I don't know what's gotten into me… to think of this kind of plot...M rated one too. I never even wrote M-rated FF for VK and never dreamed that I will ever write one for DGM, but I don't want to go crazy because this idea is stuck in my head!
Actually this idea was for "Illusion of Existence" for one of the later chapters. But I think the character would turn out OOC, but then again…if I write it as comedy not angst it would be okay. Even though I really…doubt my ability in writing humor…sorry if it's not funny...I am horrible at it, it's long but you will not regret it(hopefully)...sorry if you do...
And thanks for xPrime for fix all mistake in this story, I am so grateful!
Enjoy the show (I mean story)!!!
Gentleman = 'Patient wolf?'
Chapter 1: Introduction to world of guys(?)
That afternoon was a peaceful one despite the ongoing war. It was a rare time for the female exorcists in the Order such as me, Miranda and General Cloud to spend some quality time together and chat about girly stuff. The three of us, as female exorcists, spent most of our time in the battlefield alongside our male comrades after all. But this time Miranda was nowhere to be seen in the lounge where we sat, she had a mission in Brazil and she would be back soon. So the only girls left were General Cloud and I, and we were chatting as we waited for Miranda. It was fun to chat with her, and as a female exorcist I can't help but admire her. She was sitting in a couch holding a glass of wine across the sofa where I was sitting with a book in hand –which was completely forgotten-.
"So Lenalee, what kind of guy is Allen?" Cloud asked as she sipped her wine, her eyes glancing at the younger exorcist.
"Allen-kun? Why do you ask, general?" I found it strange that she suddenly asked about Allen-kun; they didn't have much contact after all. Especially since he was under surveillance and was the busiest exorcist, he has double role as exorcist and musician after all. Central always gave him jobs all over the world so he can open more gates. Even I haven't seen him for 3 weeks.
"Well…I am just curious about what kind of apprentice…Cross has. Well, you know what I mean…"
"Yes…" I replied shortly, General Cloud's curiosity was normal. All the generals knew each other well, and if you think of Cross' personality... Well, I don't like to talk bad about other people, but General Cross… just look at what Allen-kun has been through as his apprentice… it's a miracle that he's still alive and sane even though he has some sort of Black aura sometimes when reminded of his scarring experiences with General Cross. I can imagine Allen-kun as an innocent child who loves his father but after he became General Cross's apprentice…well…who can imagine an innocent child being a professional gambler/cheater?
"He is not the quiet guy like Kanda who doesn't give a damn about women; It's not hard to imagine Kanda as a lone samurai wolf. His favorite quote is 'I don't need anyone in my life especially women'.
He's not the chirpy one like Lavi either, who will fool around with any girl as long as she's his 'type'. Let's forget about your brother…because there is a good chance he will stay single for a long time, or at least till he gets rid of his crazy sister complex. But he would be a nice guy if his crazy Komurin series didn't exist. The other guys from science department are…also the same, nice but weird…in a way… but maybe Reever is ok…"
Wow…General Cloud sure has a lot of experience when it comes to guys. And knowledge too, if you can count it as that. I can't believe she can actually list all the types of guys that existed in home, and quite accurately too!
"Ha ha ha…well you're right General…." I replied, since I had no idea what to say about her long list of guys.
"Oh my…I guess I was babbling too much, did I bore you?" She said as she gazed at me with her right eye, the one uncovered by her hair
"No, General, not at all. It's actually kinda interesting…" I wasn't sure what got into me to make me think this topic was an interesting one. Whatever the reason was, I enjoyed talking about it. It was like she was helping me explore other sides of the guys I know.
"Is that so? Well, back to my question…what kind of guy…is Allen Walker?"
"Erm…" Somehow I felt like she was interrogating me, and that made me a little nervous. "He is a gentleman…" I spoke the first thing that popped up in my head when I thought of my white-haired friend.
"Gentleman…Hmm…" General Cloud said in a mocking tone for some reason.
"He is kind…too kind, selfless, friendly, determined, loyal, serious, emotional but never outspoken, mature beyond his years even though he can be childish when arguing with Kanda." I knew him for less than a year, but when it came to his personality, his…feelings, somehow I can understand what's on his mind. Maybe because our personalities are similar?
"Men can be as childish as a whining 5 year old kid when they are fighting… but that is also some kind of bonding between them." I guess General Cloud is right, the frequency of Allen and Kanda's fights increased along with their friendship. But if I tell them, Allen and Kanda would refuse to acknowledge the fact that they are closer now.
"So Lenalee…Allen Walker is a gentleman?"
"Can't think of a better word to describe him…" I replied shortly.
"Anything else? I know you have more than that when it comes to that boy." I was fighting the heat creeping up to my face. That remark made my heart skip a couple of beats. The hidden meaning in General Cloud's statement made me feel that way, it was like she was telling me that I am obsessed with Allen-kun.
"It's not like that…General Cloud… We're just…"
"I understand, just friends…right? So…can we continue where we left off?" She said as she smiled mockingly, General Cloud was teasing me and enjoying it! What have I gotten myself into?
"Err… I have nothing to say anymore." Please, please, just switch topics. Miranda, please…come back soon! I need you!
"Oh…really? So basically Allen Walker is a gentleman, well Cross is the wild wolf type…so…"
"Wolf? Why wolf…" I asked, forgetting my earlier worries. I don't know how but the word sparked my interest again.
"The best way to describe the animalistic side of a man is as a wolf…" She said seductively.
"Hmph…" I stopped myself from bursting out laughing as I imagined all the guys I knew in my life with wolf ears and tail, especially Komui-nii, Kanda, Lavi, and the others. But Allen-kun…a wolf? No, maybe puppy ears and tail suit him better?
"No no no…young lady, don't think of it as something funny. Or think that a cute guy like Walker would be better described as a puppy instead!" She said as she waved her forefinger to emphasize her point. I stopped laughing. How come she was so close to the truth? Am I that obvious? I wasn't thinking of Allen as a puppy but…I did think about the puppy ears and tail.
"I wasn't thinking about that General Cloud! Really…" I was denying it even though I know my denial is going to be useless. She's reading me like an open book. God, this is so embarrassing.
"Is that so…okay…so Lenalee…let me tell you something about men, including 'gentlemen'…" She said, her tone laced with excitement and a mocking tone at the word 'gentlemen'. She was making me sweat all over.
"To make it short let me use the master and his apprentice as example, Cross Marian and Allen Walker." I gulped, this trivial topic was as important as a war in my mind now. And the glint in General Cloud's eye wasn't helping.
"Yes…"
"All guys are wolves, no exception…after they hit puberty…they are wolves! And for them…we are the delicious lamb…"
"Erm…" She made it sound like a woman was a man's meal…Is it me or is this topic getting odder and odder by the second.
"I believe that Allen Walker has already grown up from an innocent puppy into a wolf…" I had no comment about that since I had no idea at all. I was clueless to the point of frustration. "Cross like I said before is a 'wild wolf' that loves to satisfy his desire with many lambs, he is smart and he lures the innocent lamb with all his might…using even his bad side as charm. If you know his past and all the debts and womanizing it's a bit challenging for him to lure you…at least for other women…well he's got no effect on me, he's just a stupid womanizer!" She said, and then her intense gaze pointed at me, her lips curving into a smirk which sent shivers down my body.
"And then…Allen Walker, a gentleman…what kind of wolf is he…hmm…?"
"General…I don't think Allen can be described as wolf or anything like that! He is too kind and pure, I never saw him acting like Lavi or General Cross!" As soon as my lips stopped moving, General Cloud smirked again and sipped her red wine.
"Well…of course not, we are talking about an English gentleman after all. I believe that Allen Walker always treats you like a princess, warm smile, polite speak…all the traits that make us unable to deny that he is kind…too kind."
"Soo, does that mean that a gentleman is a…kind wolf" I knew it sounded a little lame, but that was my conclusion if General Cloud agrees with me. But to my great surprise she just burst out laughing till she was shaking to control it, it wasn't that funny right?
"Sorry Lenalee…but… for us, there is no such thing as a kind wolf. But…you can consider a gentleman's patience as kindness I guess…"
I blinked, "Patience…? Kind…?" I'm not sure how dumb I looked but I was sure that I'm confused as hell.
"A gentleman…has another title, 'patient wolf'! That's what I wanted to tell you, Lenalee…It's important, especially for an inexperienced girl like you!" I was quiet, my brain was trying to digest the phrase 'patient wolf', and was failing miserably.
"Gentleman…the patient wolf would patiently and slowly lick their prey, until you're enchanted. You will be trapped…in other words fall in love like crazy…" She said, twirling her blonde hair.
"Wha…what?" I gasped, so…
"So the conclusion is…a gentleman is one of the most dangerous predators…patiently waiting for his prey to surrender…and willingly let themselves be eaten by him…"
"Eaten…?" I was wishing I had no clue about the meaning, half lying to myself that it meant the actual eating activities… it meant Allen-kun's most favorite activity next to saving people… it meant stuffing something into your mouth, something edible! I had to stuff my brain with all the possible denial to prevent that phrase from sinking into my mind and giving me crazy images that were making me...
"You know what I mean…Le-na-lee…" General Cloud whispered to my right ear, since when was she this close?! She distanced herself from me chuckling softly.
"I don't…" I knew my voice was trembling and my face as red as it could ever get and then some, so my denial was useless.
"No…you know…"
"I have no clue…"
"Whatever…at least I know, so Lenalee…I guess that boy really indulged you with his kindness, gentlemanly manner and sweet, innocent words? Does that mean it's okay with you to be eaten by him?" I was spacing out for the last three lines but now I was wide awake. But, surely Allen-kun had no hidden intentions, right?
"General Cloud…Allen is younger than me, he even told me that 'I was like a nee-san' So he'll probably never see it that way." Allen was the youngest of the exorcists before Timothy came, he still took care of me and sometimes I forgot that he's the only boy who was younger than me. Even though I'm only one year older, I can be his nee-san instead of lover.
"I thought Cross told me that boy was adopted, abandoned…so 15 years old is only a guess…but he is around that age. He maybe as old as you are, and it's not that weird for a man to love a woman older than him, it's just one year anyway…"
"I believe…" I heard that too, 25 December is not his birthday but the day he was adopted by Mana. Maybe his real age wasn't 15 but...still...
"He is not like that…right, but Lenalee…No matter how impossible it is for you to imagine that he has an animalistic side, he's still a guy…"
"But…but…"
"No buts young lady…in fact you're slowly falling for him…"
"What?" I had just cooled down in the last few minutes but now the heat came back to my face in a heartbeat and I could feel my face flushing like crazy. I stood unconsciously, breathing in short, ragged gasps . "No…I-I am not! R-Really…! We're just…friends!" I half shouted.
"Okay...then can you explain why you look redder than a tomato, and I can see smoke from your head...Lenalee, there is a limit for denial, especially if it's about your feelings. Your attachment to him is growing with each passing day..." She stopped but judging from her eyes, she had no intention to free me just yet.
"Maybe you have been dreaming about him? No…?" I can't deny that one, but it wasn't so much of a dream, more like a nightmare of the apocalypse. Suddenly General Cloud's forefinger was on my left cheek, and her smile kinda…evil????
"Imagine his hands cupping your face and giving you a passionate kiss?" Then the finger went lower and lower until it was at the base of my neck, dancing around making an O shape. "His tongue licking your neck gently…or maybe some wet kisses? And then…" I was frozen in place as those words slowly sank into my mind and I was trying to kick away all the wrong mental images that were bouncing around in my head.
"I know you can guess what that boy would do to your lower parts but… I can tell you if you…" At this point I was hoping to have some sanity left after this is all over and… please free me from this torture! The mental images are killing me! I can feel all the wrong reactions in my body because of that crazy image! Somebody….!!!
Next Morning (Lenalee's room)
I awoke in the morning at 6 AM as usual; I was one of the few early risers. It was a good habit and I was proud of it. Although all of that pride disappeared shortly after I left my room and I was cursing that good habit of mine as I ran into the last person I wanted to see after yesterday's… conversation. Yes, he happened to be another rare early riser just like me…unfortunately…he is…
"Hi! Ohayo, Lenalee…" Who happened to be in front of my door was Allen Walker. He must have been on the way to the cafeteria to inhale his Allen-sized breakfast. What caught my eyes was his training shirt. He said it was from the China branch. The design, for some unknown and cruel reason exposes his abs, and sometimes he wears it instead of the one from HQ which covers everything. Why did he have to wear it today? He just made my mind's gears work in the wrong direction again, and the memory of yesterday's conversation wasn't helping.
"Hm…Lenalee?" I snapped from my thoughts when I heard my name, and I realized that his face was inches from mine. I jerked back and slammed my head into the door behind me.
"Aww!" I rubbed my head, it looks like I stepped back with all my power. I felt so dizzy.
"Lenalee, are you okay?" Allen asked, his voice and face full of concern. It was so foolish of me believing General Cloud's theory would apply to every single man on earth. Allen-kun is Allen-kun, always a pure-hearted boy.
"Yes…I am fine, I was spacing out so…" Then I felt his hands cupping my face, he has done this before but…but…'Imagine his hands cupping your face and giving you a passionate kiss?' No! Forget what General Cloud said yesterday! He won't kiss me or anything!
"Really? You shouldn't be spacing out like that…" Then he brought his head to my neck, his hands rested in my shoulders. 'His tongue licking your neck gently…or maybe some wet kisses? And then…' It can't be. He will not do anything! I could feel my face flushing and my breath hitched. It was what I said to myself but his breath on my neck and ear disagreed. "You hit the door quite hard…Lenalee, you sure you didn't hurt your back or your head?" He said and then he released my shoulders, looking straight to my eyes as usual. He only worried about me, but what I was thinking!?
"Sorry…" I apologized to the clueless boy in front of me, I turned my gaze down since I couldn't see his face.
"For what? Lenalee, you are so funny…" He chuckled softly, somehow it felt…angelic. "You didn't do anything wrong…"
"S-Sorry…I am just…"
"Sorry? Again? Lenalee…I don't know why you're apologizing to me but whatever the reason is…I will always forgive you!" 'I guess that boy really indulged you with his kindness, gentlemanly manner and sweet, innocent words?'
"Uhm…thank you…"
"If you are okay, let's go to the cafeteria…Lenalee." He said as smiled, I really couldn't get General Cloud's words out of my head. I felt really guilty thinking that way about him.
"Okay…"
Lenalee's Room 7 PM
I sat on my bed, thinking of what happened this morning and yesterday. I couldn't blame General Cloud for messing with my mind, I just couldn't think of it as a joke. But my current self thinks otherwise… Allen-kun is surely a perfect gentleman, but that doesn't mean that he is a 'patient wolf' too! Well…his black side sure fits the wolf image… No! Let's just forget all the things that happened yesterday except that I owe Miranda for her amazing appearance…
Flashback
"I know you can guess what that boy would do to your lower parts but… I can tell you if you……want! You need to know because there is a limit of patience even for a patient wolf like Allen Wal…" Before she could say more, Miranda entered the room in tears. Her sobs were loud and stole our attention.
"I am sorry!!! Did I interrupt your conversation? Sorry!!!" She yelled as her tears became a waterfall. Then she kneeled like a servant begging for punishment for her horrible sins.
"No…Miranda…welcome back" Thanks God! And you too Miranda!!!
"I deserve to die! I messed up again!!!"
"Calm down Miranda…a mistake is not the end of the world!" General Cloud said, I was elated that her attention was finally directed at someone other than me.
"I accidentally broke Marie's earphone!!! I'm really…sorry!!!" Her sobs grew louder.
"You should say that to Marie! Not us!" General Cloud said as she covered her ears.
"But…he said its okay! But he didn't look like he forgave me….!!!"
"It's because your voice is too loud for him to hear without the earphone…" I felt sorry for Miranda but…Marrie surely suffered more…his ears were very sensitive.
End of flashback
Yesterday if it wasn't for Miranda… if General Cloud continued the conversation…I may have already lost my sanity when I saw Allen-kun. I have to stop thinking about wolves and gentlemen! Yes, like General Cloud said he spoiled me with his kindness, gentlemanly manner, and innocent sweet words. I always think of him as a precious comrade, part of my world just like all the people in Black Order. I know I can't deny he conquered more and more of my world, became a bigger part of it. But that doesn't mean he is someone that I would see in any other way. Then again, I spent seven years with Kanda, four years with Lavi, but I wasn't attached to them to the point of dreaming about them. There must be some kind of bond between us…
"What am I thinking!? I am not someone special for him!" As I said these words I felt like a needle had penetrated my heart.
Even if…General Cloud was right, he will not do anything to me. I am just a friend…partner in battle…nee-san…somehow the last title sounded worse than friend and partner.
I laid down on the mattress, gazing at my ceiling. My hands cupped my face, it felt cold unlike his warm hands. My right forefinger grazed my lips, the skin on my lips felt so soft…I wondered how it would feel when touched with someone else's? With Allen-kun's like General Cloud said?
'Imagine his hands cupping your face then give you a passionate kiss?'
I blushed at the image that came into my mind, but no longer condemned myself for imagining it. I can't help but wonder…
'His tongue licking your neck gently…or some wet kisses?
I ran my left hand down my face, shivered as my cold finger touched my warm neck. How it would feel if soft lips planted on my neck? My hand instinctively went south to my chest…before I could wonder about anything else I snapped myself back to reality.
"I am not someone special for him…he will never touch me that way…" I said to myself, it was right. In the past he hugged me because I needed it, to calm me down. He touched my face to see straight to my eyes, to wipe my tears. Held my hand gently to help me walk, he led me in a gentlemanly manner. All because he is kind…and because he is a 'gentleman'
'A gentleman…has another title, 'patient wolf'!
"Not that again…patient wolf?"
Knock, Knock, Knock…
I almost jumped as I was awakened from my musings, but the voice that I heard after that was what gave me a real shock.
"Lenalee…are you there? I have something to talk about with you…" The gentle voice said, I knew that voice.
"A..A..Allen-kun?"
Congrats! For people who manage to read till the end!!! It's so long...this is the longest chapter I ever wrote so far...I am still thinking of next plot and when the lemon scene would be *evil grin* you waiting for that, right? I never wrote one but I will try my best...BTW the idea of Gentleman is patient wolf came from a book...its someone's quote...and that rang bell in my mind. Too bad my cousin forgot where she put that book so...I don't know the author of it.
For VK readers I believe you will think patient wolf fit Kaname better than Allen...yeah I agree but... I am still thinking of VK version of this story...
I will update my other story soon! I need to write other thing to get new idea for other story (weird habit)
Chapter 2 of "Illusion of existence": preview (if it can be called that) "Don't you think God made a wise...decision? To the point a hitsuji (sheep) went against his undeniable fate?" whose voice keep echoing on my mind, my left hand was trembling in excitement. As if resonated with something. (Allen)
"Allen! You will die if you meet your doppelganger! I am not lying! Really!" (Lavi)
"Allen-kun...can you explain why you're behaving strangely...and also...*cough* your hand was..." (Lenalee)
"It's not on purpose! It was an accident! Sorry Lenalee!" (Allen...)
and I believe you wonder about what Lenalee said about Allen's hand LOL so let make this as a quiz till my next update around 2 weeks or 3 weeks later...about Allen's hand...perverted mind needed to answer correctly LOL ^0^
Please review because I need it for inspiration, for faster next chapter...flames are welcome as long as it doesn't mean to kill me...T_T