Disclaimer: All characters are owned by the amazing Stephenie Meyer. And this idea is all mine.
Hope
By: Fireworks and Glitter
Renesmee POV
As I now sit by my window, I think about my family.
We are a family of vampires, well excluding me. My name is Renesmee Cullen and I am the 'baby' of the family. Well that's what everyone says. I am half human half vampire. I was born when my mother, Bella, was still human. My dad, Edward, managed to save both me and my mom, changing mom into a vampire in the process. We came to know from Nahuel, another half-breed like me, that when I would be around 7 years old, I would look to be 17 or 18 and that my aging would stop. I hope it does as I don't want to look like some ugly old lady living with a bunch of youngsters.
I am now 5 years old but look like I'm 16. I can't help but wonder what Jacob thinks of me. Does he think I'm beautiful, does he want to be with me or does he think of me as only a friend? I don't know about him but I know I'm head-over-heels for my werewolf bestfriend. It's been a few months since I've been feeling like this, like there are thousands of butterflies in my tummy whenever I see him. At first, I wasn't sure if this was real or was it just me being too obsessed with Jacob. But now I know my feelings for him are true. Problem is will Jacob love me the way I love him? I'm not so sure about that.
I tried speaking to my Uncle Emmett about this. He is the only person with whom I can share my thoughts other than Jacob and, well, my dad (he's a mind-reader). Uncle Emmett said that there was no way Jacob would not want me, that is unless he had completely lost his mind. I know Uncle Emmett was just trying to cheer me up, but couldn't get why he was smiling like I wasn't aware of something. I thanked him anyway and told him I loved him.
I wonder how Jacob isn't aware of my feelings for him. I swear he can see me blush whenever he compliments me, whether it's my hair or just my sense of humor. If not that, how can he not hear my already-quickened heartbeat racing a million miles per second when he smiles at me or touches me? He is a werewolf with sensitive hearing. He has to know that I'm in love with him. Then does that mean that he knows but chooses to ignore it? That he doesn't feel the same way about me? That would break me beyond repair. Just the thought makes my heart stop beating.
But I can't sit around and do nothing. I have to find out how he feels about me. I've decided to talk to him about this tomorrow morning, even if it means risking our friendship. I can't suffer all alone not knowing if he loves me. I want to be clear about this once and for all. If he does want me I'll be the happiest person on the face of this planet. If he doesn't, well, I don't know what I'm going to do.
'Don't lose hope,' said my father from the doorway. I turned around to face him. 'Maybe he does love you but is too nervous to confess.' Is he trying to tell me he knows the answer to my silent question? He is a mind-reader. He should know. At that thought my dad smiled and gently said, 'Go to bed, Ness. Don't worry anymore or you're gonna get wrinkles.' I laughed at that. It's not possible for me to get wrinkles.
As I now snuggle into my blanket, I think about what dad just said. Maybe Jacob does want me, love me. Maybe I can hope for a future with him. The face of my smiling angel floats before my eyes and then I hear Jacob's voice telling me he loves me. My whole being warms up instantly and then I drift away to my dreamworld.
There's always hope.