I'm Afraid.
'Letter to you'
'I'm sorry about this but I can't take this anymore. I'm to insecure, to afraid and to strange to live this life. I don't now what's wrong with me, but I do know that there isn't anyone's fault. I am who I am, and sadly, I can't change that. All the time I'm having a lump in my stomach. I'm always afraid of doing the wrong thing so that nobody would like me. I want to be like my friends, be able to get out on parties, and have fun, maybe drink a little, but I'm afraid of that to! I'm afraid of alcohol… I love my life, but I can't deal with this part of it. So I'm sorry to do this against my family, my loving mother, brother and sister. I will see you in a better world. I will always love you all, and please take care of mimi now when I'm gone! Please don't be mad at me… I love you….
Love Jolene'
I putted the letter in the envelope, put that one on the kitchen table, and then I took my medication, but this time I didn't follow the dose. I took ten times more than I use to. Because I was to tired of this life. I went upstairs, got in to my bed, closed my eyes and drifted away.