Hello there. Thank you so much if you are reading this. I felt really emotional in the season 5 finale and decided that since they won't create a proper ending like they were going to, I will do it myself. This story is set 4 years after she left the Jedi Order, she is now 20 and obviously wants to reconnect with her old Master. The point of view will shift between Ahsoka and Anakin only. I am just testing the waters with this story, so if you like it, please review and tell me what you think. If you don't like the story, please keep it to yourself.

Obviously I do not own Star Wars, Disney does.

Hope you enjoy!

Ahsoka's POV

Dear Anakin,

It's been a while hasn't it skyguy? I realise that this letter will never get to you, but I must tell you in some way about what has happened to me since I left the Jedi Order. You would not be proud of what I have done, but I don't care. You may think I am a murderer, but I don't care. You may think I am a monster, but I also don't care about that. The happiest time in my life was when I was your padawan and I only wish that you knew that. I never had many real friends in the Jedi Order. I thought that Barris Offee was my friend, but look where that has me now. You were the only person I could trust with anything and I feel that I have failed you, my old master. Failing you was the only thing I was truly afraid of. Although, before I continue I feel that you should know something; however I am afraid of how you would take the news.

I have become one with the dark side.

I have served the separatists well and they are thinking of promoting me to higher positions. I am unsure as to why I am even continuing with life to be honest. This war has taken a toll on me and I fear that I will not be able to take much more. Sometimes I regret the decision I made regarding the Jedi Order. Maybe I should have stayed, maybe I was right in my decision to leave. All I know is that I can never take back the things I have done and I wish I could go back to the times where I fought for the good guys. The guilt is overwhelming at times and I can't help but feel distraught. Do not think badly of me, I have never killed any children or defenceless opponents. The Jedi taught me well in that regard. My feelings cloud my judgement more and more these days, which is why I have given in and written this letter.

I never told you this, but when we were stranded on that planet with the father, brother and sister, I saw my future self. She told me that you had planted seeds of the dark side in me, but it was all my fault. You were never evil. I only ever saw the good in you.

When I left you four years ago, I was completely heartbroken. I was seriously considering ending my life. Now that I am 20, I am able to think in a clearer and more mature way. It was the only option for me, I fully understand why I had to leave now. I had to make a better life for myself. Although, I don't think you could call this a better life. I am forced to do things that I do not wish to do and I start to feel the overwhelming guilt every time.

Even though I have served the separatists and done as they commanded, I fear that there will come a point where I will be in danger. They wish to promote me, but that will involve horrible things that in my heart, I cannot do. If I do not do as they command, they will dispose of me, like they do with their droids. It is as simple as that. One shot, that is all they need.

I had to take a long journey after I left the Jedi Order to find myself a new lightsaber. When I was arrested, they took all my weapons and I had nothing left. My life was empty, and honestly, it still is. My feelings are difficult to control now. I sometimes feel like collapsing and giving in. I know how angry you would be if I did that, so I haven't.

I miss hearing that stupid name you always called me. I don't care how much "Snips" annoyed me because at least I was happy by your side, doing what made me feel good about where I had gotten in life. I miss your ridiculous lessons and the lectures I would receive after disappointing you. I miss having to save your worthless but on countless occasions because of your reckless behaviour. You were one big adventure and I would do anything to go back in time to do it all over again. Just to be with you and safe on the side of the war that really wishes to help the people, not themselves. I wish with all my heart that you could have a chance to read this and know my true feelings.

I would love to see you, but I know that is impossible.

I must confess that I never stopped thinking of you, but I know you probably never spared a single thought for me after I left. Attachment is not the Jedi way.

Please forgive me my old master.

Sincerely yours,

Snips

I folded the pages and tucked them neatly into a black envelope. Writing "Skyguy" on the front of the envelope, I hoped that he would realise who it was from if it ever made its way to him. I gently brushed my lips over the soft paper, hoping for a success. I placed it into my grey backpack and threw the bag over my right shoulder, gripping my lightsaber.

I headed down past the halls of my apartment that I had kept secret from everyone. I was the only one who knew about this place, and that is how it would stay. Once I had run up the stairs and outside to the landing bay, I spotted my cruiser and bolted for it. I only had a little time until the separatists would need me again. My apartment was not far from the Jedi Temple and I had extensive knowledge of the workings of this large structure. When I arrived at the temple I walked along the perimeter of the building to find my way in and spotted a small ventilation shaft that I could easily fit into. I jumped up into the shaft and crawled a short distance to find myself directly outside the masters quarters. I would have to be very careful from here on in.

I couldn't sense any living beings in the halls, so I decided to act. The halls echoed softly as I landed on the concrete floor and I quickly observed the hallway to make sure I would not be spotted. When I could safely walk out in the open I started to read the name plates on the doors. When I finally came to the door with the name "Anakin Skywalker", my heart leaped.

The door had a simple lock system that I unlocked in less than a second; looks like the Jedi really haven't changed. Once the door opened I took a hesitant step inside. There was a faint smell that I remember from the times when I was his padawan. He always smelt amazing, but that isn't relevant. I walked over to the desk and placed the envelope gently onto the wooden surface.

Suddenly, I heard the doors open. I turned to see who it was and standing in front of me was none other than Anakin Skywalker.

"Snips?"

"Master."

Ooops, he isn't my master anymore. Old habits die hard I guess.

He quickly closed the door, walked over to me and enveloped me in a hug. I immediately threw my arms around him and dug my head into his chest, almost exploding with happiness. He pulled back and looked down at me.

"What are you doing here? And how did you get in?" He asked.

"The Jedi haven't changed that much since I have been gone," I smirked.

"I haven't seen you in four years. You have changed so much, I almost didn't recognise you."

"You haven't changed a bit," I laughed.

"What are you doing here?"

"I came to give you a letter," I pointed to the black envelope on the table.

He walked over and picked up the letter and stared at it for a long time. I began to walk out of the room when he stopped me.

"Will you stay while I read it?"

"I don't know, I will surely be caught soon enough if I stay here," I said heading for the door once more.

Plus, it would be embarrassing for him to read it in my presence.

"I will protect you as I once did. Just, stay with me," he whispered, his facial features softening.

"Alright Master."

"You know you don't have to call me that anymore, right?"

"I keep forgetting. Forgive me Mast- I mean Anakin," I spoke looking up at him through my eyelashes.

"I missed you, Snips."

I smiled and walked over to the bed with my arms crossed over my chest. I sat down on the edge of the cushy surface and watched Anakin as he sat in his desk chair and began to read my letter.

He occasionally looked up at me when I assume he read the paragraphs about the separatists. He never lost the gentle look on his face, however his eyes read differently. Page after page, he read and he remained silent through the whole time. When he finally finished reading, he looked up at me with a worried look replacing the soft one.

"Ahsoka, please tell me this is not true. Have you really joined the separatists?"

"Yes my old master, I have. However that was just after I left. I was desperate and they could tell. I wish to re-join the Jedi Order, but I fear it is too late."

He walked over and sat beside me on the bed. I felt his hand on my shoulder when he placed his arm around me and held me to him.

"If we go to the council, they could exchange the information you have gathered for a place back in the Jedi Order, if you would like to try," his tone was soft and smooth, it calmed me immediately.

"But everything I have done, they will never forgive me?"

"Who have you killed?"

"Nobody that couldn't defend themselves. If it was not a fair fight, there was no fight."

"We will explain this to them. They will understand. You need to trust me snips," he said confidently.

"You will stand with me?" I asked.

"Of course. Let's go. They will be finishing with their meeting in five minutes. If we can catch them all together, it will make things easier.

I nodded and let myself be dragged by Anakin to the place of the council. I was nervous beyond belief and the fact that I was as good as a stranger to them did not help my situation. The council owed me. They almost had me killed for a crime that I did not commit. If they were anything like what they think a Jedi is, they should give me the benefit of the doubt. At least I hope. This could be my way out of the dark side. I have not let the dark side consume me, I still hate the separatists. The only reason I joined them was because I had nowhere else to go. Being out in the field with the Jedi gave me the most happiness I had ever experienced and I wanted that back.

Anakin and I arrived at the entrance to the meeting room. I pulled him back.

"What if they just have me killed?" I asked.

"They won't. Remember, I have your back."

"Thanks Skyguy."

He gave me one last hug before stepping into the room. I waited outside while he softened the council members up a little. When he gave me the signal I walked in with my hands behind my back and my head bent. Hopefully they wouldn't attack straight away without hearing my side of the story. I lifted my head to face my former masters.

"Ahsoka? Is that really you?"

So there is chapter one. I hope you liked it.

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-AllyKat XOXO