Title: Another (1 of 3, maybe)
Pairing: Reid/Lila Lila/Emily Reid/Lila/Emily?
Rating: This Chapter is T, mostly likely will become M, maybe? Check Ratings on each chapter!
(Reid's POV)
Reid can tell she has something on her mind the way she stares at the tv. She's been chewing on her lip for the last fifteen minutes and hasn't laughed one - she usually pokes him with a giggle at the show averagely 3.4 times every half hour they watch.
"You okay?" He asks and she looks at him.
"Yeah, I'm fine."
She turns back to the tv, wanting to end the conversation there, but he knows her better than that.
"Lila." He says and she looks back over at him. She sighs at his look.
"Okay. Promise not to get mad?"
He gives a nod and she moves into his lap, looking straight in his eyes.
"You gotta say it. Say I, Spencer Reid, promise not to be mad."
His lips curl into an amused expression at the seriousness of her voice. It's almost comical, the wide-eyed look, half-pout of her angry red bottom lip that she's been punishing with her teeth for the last quarter hour.
"I, Spencer Reid, promise not to be mad."
"I've been…. Thinking….about someone else."
He leans back in the chair. "Thinking about someone else?"
"Not like that! I mean, I don't want to be with anyone other than you. I love you, but…" She blushes. "Sometimes, when you're sleeping…and I'm….you know, I…I've been thinking about someone else when… well, you know."
He stares. "When you're…."
Her eyes widen. "You know!" She says before her eyes lowers to his lap.
"When you're master-"
"Don't say it…..but yes. Not all the time! Just sometimes…"
"You're thinking about someone else?" He frowns. "And I'm not supposed to be upset about that?"
"I can't help it! It's…. I mean, I don't want to be with…..this person… relationship wise."
"But sexually." He deadpans. "Who is it?" He asks and she lowers her eyes.
"You promise not to be mad?"
"Lila…"
"You promised you wouldn't get mad! I see that nose flair. You're getting angry!"
He breathes out. "I promise I'm not mad and won't get mad if you tell me who."
She bites at her bottom lip again. "I love you, Spence. I do, you got to know that. That's why I'm telling you this. I want us to be honest. We always promised to tell each other everything….and I've never not been faithful. And… And I mean you flirted with that bartender!"
"Yeah, but I never thought about her while I was in the shower."
She raises her eyebrows. "Spence." She warns
He looks at her with a frown. "Fine, but… you're changing the subject. Who is it?"
"One of your teammates." She murmurs and he moves to stand, rolling her off his hips and on to the couch and he gets away.
"You've been thinking about Morgan?" He asks, putting some distance in between them, looking back at her. "I… how can you be attractive to him and me at the same time.. we're totally different! Is that what you want?"
"No!"
"Then why are you thinking about him?" He asks, his voice at the verge of being squeaky. He can't help it. He had always been self-conscious that Lila and he were too different to ever work out and now, she was telling him that she was thinking about Morgan?
"I'm not thinking about him!"
Spencer straightens, confused. "Hotch?"
Lila sits up, looking up at him. "No…"
Reid makes a face. "Rossi? He's like 30 years older than you, Lila!"
"Spence." She starts.
"I mean, I can- I can get it. He's famous too and he's a great profiler and… I mean, your father did leave at early age so it makes -"
"It's Emily, Spencer." She interrupts, hint of annoyance in her voice.
He looks back at Lila, shocked. "E-Emily?"
She chews on her bottom lip. "Yeah…"
He sits in the arm chair. "You…You've been thinking about….Emily….Prentiss?"
She sighs. "Spence, you knew that I liked women. Maggie and I-"
"That was a weekend in college, though. I didn't-didn't… Emily?"
Lila stands up and walks over to him. "Spence.."
She hesitates before moving into his lap again. "I would never try anything, I've been-"
"Try anything? She's not…"
She smirks and he pauses. "What's that face mean? You think she's into women?"
"Please, Spence. She sets off everyone's gaydar."
"Gay…dar?"
She smiles. "It's just… don't worry about it."
He frowns. "But you think that you actually could…"
Her eyebrows rise. "That I could sleep with her?"
He flushes as images of his coworker and his girlfriend enter his head. She laughs, shrugging.
"Well I don't want to sound cocky, but.. I think I could get her in my bed, yeah, but I'm not going to try, because I love you."
"I love you too." He says, the images still flooding his mind.
She touches his cheek. "Are you mad?"
He locks eyes with her, seeing the concerned look and pushes the thoughts out of his head, really thinking about it for a moment. "I can't compete with a woman, Lila."
She smiles, running her fingers over his cheek. "Awe, sweetie. You don't have to. You're the person I want to spend my life with." She kisses him.
"But you…you want her too?"
"I've just… thought about her some. I mean after…Cyrus, you two have been hanging around each other a lot, so…"
"So people you hang out with a lot make it into your fantasies?"
"No! It's…. Come on, Spence. She took a beating so you'd be okay. And she loves you and….well, she always wears those shirts with the plunging necklines and she's got a nice rack!"
He stares at her, wide-eyed. "Lila!"
"You wanted to know!" She says and pout.
"So… her…" He clears her throat. "her rack…is what you like?"
She giggles. "And her lips. She just looks like she'd be a good kisser."
"Oh." The thought of Lila kissing Emily enters his head and it makes him feel strange.
She frowns. "Spence, It's not like… I'm not asking to do anything, I'm just telling you because I thought you should know."
"Asking me to do what?"
She shrugs. "Well…I mean, if you were willing, I could…try and get her….to join us."
His eyes widen. "You mean… in bed?"
She bites her lip. "I would never ask you that, though. I know that you wouldn't be into that, and I-"
"But you'd want that?…If I was into that?"
She pauses, leaning back. "Are you saying you are?"
"No, are you saying that you do want that?"
They stare at each other for a moment before she speaks. "I wouldn't not want that."
"That's a double negative, Lila."
She scrunches her nose at his words. "Spence, it doesn't matter. I made a choice to be with you, and I love you and I'm not going to do anything that you're not comfortable with."
"I want you to be happy though, Lila."
"I am happy, Spence." She kisses his forehead. "I'm very happy with you. I don't need anyone else."
"But you're thinking about her and you want to be with her…."
"If you were okay with it, yeah, why not, but… Spence, I know you-"
"-I want you to be happy."
"So you want me to fuck your friend?" She asks, bluntly.
He blushes at her words. "I-I-uh…"
She laughs and kisses his temple. "Spence, stop it. I didn't bring it up for that. I just wanted you to know. In case… you caught me staring or …I don't know."
"You stare at her? I've never caught your staring."
"I'm an actress." She teasing. "I'm good at hiding things."
He frowns and her eyes flash. "Not that I'm hiding anything. That's why I told you! I wanted to be completely honest."
"Right." He pauses, his mind going over everything they had been discussing. "So…you'd want her to join us in bed?"
She shrugs. "I don't know, Spence. I mean, I was just joking about being able to get her into bed. She might not even want that."
"But if she did?"
"then…. She could join us… or you could watch - I mean, I would never do anything without you being there. We're together. I would never ask you to just go… have sex with someone else…..Are you really thinking about this?"
He shrugs, picking at the drawstring of her sweats. "I don't know. Maybe…. You could talk to her about it and see…. If she would even want that."
"And if she did?" Her fingers go to his chin, raising it to look at her.
"Then, maybe we talk about it again."
"Spence, you don't have to do that. I am perfectly happy with just you. It's just… you know, fantasies. I don't have to fulfill that to be happy."
"I know, but you… you've done things for me."
She smiles. "Because I was comfortable with everything you've asked of me. You wouldn't have been mad with me, if I didn't want to do something, right?"
"Of course not."
"Then you know that I'm not going to be mad about this. I - I've never even thought it was a possibility."
"Well…maybe it is."'
She shakes her head before kissing him. "I love you."
"I love you too."