Disclaimer: Oh how I wish I owned it… sadly I do not

I stand.

I stand and I look.

I stand and I look and I wonder which McWhoever I should choose.

I could choose the vet. He's sweet, I know straight up that he likes me, and he has plans. He knows where he's going, and he knows what he wants. He's predictable, he's cute, and he's safe.

Then there is my McDreamy. My McDreamy. He drives me insane, he's confusing, and mind boggling, and heart breaking. He is very, very unpredictable, and he has his set obligations. He has no plans, and he e is all over the place…but I am all kinds of in love with him.

The vet would treat me right. He would buy me gifts and shower me with attention. He would whisper words of kindness when I was down, and would cook me dinner at his place in the evening. Finn would list his plans for the future, and would think ahead of what was to come. He has been patient, and has thus far tolerated my currently broken vow of celibacy. Our relationship would be consistent and satisfied, and, most importantly, I would feel safe knowing that Finn would never do anything to hurt me.

Derek is the opposite. He would have no patience. He would take me wherever I wanted to go. He would set up a picnic dinner overlooking our famous Seattle fairy boats. We would talk, not about the future, but about our lives, and about our days, and about whatever was going on in that particular fraction of time. There would be ups and downs. We would have our fights and our mind blowing fits of rage. We would have our outstandingly hot sex, and we would be completely content with our wild and crazy relationship… because in the end, our love would conquer all.

So as I'm standing and looking and wondering whom to pick, it strikes me that my life is, in fact, quite humorous. I have the life in which movies are based on. I have unintentionally created, and have been stuck in, numerous love triangles, and even some squares. My father left me as a young child, and my mother has been physically present but emotionally absent for the majority of the duration of my life. I have drama… the word that the film business yearns for. I am a walking movie real, and the scenes are playing out in my mind before they actually occur. And as I realize this, I also realize that I have left two gorgeous men standing blindly in front of me, fighting silently for me… and it is I who has the choice to pick either one for my satisfaction.

Suddenly, I know who I want. Just like that, I know who to choose. A smile lights up on my face as I walk towards him, towards my future. And as he takes my hand in his, I know that I have made the right decision… finally. Though tempting, I do not look behind me at the man whose heart I may have just broken. I have made my decision, and there is no turning back from here.

Oh gosh… that finale blew me away. I almost cry each time I recall the events in my head. Like wow… who else was amazed?