Csilla: Welp -hides- I have a good reason for a new fic (that'll probably/hopefully finish this month) I'm aiming for 50k

Sane people: You didn't make it the last two times...

Csilla: I know ;-; but enjoy~

Day Twenty-Eight: Essay About Yourself

I'm in love with a boy.

That in itself is not a bad thing – hell it's normal for a sixteen-year-old to realize such a thing. All the girls around me gossip about that topic, chatting about the boys they like with their friends and giving one another the courage to confess. Boys talking about how cute some girl is or the 'lower than low' scum whisper about how they would love to "tap that".

So how do I fit into all of this?

Let me start with a mental picture: I have short black hair and my father's onyx eyes (or so my guardian tells me). Not much a built to me – not athletic or fat though I do admit, I have a few unneeded pounds here and there.

Oh and let's not forget the most crucial detail: I'm no ordinary sixteen-year-old with a crush on a boy. I'm a sixteen-year-old boy with a crush on another boy. See my point? Society, though it has progress, still is not fully comfortable of the idea that a person could be in love with someone of the same gender. Don't get me wrong, I do have my fair share of support. But of course, there are always bad apples in any crowd. So I try not to focus on the people who try to tear me down. Though that is really hard-Ah, I feel like I'm getting off-topic again...

Okay, when did I realize I was in love with a boy? Well, I can assure you it wasn't your typical 'boy-meets-girl-and-they-fall-madly-in-love' story. Nope, it was a roller coaster ride full of its ups and downs but then again, I'm getting ahead of myself.

I'm currently attending the local high school. It's a little strange to talk about myself (especially knowing that in the future it'll be future me reading this in senior year) but if I had to determine my place on the social food chain, I would say that I'm way waaaay down towards the bottom – alongside the misfits. I was there long before I found out my infatuation towards guys so no need to consider that as an explanation for such a low spot. I'm not in any clubs nor do I think I'm anything special but I am who I am. An otaku to the core...

How does this unnamed boy that I've realized I'm in love with fit into this? Well let's just say, this guy is not in my league. No where near in my league. He at the top of the social pyramid, Natsu Dragneel. Straight 'A' student, class leader and captain of the high school's basketball team. Quite the dependable guy, am I right? And I believe it goes without saying that he's beyond attractive!

Short hair dyed a light rose color –he stood out so much when he transferred to my school that I couldn't keep my eyes off of him– and deep eyes that showed warmth to everyone. The few times I've accidentally let my eyes wander, I noticed how surprisingly built he was. I mean, he's not 'grrr, muscle-man'... not even athletically-built... just the right built to make anyone feel at ease when he wants to hold them. And yes, those were all accidents! I hadn't meant to look, it just happened. Four times. Every other week. And if he's still going here by our senior year, in two years then that means I spent... Crap! I gotta write this out...

There's twelve months in a year

Minus three months of summer break

So that's nine months

Seven days in a week

Minus two for the weekend

So that's five days

Four weeks to each month

Four weeks times five days is twenty days roughly spent in school

Multiplied again by nine months and that's...

A hundred and eighty days.

Two out of five is forty percent

And forty percent of a hundred and eight days is...

Seventy-two days of accidental wandering eyes.

Multiply by two for the second year and that's...

A hundred and forty-four days total.

I swear I'm not creepy! It's just that every so often, I hear snippets of his conversations with his friends and I can't help but glance over in curiosity. Now I'm sure I sound like a nosy stalker – I'm not!

I should stop writing... everyone is going to think Natsu Dragneel had a creepy eavesdropping stalker!

Two Years Prior: Fairy Tail Academy Gates

Stifling a yawn wasn't the easiest thing when you have a younger brother who had eyes like a hawk; "Nii-san… you wouldn't want people to think you spend your nights reading manga or playing games," Lyon Fullbuster, between the two of them, was commonly mistaken as the older twin considering the blaring obvious difference in their outward personality.

Lyon was mature, focused on his academics and highly involved in clubs – including student council. Gray, on the other hand, was fairly immature and preferred having his nose in manga or his eyes glued various video games. The older twin honestly could care less if other people thought his little brother was older than him. It left him to enjoy what he loves more.

Bored onyx eyes wandered from one faceless person to another before his attention stopped on an odd sight; a small patch of rosy locks among brown and black with a few blondes in the mix. Raising a lone finger, he succeeded in gaining his younger brother's attention: "Oi, Lyon... who's that?"

Pushing up his glasses, Lyon followed his brother's gaze before clearing his throat: "That's the new student," groaning, "He was supposed to be waiting in the office for me..."

Left without much else to go on, Gray watched his brother storm over and yank the new guy from the crowd. With no one else blocking his view, onyx eyes widened – the rosette was more attractive outside the crowd! Short hair framed a contagious grin that even tugged at the corners of his own mouth as he watched the duo walk into the school before heading inside himself. Once inside, Lyon and the new guy were nowhere to be seen – "Lyon's magical ability strikes again," Gray hummed as he headed for his locker.

Lyon Fullbuster had the strangest ability to make it to the office, which was on the other end of the long main hallway, in record time. His older brother constantly teased him about it whenever a moment like this happened.

Grabbing a few textbooks for his first couple of classes, Gray stuffed them into his bag before grabbing two manga and double-checking to make sure he had brought his handheld from home. When he deemed he was prepared, he grabbed two bobby pins and shut his locker. The moment he entered his first class, he slipped past a few people to make it over to his best friend. And his younger brother's girlfriend, Sherry. He handed her the bobby pins before sitting down at an empty desk, she immediately stood up and pushed his bangs back before pinning them back with both pins. It was a part of their morning routine and it always made Gray smile – the pink-haired girl was like an older sister to him even though she was much younger than him. Sort of like a female version of Lyon.

"There we go~ all set, Gray" She stepped back to examine her work before smiling down at him; she sat back down at her seat asking in a low voice, "Loke told me that there's a new student enrolling today, have you seen them yet?"

Leaning over, "Uh, yeah… Me and Lyon saw him this morning," The raven replied in a whisper but onyx eyes caught the curiosity that washed over her blue eyes when he mentioned that the new student was a boy.

"Is he cute?" If that question was coming from any other girl's mouth, one would assume it was asked because she was interested in having a boyfriend but Sherry was asking for a whole other reason.

The hidden message in that question hit him hard as he turned to face her, "I'm not interested in dating… I've told you that before," Gray was only being half-honest; he did have no interest in dating anyone from Fairy Tail Academy but like every hormone-driven teen, he would prefer not to be alone. And besides there was nothing wrong with thinking someone was attractive...

"So he is cute~" She sang lightly so only they could hear her and when raven hair tussled downwards in defeat, Sherry laughed under her breath.

Aside from his younger brother, Sherry was among the first to accept him without any issue. Levy was next, again without any issues. Erza and Jellal needed a little more convincing but the raven was sure it was only because they enjoyed messing with him.

He pulled out his handheld from his bag – he had a few minutes to spare – and instantly glued his attention to the screen. Sherry would nudge him when class began, after all. It was barely a few minutes before Gray felt that nudge to his side, his eyes glanced over as he quietly slipped the game on his lap and out of sight before following her gaze to the front of the room.

A lump formed as his teacher went on to having both of the new students introduce themselves; the shorter one with long blue hair began: "Wendy Marvell... I-I'm fr-from K-Kyoto," before giving a short bow.

"Guess its my turn," chuckling, "I'm Natsu Dragneel and just like Wendy here, I'm also from Kyoto" Gray sunk down in his seat a little; the rosette's voice was music to his ears. And he hated cliches!

Their teacher went on to give them an assign seat from the available ones remaining, "Wendy, you can sit beside Asuka... and Natsu, I'll seat you right behind Gray. Asuka... Gray... could you both raise your hands?"

In that order, both teens raised their hands and the raven could feel Sherry's stare on him as both teens (namely Natsu) took their seats. For one brief moment when the rosette passed him, he was out of her sight so he could indulge in a little - a faint tint on his cheeks when the light scent of vanilla blew past him.

There was scrapping behind the raven as the desk moved slightly to accommodate the newcomer before the teacher began teaching the lesson -not that Gray could focus at all. Every so often he felt a soft poke to his shoulder blade and every time he turned around, Natsu was asking for help -mostly for little things: a pencil, paper to write on, etc.

"Could you give me another sheet please?" The rosette whispered as he leaned across his desk towards the raven, who nodded before leaning over to grab another sheet of paper before realizing he didn't have much left. Biting the inside of his cheek, he didn't want to leave the new student to fend for himself but his next class was math and the satan-reincarnated teacher made them write a lot! Maybe Sherry would hand him a couple of sheets after class let out.

Grabbing a clean sheet, Gray turned back around slightly and offered it: "Here,"

Taking the paper, Natsu flashed him an award-winning smile -one that the raven would never forget- before going back to taking notes. Turning back around, curious onyx didn't move away from the rosette until a small smile spread across his own face and his attention went back to their science teacher. Gray couldn't understand any of it: Biology, in his opinion, was confusing! It freaked him out a little as their teacher once explained how cells were living things that would run through the veins collecting and fixing stuff - okay, he might not have been entirely paying attention that lesson. But how can something so small have that much intelligence when he was sitting here struggling with sophomore-level work?!

At least his English class would provide some relief, if nothing else he would be able to not stress himself out further. The teacher tends to go on a rant about various topics that have little or nothing to do with their current lesson while his biology is a straight-lace tightwad. Much like his little brother, Lyon.

Csilla: Today marks day one of Camp NaNoWriMo~ This will be my third time doing it and I'm excited-nervous about this whole month! I mostly want to see if I can write 50k -has only ever written 27k at most-

WORD COUNT (not including AN): 2,148

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&I'll do my utmost to upload a chapter a day for thirty days... hopefully but for now I'm going on to keep writing until I turn over and work on Illusions (yes, the chapter has already been outlined ;D so if I'm really good then I can post it sometime this month) or the other ones that are 3/4 done...

Wish me luck?