting for me to die. They all hated me." She then looked at me. My eyes filled with tears.
"im so sorry." She whispered loud enough for people to hear me.
I shrug my shoulders and she then hugs me. Me, never gotten a hug before, the last time I got a hug was when I was 4. I wrapped m arms around her and then after 2 seconds we both let go and I returned to my seat. A bug burly guy next to rose looked as idf he wanted to rip that one dudes head of.
"hey im Emmett MCcarty. I am here because I drank and did pot." He says looking at Rosalie.
"hey im tyler, im in here for alcohol. I was drunk once and smashed this one girl with my van." He says.
"okay. Well im mrs. Tompson but you can call me Victoria." She says. I look a what she was wearing. All black. James fiancé.
"oh congratulations Victoria." I say. She looks at me strangely.
"what?" she asks.
"about you and james." I say.
"h-how did you know?" she asks. Everyone was looking at me funny. Besides cullen.
I shrug my shoulders and take a piece of gum from my bag and chew it.
"now in todays session we are going to ask questions. Who wants to ask who a question?" she asks. Edward raises his hand.
"yes Edward?" she asks.
"I have a question for anorexic girl over there." He says. My head pops up. I look at rose and she and the rest of the group look at him as if he was out of his mind.
"yeah?" I ask.
"what did you tell blonde over hear?" he asks. Oh shit.
"Rosalie? Is it ok…." I ask.
"its your story not mine." She says. I nod.
"k pretty boy cause you asked nicely," emmet stated laughing along with jasper "at my school I was, and still am beat by kids who either don't like me cause im emo, or because I was fat, and do you know what? I was worse than teased because of my weight, my clothes! HELL even my parents called me fat! And kids just let me bleed there and die. BECAUSE NOBODY GOD DAMN EXCEPTS YOU!" I yell. He just looks at me sorrowfully.
"I still have bruises." I whisper loud enough for them to hear.
"you have a screwed up life bitch." Mike says. Edward got up looking murderous came at mike and began to come towards him. I then got up and grabbed Edwards shoulders.
"chill. Out. I have been called much worse." I say.
Then I hear a cracking noise. I turn around and find that jasper punched him. Victoria called security to help. The tiny girl named alice, also in all black, most of these people besides mike Eric and Tyler wore black. Alice came and hugged me along with rose.
While Emmett and Edward sat across from us with an angry jasper in the middle.
"nobody treats a lady like that." Jasper says
"yeah." Emmett and Edward both say. They all look at each other. Anger rushed through me. Security took mike in. jasper was only defending me. I clenched my fists so tight my already translucent skin turned even whiter as I got up and punched a fat hole in the wall.
"whoa are you okay Bella?" Emmett asks. I repeatedly punched my fists on the wall till my hands bled. One guard tried to pick me up by my waist but I winced very painfully at the still broken rib I had from school.
"Ow." I cried.
They put me down fast. The girls came by my side.
"im fine." I say getting up.
"whats wrong?" Alice asks.
"im still recovering from a few broken ribs." I say with a small smile to try to make things better.
I didn't even know these people. Why were they helping me?
"why are you helping me?" I ask.
"cause we, my friend, are your friends. Haven't you ever had a friend before?" Rose asks. I shake my head no.
"well you have us and the guys. Im talking bout the ones in all black. Not Eric, Mike, or Tyler." Alice says. I smile. We grab three chairs and make our own 6 person circle. Victoria had already left giving us this time to do what we pleased. I was really tired. I hadn't slept in 3 weeks straight. I started to doze off.
"bella are you ok?" Edward asks. I nod weakly.
"she needs to sleep." Rose says.
"NO! NO!" I yell franticly.
"why not?" jasper asks.
"i-I cant sleep. I don't sleep." I say.
"what do you mean you don't sleep?" Emmett asks.
I sighed. "this one time I lost consciousness once when this kid started beating me and I lost consciousness when I woke up I had been in a coma for 6 months they were just about to sign the papers to take me off life support. But I immediate woke up. So now im afraid to sleep. I haven't slept in 3 weeks straight." I say. They stare at me In amazement.
"wow." Edward, Emmett, and jasper say at the same time.
"are you sure you guys don't know each other?" rose asks. They nod
.
"but enough bout me. What bout you guys? Alcohol, pills, and weed." I say.
They nod.
"lets go back to my room and play karaoke! Bella has a good singing voice!" pixie I mean alice says. Oops.
"how do you know I can sing?!" I ask.
"because you have a very beautiful voice bella." Alice says.
I roll my eyes. This is going to be a very long day.