chapter 1- my beginning

*okay, well this is my FIRST fan fiction so be nice (: and don't kill me for what im doing. soo, when i started writing this story i just kinda started and it went from there. Then my friend gave me a very grand ideer. soo, this story is based on the movie 'The Lovely Bones' but with my own twist. again please don't hate me. lastly. find 'Rachellovesyou6' her stories are awe-stuck! lol read && review. ThAnKs! (:

name- Clare D. Edwards

gender-female

Date Of Birth- June 15, 1995

height/weight- 5'3~ 127

eye color-blue

hair color- reddish, brown, or auburn

Cause of death- over dose of drugs and alcohol.

My name is Clare Edwards. I was born June 15, 1995. I was 15 years old, when I died, or should I say, killed myself. Now you are wondering 'why?'. Well here you have it.

The first day of school is what changed my life forever. My sophomore year. The year of love, trust, heartbreak, and death. Of course i didn't expect anything out of the 'norm' to happen that year. But a person can be wrong. I found my best friend, and the love of my life, and a new 'disliking' for some people *cough Fitz cough cough*

But this is how my story begins...

It was the first day of school, and like-almost-every kid, I was NOT excited at all. School, 3 more years in this dump, homework, and other girls drama i have to listen to. I groaned before rubbing my eyes and getting out of bed. After i got dressed and did my hair and make-up i went down-stairs to eat.

"So, are you excited for your first day of school?" My mother asked after I put a piece of wheat bread into the toaster and grabbing the butter from the fridge.

"Oh yeah, real excited. I just can't wait" I said sarcasticly. My mother just laughed a little while sipping at her coffee. The toaster then dinged and the half burnt-just the way i like it- toast came out. I grabbed a plate and butter knife placing the toast on the plate and buttered it.

I quickly ate my toast as we headed out the front door to my mothers car. By the time we were halfway to school i had finished my toast. We soon arrived to Degrassi High School.

"Okay honey. have a good day" she said while i was getting out of the car. I just sighed and waved of a little for my response. I turned around and started walking up the steps of Degrassi. As i was walking through the halls i spotted my best-friend Alli walking towards me.

"Alli!" i yelled loud enough for her to hear. "Clare!" she yelled back running, almost sprinting, towards me. "Oh God Clare! It feels like it has been forever since the last time i saw you!" she said giving me a hug. "I know! We need to hang out, Like, Right after school" i said hugging her back. we ended the hug and she said

"Sure thing Clare, The Dot?" she asked "of course" i said. i smiled and waved at her as we went to our separate classes. My next class what adv. English, Mrs. Dawes, my favorite teacher. I have had her my freshman year, for my first semester. When I got to my class I noticed I was the first person there. I walked into the class and greeted Mrs. Dawes. She smiled brightly at me as I walked away to pick a seat. After, like, two minutes kids started coming in, one by one. I recognized some faces but most of them i had no clue who they were. 'Great' I said to myself. When half the class came in one kid caught my eye. he was walking slowly to the side of the classroom that i was on. he was wearing all black-unlike the others, they were wearing very colorful clothing- black pants, black shirt that says something like dead hand? oh! Dead Hand like the band. He had on thick wrist bands and his hair was even black, well more like a really, really, dark brown, but who's looking? When he got close enough you could see his eyes. Wow. Those eyes, I don't even know the guy and his eyes are to die for. Before he sat down he looked down at me and gave me this half smile *cough sexy cough, what?* like a smirk, another thing to die for. What am i some kind of stalker? Psht no, not me.

For class all Mrs. Dawes did was talk about 'expectations' and stuff we were going to be doing this year. This is why i HATE the first day of school. All you do is sit and listen, maybe do a easy worksheet but thats never fun. The first day of school never seems to end. I glanced at the clock. What the.. ughh. It has only been like 15 minutes in the class so far and it already felt like a whole frickin school day. After awhile I started dosing off and the next thing you knew you heard the bell indicating to go to their next class. i got up and accidently bumped into the guy dressed in black.

"Oh.. um... sorry..." i said in a whisper looking down. ''Come on Clare is it really that hard to say 'sorry''. well it is when there is a cute guy standing in front of you.. snap out of it Clare!'

"It's fine" he said smirking at me. As I was just about to walk around him he said something "the name's Eli" he said once again smirking at me. "Clare" I said looking down at my feet to hide the blush creeping up on my already light pink cheeks. "See you around?"

"s-sure" i stuttered. He smirked and walked away from me. I waited a few moments before walking out myself. 'Nice going Clare, mind as well wear a cone on your head.. stupid, stupid, stupid' I said to myself walking to my next class. The rest of the day i could not concentrate on anything but our- if you want to call it- conversation.

After school-finally- i meet up with Alli at The Dot. We ate burgers and fries while telling each other about our summers and today. I did not have much to say counting on all the so called 'fun' i had during summer-reading, writing, babysitting for my aunt fun right?- but Alli all she was is busy... 'I went here' and 'I went there' i don't see how she made all of the activities she did fit into one summer. I would of had spent my summer with Alli if she was'nt my only-real-friend and she was'nt so busy.

*okay, good... i hope so? i was up like all night writing this soo dont judge me if its bad (: thats bout it* read && review.. not haters please (: ThAnKs! (: