AN: Gooooooooooooooooooood evening my Imperial Storm Army! New story! And right after the last one. Wow. Sometimes I take a night off just reset myself and such, but mostly my newer fics come out the next night. So here's the next! This one was the winner in my little coin game. I just write down the titles of the stories and I toss coin on the titles, sometimes the one with the most coins win and others the one with the least amount wins. This time the one with the most amount of coins won and this was it! By the way, any mommies and/or daddies out there, my little coin game is great for kids! It can help them with decision making and such. For example, if your kids don't know what they want for dinner, just write out some options and let them toss the coins! I did this with kids I use to babysit, and they loved it! So give it a try sometime! Now I've done these type of fics multiple times, but I can't help it! They're awesome, like kid fics. Kid fics rock! I love them! Especially if it's Sammy. *squee* Alright enough. Let's get going shall we!

Summary:During a little separation Sam's turned into a German Shepherd and needs to get switch back. He finds Dean and spends a month with him not knowing the dog is Sam. When Castiel reveals the truth, Dean let's his mouth get to the better of him and Sam runs away and winds up getting hurt very badly. As he lays dying in front of his mother's grave he prays Dean will be happy and move on. Can Dean realize how important Sam is to him? Or is it too late? Season 4 AU!

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Sam the Stray

Sam sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose to help relieve some of the pain of the on coming migraine. He had taken a few aspirin but they weren't really helping him. Not at all. If he was still with Dean, he could've had access to the stronger meds, but Dean always kept the medicine kit with him in his duffle.

But he and Dean weren't together right now. No they had separated after a huge about Ruby. But the things said about Ruby weren't the reason that caused the separation. Nope. It was something else. Something that Sam never imagine.

About a week earlier

"She's not good for you Sammy! Don't you see she's using you!" Dean shouted.

"What about your pet angel?! You don't think he's using you?!" Sam shouted back.

"He's not a pet, and no! Why would he? He's an angel!" Dean asked frustrated. "For God's sake Sammy, you'd know that if you'd talk to him!"

"I can't! He hates me! I'm an abomination to him and maybe to all angels!" Sam shouted angrily.

"He might not be the only that thinks that." Dean huffed.

"What?" Sam asked shocked. Did his brother think he was an abomination?

"You're sleeping with a demon a Sam and drinking her blood! Who does that?! A monster." Dean said with absolute anger and there was a hint of hatred.

Sam couldn't believe his ears. His brother thought he was a monster. An abomination. He couldn't breathe, think, or even move.

"You should've killed me." Sam whispered.

"What?" Dean asked.

"You should've killed me." Sam said louder. "You should've killed me when you had the chance! Hell, I practically begged you too! And you wouldn't! You said you couldn't, but that was a lie too wasn't it? You never cared! Not about me! Jeez, you love the Impala more than me! But why shouldn't you? She's perfect. I'm nothing to you."

Sam let a few tears lose and swiftly packed up while Dean stood there stunned. Sam didn't even say goodbye, just left. Vanished into the night without a trace.

Sam shook his head. He sighed sadly to himself. He knew his dad hated him, but Dean? Who was he kidding. Now that he thought about it, he probably only cared for him because their father ingrained it into his brain, and made it his duty.

Sam sighed again more tearfully this time. He was unloved.

"Maybe I should just end it myself?" Sam asked himself.

He jumped a mile when his phone rang. He had gotten rid of his old phone and got a new one so Dean or anyone else could find him. Not even Ruby. But he was wrong. Apparently, Bobby had gotten a hold of his new number and was trying to get him to come home. But Sam over and over, told him he had no home. Not anymore. Castiel had attempts to contact him, but Sam flat refused to speak to him. Then Dean got a hold of his number and left messages, but he couldn't bring himself to listen to them. He was afraid they held more hateful words. So he ignored them. His heart couldn't handle another break. So he stayed away from everyone and walked alone.

"I feel like a stray dog." Sam said to himself again. He huffed. "I am a stray dog."

Sam closed his eyes as the pounding got worse. He had just finished a hunt with a witch and she blew some strange powder on him. As soon as he got back to the motel, he showered and hit the laundry mat to wash his clothes.

After an hour he got slammed with this headache. And now it was blinding. He laid down and prayed he could fall asleep soon. He was so tired. He wanted to sleep a week.

'Please go away pain, please.' Sam thought to himself.

About half an hour later Sam had managed to drift off into restless sleep. All he dreamt about was Dean and the rest of his family torturing him and breaking him. The nightmares were relentless and lasted all through the night.

Sam had no comfort, no big brother to hold him and tell it was alright, no Bobby to tell him he was an idjit and they were just dreams, but mostly, he had no love.

Sam howled in pain as he came awake. The nightmares were too much.

Alrighty guys and gals! There's the first chapter for ya! I hate myself so much right now, but it's necessary to the story.

Until Next Time! *grounds Dean* Dammit Dean.