Now I was scared, more scared than I'd ever been . I was scared because of what was happening, not who it was happening with. That part I was so excited about. But even with that I was so scared I'd ruin it all in one short moment.
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Remembrance
On the very day I was born I remember very clearly, my father calling out my name," Renesmee", and thinking I can't be anymore special than I am now. I remember my mother holding me and saying," Renesmee, So…beautiful," and thinking no one loves me more than my mother and father. Was there a chance I was wrong? Just at that time, I look up to see my mother come into the room, looking awesome as she always did. I still say my Aunt Alice got to her to much. When I looked up and met her eyes she asked me
"What are you thinking about?"
Just when I was about to answer, my father walks in just smiling.
"Mom, I don't think I need to tell you. I think dad heard it all. Am I right daddy?"
He looked at me and smiled then looked at my mom.
"Yes, Bella I can tell you everything, but I won't. I really do think it is a mother/daughter conversation."
"But daddy, you have to be in here when I tell her okay."
"Sure Nessie, no problem, are you telling her now?"
"Yeah"
So with that I scooted back on my bed, and my parents came and sat down, my dad smiling and my mother looked concerned.
"So mom here it is, I was just remembering back to when I was born and thinking that I couldn't be anymore special or anymore loved than I was at that point." I paused and looked at my parents. " With all that going on, I then met Jacob and all of my thoughts I had moments after I was born, they all seemed to fade away when I saw him for the first time while Aunt Rose was holding me."
I stopped and thought about that moment. It caused me to smile, but I went on anyway.
"At that moment I figured out that I was more special than I thought, and that I was loved the same, if not more, by someone other than my family."
My mom interrupted me with a sigh and one word.
"Jacob."