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(P.S - Oh. And for the 2nd Chapter of Secret Identities, I'm working on it. ;) fear not my dear readers! It will be out soon!)
(P.P.S – I might have to stop writing in about a month's time or so, I have my end of the year exam that I have to mugg for… TT___TT)
Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN CCS, CLAMP OR ITS CHARACTERS!
I met him for the first time when I've just moved out from my class.
There he sat, beside me when the teacher selected our places. Amber-eyes matching well with his chocolate brown hair, he turned away blushing and lied down on his arms as his friends teased him for sitting beside me. I giggled lightly.
"Damn, the teachers are cruel making all the guys sit beside girls."
My impression of him was that he was an awesome and not to mention cute guy. Seeing that I could not make any friends with any girls so far, he shyly asked me whether I wanted to join him for break along with his other guy friends.
As months flew by, we became really good friends that even rumors came about.
When we were taking our annual health checkup, my friend whispered to me,
"Hey you know, I heard Li-kun wants to do the marriage thingy with you in that game! People are saying that he likes you! ~"
I laughed it off but glanced back towards the guys' side, to see him laughing with his friends. For some reason, I blushed a light pink and smiled unknowingly to myself in joy.
Joy was short-lived.
That day of proposal never came even after 2 years.
Within those 2 years, I wanted ever so dearly to have a boyfriend. Two other guys who were best friends even fought over me and I broke their friendship selfishly.
One of them eventually went overseas and never returned till this day, even when he promised me to come back after 3 years. I liked him he liked me.
The other was nice in front of me but with his friends he made endless tales of gossip about me to no end till I eventually cried and ran home with a tear-stained face. I detested him he liked me.
But yet, Li Syaoran never did take any action nor did he confess. And yet, neither did I.
From then on, I vowed never to like anyone, including him. I didn't know why, but my foolish eyes just couldn't stray away from him.
Alas, as the saying goes,
Loving someone is hard.
oooo
As another year passed since we changed classes, we hardly spoke to each other anymore. Just a simple smile or wave that lasted milliseconds… That was all. I didn't fall in love with anyone.
Another year passed and it was our major exams that decided which high school we were to go to. I promised myself that I would confess after. My friends supported me.
That day, I messaged him telling him to meet me at the roof of the school. He came as promised, smiling. I confessed.
He turned me down.
I cried myself to sleep that night as if there was no tomorrow.
The next day, he came to me after school and agreed to my confession. But said that we should concentrate on our studies. I was stunned… No. Shocked!
However, he told me he liked another. I was heartbroken yet jealous of that girl that he liked. So jealous... My mind couldn't think straight.
I called her out after school to the park. Stabbed once. The blood flowed like endless cherry blossoms dyed red as her velvet black hair weaved through my white hands. I laughed and cried. But I didn't kill her.
She was in hospital. He was with her.
Thee was alone at a bridge. I stared out in to the vast ocean. Jumped. For I was folly and dumb for falling in love.
I can't stand the pain of heartbreak.
Loving someone is hard.
xoxoxo
A/N: RxR thank you. It is now 12.53pm here as I end.