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I have been awander in my mind, wondering when the Madness first came to me. And as I searched the annals of mine mind, I realized another peculiarity to this Madness Mine: it appeared suddenly, yet it's time of appearance is not exact in my mind. It is as if it entered my thoughts and grew, spreading through memory as conscious mind.
But one image does stand out whenever I think of it's origins: a circle of magic with a seven pointed star, a two dots within each spike of the star to come out to fourteen dots and a glowing sphere, not a circle but a sphere, of green colour within the center of the star. All around this circle are filligrees and signs which move and shift from one shape and pattern to the next. This shifting reminds me of the different forms and worlds of the Madness. Perhaps there is a connection between the shifting designs and the fixtures of the Madness, that is, if this is the symbol of the Madness, which I am certain it is.

I think I will go see the Healers tomorrow. Maxillo won't know this, but I will see what they can do about mine madness. Its a strange thing, affecting me in minor ways, but in this world you can never be certain. It could grow and fester and I might not even notice, because that is how it is designed. Best to get it checked out.

Note to self: set time aside for picnic with Maxillo in the Gungen Park. The least I can do for him since he bought us this house.