Disclaimers: I do not own Sailor Moon and barring some sort of miracle, I never will. The song, "Killing Moon," is by Echo and the Bunnymen; I don't own that either. Thanks to Nichire for inspiring me. Her post on the eclipse the other night on the AI forums got me thinking about this and it just happened. Many thanks also to Evil Illusions for taking on the enormous task of editing this spur of the moment fic, I really appreciate it =). Now on with the show!
The Killing Moon
By Rhiannon
Rating: PG/PG-13
Under the blue moon I saw you
So soon you'll take me
Up in your arms, too late to beg you
Or cancel it, though I know it must be
The killing time
Unwillingly mine
"He's a demon, don't you understand that?" Rei shrieked.
"He can't be! There is no way that he is a demon Rei. There is no way
that he has been taken from me!" I challenged.
"Face it Usagi, Mamoru is no longer the same. He has turned into
something that even we as Senshi do not understand. He is something far
beyond the evil that the negaverse has ever brought us." Rei finished, her
shoulders slumping.
"How did this happen Rei? What kind of demon could have taken him over
so completely?"
"I don't know. If tonight is any indication though, he's a vampire
now. I hate to say it Usa, but it's up to you to stop him."
"Me?" I gulped, "How can I stop him? I love him. I don't have the
heart to kill him."
"I know Usagi, but sometimes we all have to do things we don't want
to." Rei finished as she walked away from me in the darkened ally.
Unbidden visions filled my mind. Visions of Mamoru just a few minutes
before. Visions of my only love taking the life of an innocent. I sighed as
I realized that I would need to stop him.
Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give yourself to him
"You're playing games with me Usako…" He growled as he stalked around
the park looking for me. After my talk with Rei, he'd come to find me.
We argued, and finally I fled to the park. He followed me closely.
I'm sure if he wanted to, he could have caught me before we reached the
park, but he didn't.
"I'm not playing games, I just don't have the will to fight you right
now." I sighed as I stepped out from behind a tree to allow him to see
me.
"Usa, I don't want a fight. I want you to join me!" He pleaded.
"You know I can't do that Mamoru. And you also know that I can't kill
you, but I will if I must."
"So proud my Usako. My beautiful Usa. Of course you don't want to
join me of your own free will and you don't have to..." He crooned as he
stepped closer to me.
In starlit nights I saw you
So cruelly you kissed me
Your lips a magic world
Your sky all hung with jewels
The killing moon
Will come too soon
He kissed me, hard and soft. I don't know how else to describe it. It
was like the same tender kisses he'd always given me, but it held a
danger to it. He deepened the kiss and suckled my lips so hard that I was
sure that he had bruised them.
"You need to come to me of your own free will Usako. I cannot make you
one of my kind unless you come to me of your own free will. Live with
me in this endless forever. Together we can rule the world. My powers
have only been intensified by becoming a vampire. Imagine what would
happen if you became like me. Your powers would increase ten-fold!
Does that not appeal to you?" He coaxed as he brought his lips down to
mine again.
I allowed myself to kiss him, to forever remember this moment. I knew
in my heart that this would be the closest that I would ever come to
having my Mamo-chan back. I wrapped my arms around him, delving my
tongue into his mouth. He pushed me away with a shuddering breath and
breathed deeply before he spoke to me.
"You give your body to me so willingly, why not your soul as well? I
promise you Usagi, you have nothing to fear of this life. We'd live
forever. We'd never have to fear anything or anyone ever again!"
"You know as well as I do that I cannot do that. We can never live
like this!"
"Yes we can! We thrive by the light of the same moon! The moon that
you come from is the moon that now allows me to live. It is your
heritage and now it is my lifeline." He spoke passionately.
"You know that this can never be," I cried softly, tears clouding my
vision.
"I will wait for you Usako. Though you may not believe it, I love you,
I need you here with me. I will wait."
With those final words he walked away, leaving me to contemplate the
future. I looked to the moon and knew fully well that whatever love he
felt for me had not been tainted in his transformation. He might have
been a vampire, but in his heart, deep inside of him, he could not let
me go. Our souls were and are forever intertwined. The light of the
moon shone down upon me, becoming redder the closer it got to dawn. The
killing moon. That's what Luna had always called this stage of the
moon before dawn. She said the red tint to it was a sign of the night
dying. Her words had never made sense to me as they did at that moment.
"This is the killing moon," I mused to myself, "It's killing my soul."
Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give yourself to him
"Give it up Usako!" He roared as he punched at me again.
"NO!" I cried in anguish. My love was fighting with me, not only
verbally but physically as well. It was a few weeks after our first
encounter in his new form. He had grown more and more tired of me refusing
him. I think he had become most impatient with me.
"I need you!" He cried as he ran at me and shoved me painfully against
a wall.
"I will not become what you are!" I cried as I viciously pushed him
off of me. Even in my transformed state as Sailor Moon, he was almost
too strong for me. It probably didn't help that I refused to use my
powers on him. I wasn't willing to kill him yet.
"I can't do this to you!" He roared as he gripped his head in pain. "I
can't force you to do this! Don't you understand that you need to be
willing to give your soul over to this?"
"Did you Mamoru? Did you give your soul willingly to whomever or
whatever turned you into this?" I breathed harshly as anger filled me. I
was angry with the possibility that he might have chosen to live this
way. That he could have harbored and hidden an evil within himself that I
had been unable to detect.
"Yes. But only after I was near death," he sat on the ground looking
at me, his eyes begging me to understand. "Don't you understand Usako?
I didn't want this until the bitter end. Until the possibility that I
might never see you again was almost completely tangible. He said to
me 'You must choose this of your own free will. You must say yes to
me.' And I did. I cannot use the same tactics with you as he did with
me, but I want you to be with me Usako! I did this for you, I changed
myself into this horrid being so that I wouldn't miss one minute of my
life with you!"
"Mamoru!" I cried as I threw my arms around him, hugging him to me.
Under blue moon I saw you
So soon you'll take me
Up in your arms, too late to beg you
Or cancel it though I know it must be
The killing time
Unwillingly mine
He held me for some time. I think just the feeling of having me in his
arms again was a comfort to him.
"Usako?"
"Hmm?" I murmured.
"My life is yours to take."
I shuddered as he spoke. I knew what it had finally come down to. It
was time to chose. Allow him to live on in his suffering or end it the
only way I could. I looked up at the moon, only to realize that it was
blood red. It was impossible for it to be dawn already though, it was
only around midnight.
"Look at the moon Mamo-chan."
"It's blood red, love." He stated, not the least perturbed.
"I've told you about the killing moon haven't I?"
"Yes, Luna says it's the time for cleansing the night of evil."
I nodded my head as I spoke, "She does say that."
"Is it time then love?" He asked, his voice shaking lightly.
"Yes Mamo-chan, it is." I kissed him tenderly as I moved to kneel
before him. He followed suit and knelt before me. As we faced each other
under the moon light, I knew the time had come. The time was mine,
whether I wanted it or not. He reached into his coat pocket and
withdrew a blade which he handed to me.
"From what he told me, this is the only thing that will kill me. You
have to make sure you get my heart and there after slit my throat to
ensure that this blood has stopped flowing through me."
Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give yourself to him
Fate had played a cruel joke on us. Our lives were not supposed to be
this way. We were supposed to live together and rule the earth in the
future. I took the blade and watched the blood red moon glint off of
it.
"Close your eyes love." I said as I kissed him softly. He obliged me
and squeezed his eyes shut, wiling his body to relax in order to accept
the coming attack. I wanted him to be ready for what was to come, I
wanted to make it as quick for him as possible. I didn't want him to
know what happened.
Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give yourself to him
You give yourself to him
I felt the blade piercing the delicate flesh and I gasped with how
easily it moved through the neck area.
"Usako?" he whispered.
"Yes my love?" I responded teary eyed.
"What have you done?"
"Nothing that I didn't do of my own free will," I responded as I pulled
him to me.
Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give yourself to him
You give yourself to him
"Usa, no!" He cried, "I can't do this, I just can't."
"Shhh, love, it'll all be over soon, you'll see." I soothed as I held
him to me.
"But I can't, I won't let you go," he said softly as he succumbed.
"You'll have me always," I responded. The first gentle pressure of his
lips on my neck alerted me to the fact that he had taken my offer. He
drank from me like a man starved. I was in sheer bliss. I couldn't
feel anything anymore. Nothing but the gentle pressure of his lips on my
neck.
Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give your...self to him
"Usa, drink," he commanded as he offered me his wrist. I delicately
placed my lips on his wrist and drank the sweet life-giving blood he
offered me. "You're mine now, for always love."
I never thought that I would give myself over to him so completely.
It's amazing what love can do to you. We are the same now. My friends
don't understand it and quite frankly, neither do I. When he handed me
the knife, I had every intention of killing him, but as the blade
pierced my own flesh, I knew I was doing the right thing. I was siding with
my love, my life, my soul.
A funny thing happened as we completed the process of transforming me.
I never turned to the darker place that he had. Perhaps the moon
protected me from that because I belong to it. Whatever the case, having
me near him returned my Mamoru into the same loving, caring being that
he had always been. The killing moon doesn't scare me anymore. It's no
longer a symbol of death to me, it's a symbol of the new life I have
chosen to lead. My love and I rule the night, and perhaps that's how it
was always meant to be. After all, I came from the moon, why not allow
it to give me a new life here and now under it?
Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give yourself to him
"Do you regret this?" He asked me many years later as we lay under the
stars after making love.
"How could I? I'm with you."
"I know, but you gave up so much. I sometimes wish that you had just
killed me that night."
"You know that I couldn't have. The only way for it to end was for me
to give you my life just as you had given me yours." I said as I
nestled in his arms, enjoying him and the night that surrounded us in our
garden.
"I can't help but miss our lives before this," he said pensively.
"I know, but we both did what we had to."
"You didn't have to do this Usa, you could have lived your life. You
could have taken mine and lived yours. I sometimes regret being selfish
enough to bring you over to this."
"Love, I did what I wanted. You waited for me to make my decision, and
I did. It just wasn't the decision you thought it would be. We are
here now because I gave you my soul. My heart and my soul have always
been yours, to have separated them would have been a greater crime."
"I love you Usa, nothing will ever change that. Not even death."
"We are going to live forever Mamoru. We'll never have to worry about
being apart again."
It was true, we'd never have to worry about our lives being separated
again. The only question that plagued my mind was if we would make it
through eternity like this. It really didn't seem to matter so long as
I had him with me. Together, we would always be unstoppable.
~End~
All comments and other such things can be sent to rhiannon_1998@yahoo.com
The Killing Moon
By Rhiannon
Rating: PG/PG-13
Under the blue moon I saw you
So soon you'll take me
Up in your arms, too late to beg you
Or cancel it, though I know it must be
The killing time
Unwillingly mine
"He's a demon, don't you understand that?" Rei shrieked.
"He can't be! There is no way that he is a demon Rei. There is no way
that he has been taken from me!" I challenged.
"Face it Usagi, Mamoru is no longer the same. He has turned into
something that even we as Senshi do not understand. He is something far
beyond the evil that the negaverse has ever brought us." Rei finished, her
shoulders slumping.
"How did this happen Rei? What kind of demon could have taken him over
so completely?"
"I don't know. If tonight is any indication though, he's a vampire
now. I hate to say it Usa, but it's up to you to stop him."
"Me?" I gulped, "How can I stop him? I love him. I don't have the
heart to kill him."
"I know Usagi, but sometimes we all have to do things we don't want
to." Rei finished as she walked away from me in the darkened ally.
Unbidden visions filled my mind. Visions of Mamoru just a few minutes
before. Visions of my only love taking the life of an innocent. I sighed as
I realized that I would need to stop him.
Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give yourself to him
"You're playing games with me Usako…" He growled as he stalked around
the park looking for me. After my talk with Rei, he'd come to find me.
We argued, and finally I fled to the park. He followed me closely.
I'm sure if he wanted to, he could have caught me before we reached the
park, but he didn't.
"I'm not playing games, I just don't have the will to fight you right
now." I sighed as I stepped out from behind a tree to allow him to see
me.
"Usa, I don't want a fight. I want you to join me!" He pleaded.
"You know I can't do that Mamoru. And you also know that I can't kill
you, but I will if I must."
"So proud my Usako. My beautiful Usa. Of course you don't want to
join me of your own free will and you don't have to..." He crooned as he
stepped closer to me.
In starlit nights I saw you
So cruelly you kissed me
Your lips a magic world
Your sky all hung with jewels
The killing moon
Will come too soon
He kissed me, hard and soft. I don't know how else to describe it. It
was like the same tender kisses he'd always given me, but it held a
danger to it. He deepened the kiss and suckled my lips so hard that I was
sure that he had bruised them.
"You need to come to me of your own free will Usako. I cannot make you
one of my kind unless you come to me of your own free will. Live with
me in this endless forever. Together we can rule the world. My powers
have only been intensified by becoming a vampire. Imagine what would
happen if you became like me. Your powers would increase ten-fold!
Does that not appeal to you?" He coaxed as he brought his lips down to
mine again.
I allowed myself to kiss him, to forever remember this moment. I knew
in my heart that this would be the closest that I would ever come to
having my Mamo-chan back. I wrapped my arms around him, delving my
tongue into his mouth. He pushed me away with a shuddering breath and
breathed deeply before he spoke to me.
"You give your body to me so willingly, why not your soul as well? I
promise you Usagi, you have nothing to fear of this life. We'd live
forever. We'd never have to fear anything or anyone ever again!"
"You know as well as I do that I cannot do that. We can never live
like this!"
"Yes we can! We thrive by the light of the same moon! The moon that
you come from is the moon that now allows me to live. It is your
heritage and now it is my lifeline." He spoke passionately.
"You know that this can never be," I cried softly, tears clouding my
vision.
"I will wait for you Usako. Though you may not believe it, I love you,
I need you here with me. I will wait."
With those final words he walked away, leaving me to contemplate the
future. I looked to the moon and knew fully well that whatever love he
felt for me had not been tainted in his transformation. He might have
been a vampire, but in his heart, deep inside of him, he could not let
me go. Our souls were and are forever intertwined. The light of the
moon shone down upon me, becoming redder the closer it got to dawn. The
killing moon. That's what Luna had always called this stage of the
moon before dawn. She said the red tint to it was a sign of the night
dying. Her words had never made sense to me as they did at that moment.
"This is the killing moon," I mused to myself, "It's killing my soul."
Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give yourself to him
"Give it up Usako!" He roared as he punched at me again.
"NO!" I cried in anguish. My love was fighting with me, not only
verbally but physically as well. It was a few weeks after our first
encounter in his new form. He had grown more and more tired of me refusing
him. I think he had become most impatient with me.
"I need you!" He cried as he ran at me and shoved me painfully against
a wall.
"I will not become what you are!" I cried as I viciously pushed him
off of me. Even in my transformed state as Sailor Moon, he was almost
too strong for me. It probably didn't help that I refused to use my
powers on him. I wasn't willing to kill him yet.
"I can't do this to you!" He roared as he gripped his head in pain. "I
can't force you to do this! Don't you understand that you need to be
willing to give your soul over to this?"
"Did you Mamoru? Did you give your soul willingly to whomever or
whatever turned you into this?" I breathed harshly as anger filled me. I
was angry with the possibility that he might have chosen to live this
way. That he could have harbored and hidden an evil within himself that I
had been unable to detect.
"Yes. But only after I was near death," he sat on the ground looking
at me, his eyes begging me to understand. "Don't you understand Usako?
I didn't want this until the bitter end. Until the possibility that I
might never see you again was almost completely tangible. He said to
me 'You must choose this of your own free will. You must say yes to
me.' And I did. I cannot use the same tactics with you as he did with
me, but I want you to be with me Usako! I did this for you, I changed
myself into this horrid being so that I wouldn't miss one minute of my
life with you!"
"Mamoru!" I cried as I threw my arms around him, hugging him to me.
Under blue moon I saw you
So soon you'll take me
Up in your arms, too late to beg you
Or cancel it though I know it must be
The killing time
Unwillingly mine
He held me for some time. I think just the feeling of having me in his
arms again was a comfort to him.
"Usako?"
"Hmm?" I murmured.
"My life is yours to take."
I shuddered as he spoke. I knew what it had finally come down to. It
was time to chose. Allow him to live on in his suffering or end it the
only way I could. I looked up at the moon, only to realize that it was
blood red. It was impossible for it to be dawn already though, it was
only around midnight.
"Look at the moon Mamo-chan."
"It's blood red, love." He stated, not the least perturbed.
"I've told you about the killing moon haven't I?"
"Yes, Luna says it's the time for cleansing the night of evil."
I nodded my head as I spoke, "She does say that."
"Is it time then love?" He asked, his voice shaking lightly.
"Yes Mamo-chan, it is." I kissed him tenderly as I moved to kneel
before him. He followed suit and knelt before me. As we faced each other
under the moon light, I knew the time had come. The time was mine,
whether I wanted it or not. He reached into his coat pocket and
withdrew a blade which he handed to me.
"From what he told me, this is the only thing that will kill me. You
have to make sure you get my heart and there after slit my throat to
ensure that this blood has stopped flowing through me."
Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give yourself to him
Fate had played a cruel joke on us. Our lives were not supposed to be
this way. We were supposed to live together and rule the earth in the
future. I took the blade and watched the blood red moon glint off of
it.
"Close your eyes love." I said as I kissed him softly. He obliged me
and squeezed his eyes shut, wiling his body to relax in order to accept
the coming attack. I wanted him to be ready for what was to come, I
wanted to make it as quick for him as possible. I didn't want him to
know what happened.
Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give yourself to him
You give yourself to him
I felt the blade piercing the delicate flesh and I gasped with how
easily it moved through the neck area.
"Usako?" he whispered.
"Yes my love?" I responded teary eyed.
"What have you done?"
"Nothing that I didn't do of my own free will," I responded as I pulled
him to me.
Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give yourself to him
You give yourself to him
"Usa, no!" He cried, "I can't do this, I just can't."
"Shhh, love, it'll all be over soon, you'll see." I soothed as I held
him to me.
"But I can't, I won't let you go," he said softly as he succumbed.
"You'll have me always," I responded. The first gentle pressure of his
lips on my neck alerted me to the fact that he had taken my offer. He
drank from me like a man starved. I was in sheer bliss. I couldn't
feel anything anymore. Nothing but the gentle pressure of his lips on my
neck.
Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give your...self to him
"Usa, drink," he commanded as he offered me his wrist. I delicately
placed my lips on his wrist and drank the sweet life-giving blood he
offered me. "You're mine now, for always love."
I never thought that I would give myself over to him so completely.
It's amazing what love can do to you. We are the same now. My friends
don't understand it and quite frankly, neither do I. When he handed me
the knife, I had every intention of killing him, but as the blade
pierced my own flesh, I knew I was doing the right thing. I was siding with
my love, my life, my soul.
A funny thing happened as we completed the process of transforming me.
I never turned to the darker place that he had. Perhaps the moon
protected me from that because I belong to it. Whatever the case, having
me near him returned my Mamoru into the same loving, caring being that
he had always been. The killing moon doesn't scare me anymore. It's no
longer a symbol of death to me, it's a symbol of the new life I have
chosen to lead. My love and I rule the night, and perhaps that's how it
was always meant to be. After all, I came from the moon, why not allow
it to give me a new life here and now under it?
Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give yourself to him
"Do you regret this?" He asked me many years later as we lay under the
stars after making love.
"How could I? I'm with you."
"I know, but you gave up so much. I sometimes wish that you had just
killed me that night."
"You know that I couldn't have. The only way for it to end was for me
to give you my life just as you had given me yours." I said as I
nestled in his arms, enjoying him and the night that surrounded us in our
garden.
"I can't help but miss our lives before this," he said pensively.
"I know, but we both did what we had to."
"You didn't have to do this Usa, you could have lived your life. You
could have taken mine and lived yours. I sometimes regret being selfish
enough to bring you over to this."
"Love, I did what I wanted. You waited for me to make my decision, and
I did. It just wasn't the decision you thought it would be. We are
here now because I gave you my soul. My heart and my soul have always
been yours, to have separated them would have been a greater crime."
"I love you Usa, nothing will ever change that. Not even death."
"We are going to live forever Mamoru. We'll never have to worry about
being apart again."
It was true, we'd never have to worry about our lives being separated
again. The only question that plagued my mind was if we would make it
through eternity like this. It really didn't seem to matter so long as
I had him with me. Together, we would always be unstoppable.
~End~
All comments and other such things can be sent to rhiannon_1998@yahoo.com