Bella's pov

The day Edward left me is the day my body became an empty shell. There was no use for life again. Everyone tried to cheer me up but nothing worked. My friends gave up on me, my family gave up on my everyone gave up on me and I gave up on the world. The pain was so unbearable that I soon began to cut but even that didn't work so I stopped eating but nothing. One day I tripped on a lose floor board and found a box of the things they had given me and some pictures of Edward and I. After seeing that picture I new the only was to end my pain was suicide. I would do it at the Cullen's mansion after my dad left. He never took his gun anymore so there would be no problem on figuring out how. I began writing my letters I would ship out today. I wrote one to my mom and Phil, to Jessica and Anglia, and to jacob. I also wrote 1 for each Cullen and my dad.

'Dear dad,

Please don't blame your self. I live my own life and make my own decisions it just so happens I couldn't be normal enough to move on from Edward. He was my heart, my soul, my happiness and if you ever see him again don't hurt him or anything just remember I choose this myself.

'Love Bella.

I put my note on the tv and went to go get ready I put on makeup and a black dress and left with my gun paper and pencil. I mailed off the letters and went to their home. When I got there I walked in and sat at the piano.

'Dear Edward,

I want to tell you how much I love you but the pain was too much so I had to do this don't blame your self. Come visit my grave some time if you ever want to.

'Love your Bella.

After I wrote that I put a picture on me and Edward sitting at the piano in there and went on to Carlisle and Esme's note.

'Dear Carlisle and Esme

You guys really were my parent you excepted me for who I was and I appreciate that the only thing I ask of you is that you look over my Edward for me thank you.

Love your daughter Bella.'

Now Rosalie and Emmett I said out loud and began to write.

'Dear Rosalie and Emmett,

Rose you were so beautiful and I understand why you didn't like me. I'm sorry for doing this to your family you were always my sister to me. And Emmett you made me laugh and you laughed at me when I would trip or fall or God something stupid you were the big brother I never had.

Love your sister Bella.'

Now my dear Alice and Jasper.

'Dear Alice and Jasper,

Alice you were my sister and best friend and I was your Barbie bella. You loved me and helped me like I was apart of the family and I am forever grateful. Jasper I'm sorry we never got close but you were still my brother.

Love your sister Bella'

After I wrote them I taped them to the doors knowing they would see them. I walked to the living room and faced the piano imaging he was here to play for me and pulled the trigger. I didn't die well I thought I didn't till I looked down and saw my body there. Suddenly there was a red eyes vampire but he didn't feed he bit my neck and left. The transformation didn't complete but I could go in and out of being a ghost and a half vampire but I didn't smell like me I smelt like a vampire. I heard a car and went into ghost form. My dad and a team of doctors came in telling Charlie I was gone he soon left as they took my body. I couldn't leave to house I soon found out so all I had to do was wait for my Edward to return.