A/N: What's up, everyone out there in reader land! This story is totally AU and parts of the show will be on here and some will my own. I wanted to put my own spin on everything and see where this goes, because when I was thinking about this story, it sounded cool in my head. So who knows. I'm not going to really explain who everyone is, if you watch the awesomest show ever, then you'd know who is who. If not, I highly suggest you get the DVD and watch it, because it's GREAT! Well, enough of my babbling and rambling. I hope youse guys enjoys this as well as the others! Thanks!

P.S. I own NOTHING from Sons of Anarchy... just my OC's

...Chapter 1...
...My Beginning...

Sometimes, I don't know why I do the things that I do. I must have a knack for it, for fucking things up, because I've done something really stupid that I can't take back, and it's gonna be stuck with me forever.

I was born and raised in Charming, California to Roger and Julie Shaw in March of 1980, but actually I'm the middle child. My brother Mike was born in 1975, then there's me, Jaylin, and our little sister Nicole, born in 1984. After I turned five, Dad became part of the towns motorcycle club, SAMCRO, which means Sons of Anarchy Motorcycle Club, Redwood Original.

Mom and Dad always got into fights over his involvement with the club. Everytime they fought, I'd stay at Jax's house, because he was my best friend, plus Gemma was my godmother. After Nicole turned six, she lost her best friend Tommy, and Jax lost his little brother to the family flaw.

Three years later, John Teller died from a semi accident and Jax was a mess, but being a good best friend, I never left his side. All of that changed, when Jax got into his sophmore year of high school and started to notice Tara Knowles. That same year, the parental units got a divorce, but since I was fifteen, I got to choose who I wanted to live with, and of course I picked my dad, I wasn't gonna leave Jax behind. So Mom, Nicole, and Mike moved to Los Angeles, and since Mike wasn't a big fan of the club either, he joined the LAPD. With my involvement with the club, he doesn't really talk to me anymore, but what the fuck ever.

In 1997, it was a good year for me. I got accepted into USC and Tara left Jax and went to Chicago. Apparently, she couldn't handle the 'MC' life, but she broke his heart, but I got my best friend back. As Jax and I got closer, I didn't go to USC after graduation, I stayed in Charming with Jax and did some online classes and went to a community college in Stockton.

The day I became Jax's Old Lady, two things happened. One- I lost my virginity to him and two- he took me out to get the infamous crow tattoo, in the middle of my upper back. That was my first tattoo and it hurt like hell, but I knew I'd want a lot more.

A year later, my world came crashing down, when Dad died. All I know is, he was at the wrong place at the wrong time, and I never found out what happened to him. When Gemma and I were planning his funeral, she suggested he be buried next to Tommy, and I agreed.

After that, I ended up getting the house, Mom got remarried and moved with her new husband Mark to Florida with Nicole and by that time, Mike got promoted to a detective for the LAPD. Just awesome.

When Opie went to Chino, I helped out Donna with the kids and I told Jax that we should take a little break. He took it as a 'break up' and he ended it completely. I was heartbroken and hurt, but eventually I got over it, and we remained best friends.

Now we're in the present, my cousin Nate moved in with me and he's a prospect with Half Sack, Opie got out of Chino, and Tara's back from Chicago, plus Jax knocked up his ex wife - crow eater Wendy, and I did something really stupid two and a half months ago. I didn't mean for it to happen, but shit happens when you get drunk, the night of the anniversary of your fathers death, and you get comforted by your new best friend. Ugh! I can't believe this is happening.

I just got off the plane from visiting Mom, Mark, and Nicole in Florida for three weeks, but after two weeks, I had to cut my visit short when I got the call from Gemma that Wendy had Abel prematurely because of crank and Jax would need his best friend. That stupid bitch, I wanna punch her in the face for putting Abel's life in danger. I think after Jax finds out what's going on with me, he's going to hate me forever, and I may have to take a trip back to Florida, but we'll see what happens.

As I was walking to the baggage claim in LAX, I saw Nate, Chibs, and Juice waiting for me. Chibs ran up and gave me a hug, swinging me around. "Welcome back, Love." I laughed, because Chibs was so adorable. After Dad died, I became close to him, like a father figure, since he isn't in touch with his own daughter, I fill that void that's missing in his life.

"Hey Chibs."

He put me down and kissed me on my cheek. "We've missed you."

"I wasn't gone that long and my trip was even cut short, I had a whole week to go."

"So how's Aunt Julie and everyone?"

I looked over at Nate. "Mom is fine, Mark is pretty cool, and Nicole is doing good, she might come visit us."

"Cool." Nate nodded.

Chibs smacked Nate on his shoulder blade. "Come on, Prospect, let's get Jay's luggage." Nate nodded again, leaving me with Juice. Um... awkward.

A minute later, Juice spoke. "So... since you're back, you gonna keep ingoring me?"

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"Riiiiiight, it seems like ever since 'that' night, you've been avoiding me. Aside from the two weeks you've been gone, we haven't even hung out that much."

I groaned. "I haven't been avoiding you." out of the corner of my eye, I saw Chibs and Nate walking up with my suitcases, then I glanced back at Juice. "I just want to get home and get some sleep. I'm tired and jet lagged." he just nodded and looked away.

"We got your luggage, Love."

"Thanks." I smiled at Chibs. "Let's go." then as we went into the parking garage, I saw our transportation. "Gemma's Escalade, huh?"

"We needed a big car." Nate said, getting in the drivers seat.

"Oh." I nodded, then got into the back seat. Seconds later, Juice got in the back with me as Chibs got into the passenger seat, so I shook my head and closed my eyes, when Nate drove off. Wow, this ride back home will be awesome.

A/N: Okay, there's the first chapter. It's a little short, but I hope you like it, because it's gonna be a little different. But enjoy kiddies and as always R&R! Thanks :-D