Peyton's Point of View
Don't own it, WB does.
You know the people that cry themselves to sleep? I wish I could do that. I don't think I have cried since my mom died, maybe not even then, it's been so long ago.
I always try though. I've tried many times. Anyone at my high school can look at me and think everything in my life is perfect. They are way off. It wasn't bad when I first made captain for the cheer squad and I first started dating Nathan, but that happiness only lasted for a week or so.
Let's just say this. I started cheerleading at seven years old with my best friend Brooke. She convinced me, and so I did it with her for many years. I'm not sure when I stopped liking it, but over time I got really tired of it. My fear though, was that if I did stop, I would regret it.
Regret. That's my worst fear.
I regret so much already, that I feel that if I change my life in any way, I will regret it later. I remember the day my mom died. We were all at breakfast, and I was mad at her, I don't remember why. She bent down to kiss me on my cheek before she left and I pulled away. I was mad at her as she died, and I regret not saying goodbye everyday of my life.
So in present time, everything still sucks. All it takes is this one guy. One amazing guy to change your whole life around, to turn it upside down.
~*~
I think this is the place to start:
"Lucas, I made a mistake. When you said you wanted to be with me, I got, I got scared, but-" "Peyton." "But, the truth is, I want all the same things that you want, I do. And I want them with you."
Pretty deep right? Well then my best friend Brooke steps in and says "Okay, superstar, are you ready to score?"
I was shocked. I knew that Brooke had a thing for Lucas, but still, I thought that's all it was. Brooke is the slutty type while Lucas isn't the type to go with the slutty type.
I tried to go but Lucas called my name. I couldn't move. Before, I could ignore him, but this time, it paralyzed me.
~*~
With some excuse I got out of there. I got into my car as fast as possible, with Brooke right on my heels trying to 'explain.' Truthfully I didn't want an explanation.
My dad was out of town on a business trip; probably screwing his secretary or something, I really didn't care. I haven't really seen him in a long time. I can take care of myself.
But I was still in shock. I couldn't believe my best friend and the guy I liked. I think the phone rang a few times, but I had my music up so loud I really couldn't tell.
My relief is usually my blog on the Internet, but I couldn't put any of this in there, mostly because Lucas reads it.
Things were getting out of hand and I just needed to sleep. I didn't mean to take the bottle of sleeping pills, but I did.
~*~
"Peyton? Are you awake?" I heard a familiar voice. "Mom?" I questioned weakly. "No, its Haley." I felt a hand brush my hair off my forehead as I ever so slightly opened my eyes.
Between the blinding lights and the pure white wall I had to close my eyes back quickly. Soon enough I got my eyes adjusted. That's when I felt my right arm. It felt all stiff. I looked over and saw an IV in it.
"What happened?"
~*~
So Haley explained it all to me. She told me that the hospital tried to get a hold of my dad, but he had turned his cell phone off and they didn't know the hotel number. Then they had found my cell phone and called Nathan's house. Haley was there when they got the call and here they were.
Haley also said that she tried to call Lucas, but no answer from him either. All I could think was while I was here lying in the hospital, Lucas and Brooke were together. I couldn't help myself. I puked.
Just as I had finished, the doctor, walked in. "So how are you? Its probably best you threw up, we had to pump your stomach, and now you're just getting all the excess out." Lovely huh?
I had another question. "How'd anyone know?" The doctor smiled. "Leave it to your neighbor to want sugar at 9 at night. She was up at your door when she heard a thud. She panicked and called 911.
"So when do I get to go home?" "We would like to keep you another night just in case. You just get some rest." I liked that idea. Resting my head back on the pillow I fell asleep almost instantly.
Little to my knowledge, this conversation was going on outside my door:
"Miss James, I know that you are not responsible for Peyton at the moment, but since you and Mr. Scott are the only ones here, you need to decide on how to handle this. Its come to my attention that Peyton's father hasn't been home in a little over four months, and it seems that he isn't returning any time soon." The doctor paused while Haley and Nathan looked at each other.
"This means that unless she finds someplace to live with an adult, she may be taken by the child protection services."
All of a sudden there was a voice. "There will be no need for that."
~*~*~*~
A/N: Well theres the first chapter. The first bit of that was just something I made up, and I don't think the whole cheer part is true to the real One Tree Hill, its sorta based on me. So please tell me if yall like it!
Don't own it, WB does.
You know the people that cry themselves to sleep? I wish I could do that. I don't think I have cried since my mom died, maybe not even then, it's been so long ago.
I always try though. I've tried many times. Anyone at my high school can look at me and think everything in my life is perfect. They are way off. It wasn't bad when I first made captain for the cheer squad and I first started dating Nathan, but that happiness only lasted for a week or so.
Let's just say this. I started cheerleading at seven years old with my best friend Brooke. She convinced me, and so I did it with her for many years. I'm not sure when I stopped liking it, but over time I got really tired of it. My fear though, was that if I did stop, I would regret it.
Regret. That's my worst fear.
I regret so much already, that I feel that if I change my life in any way, I will regret it later. I remember the day my mom died. We were all at breakfast, and I was mad at her, I don't remember why. She bent down to kiss me on my cheek before she left and I pulled away. I was mad at her as she died, and I regret not saying goodbye everyday of my life.
So in present time, everything still sucks. All it takes is this one guy. One amazing guy to change your whole life around, to turn it upside down.
~*~
I think this is the place to start:
"Lucas, I made a mistake. When you said you wanted to be with me, I got, I got scared, but-" "Peyton." "But, the truth is, I want all the same things that you want, I do. And I want them with you."
Pretty deep right? Well then my best friend Brooke steps in and says "Okay, superstar, are you ready to score?"
I was shocked. I knew that Brooke had a thing for Lucas, but still, I thought that's all it was. Brooke is the slutty type while Lucas isn't the type to go with the slutty type.
I tried to go but Lucas called my name. I couldn't move. Before, I could ignore him, but this time, it paralyzed me.
~*~
With some excuse I got out of there. I got into my car as fast as possible, with Brooke right on my heels trying to 'explain.' Truthfully I didn't want an explanation.
My dad was out of town on a business trip; probably screwing his secretary or something, I really didn't care. I haven't really seen him in a long time. I can take care of myself.
But I was still in shock. I couldn't believe my best friend and the guy I liked. I think the phone rang a few times, but I had my music up so loud I really couldn't tell.
My relief is usually my blog on the Internet, but I couldn't put any of this in there, mostly because Lucas reads it.
Things were getting out of hand and I just needed to sleep. I didn't mean to take the bottle of sleeping pills, but I did.
~*~
"Peyton? Are you awake?" I heard a familiar voice. "Mom?" I questioned weakly. "No, its Haley." I felt a hand brush my hair off my forehead as I ever so slightly opened my eyes.
Between the blinding lights and the pure white wall I had to close my eyes back quickly. Soon enough I got my eyes adjusted. That's when I felt my right arm. It felt all stiff. I looked over and saw an IV in it.
"What happened?"
~*~
So Haley explained it all to me. She told me that the hospital tried to get a hold of my dad, but he had turned his cell phone off and they didn't know the hotel number. Then they had found my cell phone and called Nathan's house. Haley was there when they got the call and here they were.
Haley also said that she tried to call Lucas, but no answer from him either. All I could think was while I was here lying in the hospital, Lucas and Brooke were together. I couldn't help myself. I puked.
Just as I had finished, the doctor, walked in. "So how are you? Its probably best you threw up, we had to pump your stomach, and now you're just getting all the excess out." Lovely huh?
I had another question. "How'd anyone know?" The doctor smiled. "Leave it to your neighbor to want sugar at 9 at night. She was up at your door when she heard a thud. She panicked and called 911.
"So when do I get to go home?" "We would like to keep you another night just in case. You just get some rest." I liked that idea. Resting my head back on the pillow I fell asleep almost instantly.
Little to my knowledge, this conversation was going on outside my door:
"Miss James, I know that you are not responsible for Peyton at the moment, but since you and Mr. Scott are the only ones here, you need to decide on how to handle this. Its come to my attention that Peyton's father hasn't been home in a little over four months, and it seems that he isn't returning any time soon." The doctor paused while Haley and Nathan looked at each other.
"This means that unless she finds someplace to live with an adult, she may be taken by the child protection services."
All of a sudden there was a voice. "There will be no need for that."
~*~*~*~
A/N: Well theres the first chapter. The first bit of that was just something I made up, and I don't think the whole cheer part is true to the real One Tree Hill, its sorta based on me. So please tell me if yall like it!